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Tuesday, 28 April 2026

Standing up to Boyz page 6 The Carnival

clockwork is on the war path
Al fayed is innocent , please can you not abduct Dev for mating duties
this blog is copyright of LIZARIKK . throw , clockwork , fleur , bluebottle , Millicent , Shacks , duffers
tasha , petra , chops , identity thief , DM , MJ , chuckster, bobble are not welcome
My first book is called The Love Bombers by Lacey Ember

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Victoria Sparking

, bully boulevard by Lacey Ember . another author name of mine is Anna Crackle , and Sparkle Ember
, hunnie and her chronies are not welcome to them , she wants to feed my books into AI
I opt out of them being so used in AI

this book is fictional

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if it seems like Charlotte has just been messing about all these years and not going to work, theres been alot more to it than that . She has had so many therapists , most of whom have been quite insane themselves taking her round and round the garden path . She's been to cults and healers all of which helped on her journey

As well as various support groups and specialised phonelines for different types of abuse and loss . but its taken years for anything to really make sense

Since being hospitalised in 2013 and finding the right medication and the right therapist she's become alot more useful and amenable and been able to share some of her experiences with others , do voluntary work and take on some really difficult people that nobody else will take on

She's not been able to turn it into employment because her energy levels are not consistent enough but usefulness is not only about earning money in fact far from it . Some of the most useful people in society are not earning very much

as a woman her hormones are very comforting to her . Free speech , freeze peach

she continutes to get alot of online abuse as you do online , death threats , blinding , threats to other friends , deafening , spiking , skinny women trying to get an orgasm , well not all of them are skinny but there is a pattern , women who need HRT . Even family members trying to get an orgasm or to force Charlotte to care for a difficult relative , Christians whos faith is failing them and have resorted to gaslighting by spelling mistakes

Charlotte googled gaslighting with spelling mistakes and its a real thing !

her family say she is too much of an exhibitionist . Well she did not start out that way , she was just doing normal things , expressing herself when she discovered she was on camera at all times . If you write down your thoughts on paper , they will be nicked by people with micro drones . So its actually about claiming her own intellectual property . And anyway why are they reading this if they think its subversive !

its also about making room for straight people in todays culture . Just because something is on the internet does not mean yous are all welcome !

with the micro drones she has noticed that not everybody can get permission to do that and have to wait until you are outdoors hoping you will say something . There are people who can sneak in without permission or get a boot leg from someone who does

one time she went over the handle bars of her bike and grazed her hands and knees . She felt no pain and it was like the ground opened up beneath her , invalidating all that went before and she didnt know which of her boyfriends she wanted . Gone the porcealin jugs and posh side lamps , she stepped forward into love , freedom and courage , renewed by adrenalin and a sense that she had nothing to fear . the accident was caused by a pot hole . The boyfriends were impressed that she was not upset . Hello bongos and a quest for more excitement

the boyfriends try to compete on guitar and by jumping over bollards , But Charlotte chooses Mike because he was nasty to her and she felt that was what she deserved . He was also super loving so she was well and truly hooked on him and his tutelage . She would never take drugs again . He even did a representation of a mother bird for her with her as his chick

Back to the present day and Kal suggested that she do fleur . On her own of course , and she tries to obey Kal when she can , so she tried , only to find herself back at Notting Hill Carnival with a bunch of guys and so many people watching while they pounded the streets

low sex drive does not mean no sex drive . She longs for a break from sex , but regularly gets turned on and frustrated if she tries to abandon it . She should try not to be , try to wait longer . Kal sometimes says to just fake it and she feels that would turn her on and then she'd have to do the whole performance

anyway so the black guy gets in the window at her Dads house and you can hear neighbours slamming doors and the fear of getting caught with Kal watching while they bucked

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, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Victoria Sparking

this book is fictional

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Leaving herself frustrated for several days she can become unbearably overbearing and opinionated

in an ideal relationship youd agree that if one person is not in the mood , the other one will take care of their own needs

this is of course complicated by the possiblity they are having cyber sex with someone else and might be building a whole other relationship

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at primary school the kids would play ' kiss chase ' with the boys chasing the girls. I remember standing in the middle of the playground wearing white zip up boots , green tights a green skirt and blazer and my contribution was to kick the boys who came to chase me !

the beginning of a lifetime of fighting with men on various levels

and it wasnt that i didnt like boys ! i loved boys and would often choose them over girls as playmates , sometimes they seemed to be more intersted in a subject than the girls . i had a maths friend called Michael and we got teased for being a couple when we really werent . And there was Zaki but i cant remember what we shared now

one of the teachers said dont let those boys lead you astray ! as i was starting to flirt around age ten

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Tasha is doing her nut thinking I've done fleur . A possibility she is closely monitoring

Friday, 17 April 2026

Standing up to Boyz page 5 , Zero Sum Eleven

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Victoria Sparking

this book is fictional

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why would Charlotte and her mother be a threat to the FBI ? she thought Crystal was crazy to think that only to find herself with the same delusion . Because they're half casts ? do all half casts get persecuted ?

Crystal was threatened with torture if she refused her meds . Or removal to a group home . She requested a therapist which was denied and she screamed the place down

other patients steal your belongings and you have to help care for them . Even in the community once released . Sometimes having to take on a very disturbed person single handedly . Charlotte is much in demand for this kind of service . Under unspoken threat of sanctions

She has taken on a young person with a personality disorder , a recovering male heroin addict and a 70 year old dissociative patient with alot of anger and bitterness . Feeling the impact of cuts to services .while heavily medicated herself

Charlotte had been something of a slag in her younger days , left her steady boyfriend at the squat and went downstairs to Jacks room . Seduced him . Brother Bud tried to act as pimp , threatening to split them up if Jack didnt supply him with dope . There was shouting

there was also much jamming where they all forgot who was partners with who and it was all a great drama between young people , there was unity and harmony , several guitar players , a cello , a keyboard , they did not really know then what great musicians they were , they had not found themselves

Jack and Charlotte did break up but it was not really Buds doing as Bud would not have fixed her up with Mike

Jack was an awesome guitarist and singer who looked like Jack Nicholson . People were always saying so . Bud looked like Bowie and a cousin looked like Sting . Jack prided himself on being a caring people person and he was, he taught Charlotte a few things . He was also quite depressed . And felt bad for taking Chalotte off his friend . The friend forgave him and they remained friends

Jack and Bud were very funny and so was Mike , and some other friends who were into Buddhism . Charlotte didnt realise then that her value lay in being an attractive young girl with the guys trying to make her laugh . They all cracked each other up so much

One time Charlotte took a piece of dope through Victoria Station . She felt this was out of character for her . If there is such a character . Is that an assumption that certain types of people would carry a piece of dope through Victoria Station ?

Zero Sum Eleven from 2013 is about meeting Trevor

Charlotte : Im sorry sir i had once officer kicking me in the back and another with her hand down my pants ... feral law ... usher in the jungle , crimes of passion huh ... make my day ... swearing and lashing out , the scent of a trouble maker , im just a complete arsehole and im really gonna fuckin hurt ya

mobster , something a bit more rawrrrr, trying to see into what looks like a pile of rubble but is really a road side bomb , unfriendly territory , i have a screw missing , you is gonna get burn

Trevor : listen mate, i can kill people ... drive em to suicide messing about frooo the authorities ... you will not get away ... your friends are a bunch of harridans

dont you prick tease me

he leans into her against the wall : id like to shag your brains out but youre too fucking easy ...

Charlotte : Zat right ? sorry to shatter your crystal balls ... just what exactly did you think was going to happen . that id be thrown in the bin ? she pushes her knee into his groin , takes his gun out of his pocket and runs

turns out he was planning to have a baby with Emerald and that Charlotte was just at stepping stone . Having told Charlotte he didnt want kids . maybe she was too easy for him . this time itd be different . She pays a visit to his mistress

please im not in the mood for a load of shit

actually i want to leave him , Emerald . OK come in then . The place smelled of spice and batik prints , not a speck of dust in sight , and how the glass shone . Charlotte handed her a sealed envelope

Trevor and Baby Mother want the guardianship back after Jez took it . Charlotte would rather Jez kept it . Baby Mother ( Not Emerald ) has claimed responsibility for the coercion

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He got in through the window while she was doing her friend and said he has dads blessing to make a baby , N there was not enough lube
So the c spot got pulled into the g spot
While he pounded and she bucked. Not really model behaviour

Ive got your daughter . N she really turned on

Pushing against the tide . Kal said to open the suez canal

Standing up to Boyz notes 170426

clockwork is on the war path
Al fayed is innocent , please can you not abduct Dev for mating duties
this blog is copyright of LIZARIKK . throw , clockwork , fleur , bluebottle
tasha , petra , chops , identity thief , DM , MJ , chuckster, bobble are not welcome
My first book is called The Love Bombers by Lacey Ember

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Victoria Sparking

this book is fictional

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if it seems like ive just been messing about all these years and not going to work, theres been alot more to it than that . i have had so many therapists , most of whom have been quite insane themselves taking me round and round the garden path . Ive been to cults and healers all of which helped on my journey . As well as various support groups and specialised phonelines for different types of abuse and loss . but its taken years for anything to really make sense

Since being hospitalised in 2013 and finding the right medication and the right therapist ive become alot more useful and been able to share some of my experiences with others , do voluntary work and take on some really difficult people that nobody else will take on

ive not been able to turn it into employment because my energy levels are not consistent enough but usefulness is not only about earning money in fact far from it . Some of the most useful people in society are not earning very much

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As women our hormones are very comforting to us

Free speech, freeze peach

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Morgana has issued a threat of blinding to me , as she has before

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Dierdre Martin is on the warpath . Shes having difficulty reaching orgasm

Shes also harassing my vulnerable friend

holding out for a vaginal orgasm she is looking for women she can attack

and has settled on two vulnerable women with mental illnesses

she needs HRT

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Bud has issued a threat of deafening me

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the reverend Millicent Baxter has sent me a pidgeon . She recommends i visit a male heroin addict on my own to save her arse from the shame of a second suicide in the family and feeling herself too feeble to do it

shes hoping for a vaginal orgasm and thinks that kicking me will do the trick . Very Christian of her

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they think im too much of an exhibitionist . Well i didnt start out that way . i was just doing normal things , expressing myself , when i discovered im on camera at all times . As is probably Millicent too if she thought about it

If your sex life is interesting and you write down your thoughts on paper , you might as well upload them or they will be nicked by people with micro drones . Claim your own intellectual property

and if she really wanted to keep out of it she would not read this subversive material !

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and just because something is on the internet, doesnt mean anyone is invited to come and trash it . Pearls before swine

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Monday, 6 April 2026

Standing up to Boyz page 4 Subliminal Messages

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Victoria Sparking

this book is fictional

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So then Charlotte looked at her karma re the sex going wrong . Because she avoided two mental health patients at the swimming pool ?
Because she cut her vulnerable friends zoom calls to once a fortnight ?
Or is it that shes not standing up for herself enough ? Should not have visited her addict brother . Alone and feeling unsafe

Trevor has given the chuckster permission to harrass her outdoors , near her home, at medical appointments ,

the vibrator stopped mid orgasm and when nearly there this happened twice . Not sure if it was the equipment failing or if she had anger in her or something . there was less lube so that the c spot was being pulled into the g spot

Kal has nurtured her through sex failures before

according to surveys most women can apparently only orgasm with the c spot . Charlotte has never been invited to these surveys ! And yet most vibrators are designed to simulate penetrative sex

Shes sometimes orgasmed from sex and not needed all that afterplay stuff . Unfortuately her best orgasms during sex came from cheating . Maybe because her Dad cheated on his partners , she assumed it was a feminist thing to do . Or because of the adrenalin

how dead is the deceased ? how alive are the living ? Charlotte has written several pages of conversation with her late mother . Including reasons why she took her life . Which seem never ending

All she has is a photo of Crystal holding her baby self. She looks so happy . 19 years old with her first baby . In her mothers kitchen. She feels her mother cant hurt her any more now that shes married to Lance . That kitchen has objects from the 1950s , a metal teapot that sits on the stove , a striped apron, and a sieve used to make baby food from leftovers . Who does that now ! Crystal has beautiful red hair and a pink dress , while baby Charlotte is wrapped in a white towel . Crystal is so humble in ' her perfect state ' which people have described from the afterlife and happens sometimes on earth

it was great until young Lance felt trapped with his beautiful wife and

children

Charlotte in her infinte freedom decided to jump from a first floor window . For a myriad of reasons . She called an ambulance and was taken to the general hospital . Where after a couple of days two men who looked like they were from the FBI or something came to question her . She told them that people were watching her from satellite cameras and they sectioned her

she screamed the place down . And was injected with benzodiazepines which she said were death to her . She was strapped to a board and driven through the night to the psychiatric hospital , singing pop songs and sharing her sweets with the ambulance nurse

Cryses sent a plague on Agamemnon to rescue his daughter Cryseis . So Agamemnon takes Briseis from Achilles as compensation . Cryseis asks her father to save Briseis also . She has fallen in love with Achilles and seeks to have her wishes considered . The two women become warriors in their own right

There is a gang harassing Charlotte online through her vulnerable friend Millie , who Charlotte is trying to help . She gets pidgeoned by Morgana, Chuckster, Tasha , Fleur and Shrek . Pidgeoning is when you send an online message to someone via a hijacked friend , hoping to create subliminal messages . Theyve threatened to cut Millie off from the support forum if she doesnt do their bidding

He popped her cherry .Just as the door knocked . N its always like this
Got through by the skin of her teeth

Struck by the nakedness of his penis . The audacity of it
The shame, the jaw jaw
A nuclear bomb

hypnotised

Time has come for a gang bang . Some of whom ejaculated
The g spot was activated . And ended in a good pounding

They're grinding each other . She bucked while he pounded

Standing up to Boyz notes 060426

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Victoria Sparking

this book is fictional

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i thought my mother was crazy to think the IRA were after her . Only to find myself thinking the same thing . Why though ? Why would myself and my mother be a threat to the IRA ? because we're half casts ? lots of people are half casts , do they all get persecuted ?

Crystal thought they were bugging the radiators. Her sisters husband came round and said thats just metal fatigue when they change temperature

its also about the chucksters personal feelings about me and my having left him. For the last time HE HAD ANOTHER GIRLFRIEND !!! a young asian girl at the time . He wanted me to marry him and be some sort of stooge of a wife . And im not allowed out of it ?

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if morgana moves near to me i will stop speaking to her . im having difficulty with boundaries in the friendship and that would just put paid to them

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Dad's sister is harassing my vulnerable friend . Aunt Cintzia

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zero sum eleven from 2013

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Trevor and baby mother have influenced a report that says I pose a risk to other people

They want the guardianship back is the reason

baby mother has claimed responsibilty for the coercion

Wednesday, 25 March 2026

Standing up to boyz page 3 the gargoyles

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Victoria Sparking

this book is fictional

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an orgasm is like a nuclear bomb, like the big bang of the universe

the parties were pretty loud with people freaking out all over the place and playing guitars and bongos . Singing tribal songs . Nobody worried about the neighbours

the old tape recorder gave the recording an ancient nutty woody sound when she howled up at an old viaduct with no pants on which attracted the attention of a dog . The imac felt so real when she howled with tears into it and it watched her play with herself

theres a woman with bpd sitting in a posh room with pink and green velvet sofas , green velvet cushions and a fireplace with an ornate surround . The woman lives in the lap of luxury and cant understand what is wrong with her or why , seeing as she has everything she needs and nothing bad has happened . She just cant find her strength . Like some sort of pedigree

meanwhile the Chuckster is harasseing her vulnerable friend along with Fleur and Tasha making it difficult for Charlotte to care for her . Stealing from the mouths of babes . He had someone follow Charlotte into the chemist to give her the flu . Fuck the knuckle he said

Charlotte prefers the g button

in this town there are alot of sinister gargoyles , a smell of beer and the graveyards where she played with herself . A dead person spoke to her of a local lynch mob . The keystone faces with bulging eyes and tongues hanging out , like decapitated heads , a person petrified

a terrible scream pierces the icy silence

stalkers are another kind of ghost . She tried to help her but the ravages of her illness drove them apart and she wept bitter tears . The ghosts whisper in the ears of her friends with abusive memes

Kal is a magician who has turned his hand to miracles and to sacred texts , restoring Charlottes soul , saving her from destruction , working tirelessly to protect her and daily shows her more magic and miracles

when Charlotte was a virgin she could not access her g spot as it is behind the hymen . Doesnt make her a lesbian . She could orgasm from a dry hump

he popped her cherry just as the door knocked , its always like this , she thought , getting through by the skin of her teeth , struck by the nakedness of his penis , the audacity of it , the jaw jaw , a nuclear bomb

she was about to orgasm in the usual way , vaginally , successfully when the vibrator stopped working ! Afterwards she thought its ok i did orgasm, then after about 15 minutes she felt there was more . So she went at it again and ended up with a less successful orgasm , using the c spot closer to the end

Shroedingers orgasm

was it the guy in the first one or the guy in the second one ?