Saturday, 14 February 2026

The Trauma Bond page 9 Crystal

 

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Al fayed is innocent , please can you not abduct Dev for mating duties
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My first book is called The Love Bombers by Lacey Ember 
, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Victoria Sparking
, bully boulevard by Lacey Ember . another author name of mine is Anna Crackle , and Sparkle Ember
, hunnie and her chronies are not welcome to them , she wants to feed my books into AI
I opt out of them being so used in AI
this book is fictional
 
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people are like i wish i could paint , i wish i could write music . Difficult to learn those . But everybody can write ... 

 Agatha and Trevor have worked hard on some zerzetzung for Anna , fabricating a report that states that Anna is a danger to her carers . Chuckster had her followed into a pub where she was having lunch . they wait for you to finish eating before delivering the spam. He got the information about her movements from Trevor who has surveillance powers  

 in 2014 Anna went out without her camera because it was raining . Shes never regretted being camera-less so much ! There outside was a young woman sitting in the rain with a rook sheltering under her umberella ! She told Anna that it had fallen off a roof and come over to her injured . it sat there for 5 hours after which the young woman took it to a rooks nest under a bridge . Anna reconstructed the scene with collage and sketches and went on to paint the scene which was exhibited at a prestigious gallery  

 


 Annas father Lance played guitar while Anna was being born at home in Richmond London . her parents had a thriving beaknik scene going on with musicians writers and artists around the kitchen table. One of them painted with an old sock . Crystal cooked them wonderful meals 

There was an ancient black marble clock which you wound up at the back . it had an old fashioned ticking . it went from house to house with them and was one of Crystals favourite objects  

Crystal would have liked to go to Dublin to explore her secret Irish heritage . Like those boys on the bus who said ' after you ' to each other before taking a seat  . She'd like to get the boat over 

 Crystal was committed to a mental hospital in spite of feeling that her parents had messed her up . And the medication numbed her feelings somewhat . You could hear patients screaming in the corridors and Crystal wondered if their families had had them committed 

shed had to go along with an open relationship in her marriage to Lance because he seemed to want that and she didnt want him to leave her . She loved him with all her heart and soul . The threesome made her feel bad and wonder about the parentage of her son . And Lance left her anyway . She told Anna that she should have waited for marriage before having sex  

Crystal Anna and Bud moved to the suburbs where her parents bought a house for them to live in . they had a wonderful cat called Wolfhound who was so human like and used to fight dogs and foxes . He had ripped ears and would leave ' offerings ' of birds and mice on the doorstep to show his gratitude . Anna and Bud were sometimes allowed to fall asleep with him  . Crystal got the cat to help the children over the divorce and the move 

she said Lance was a tall dark handsome stranger , a bit rugged and stubbly but also very loving and affectionate . A heart breaker he looked like a rock star in his jeans and beatnik jumpers , playing guitar and honky tonk piano  . as a journalist he developed a piercing stare that would make you confess whatever was on your mind , a classic intellectual with a mop of brown hair . he smoked a pipe and cigarettes and would be up late tapping away on his typewriter 

he built Anna a swing in the garden for her 5th birthday  

then one day he told Crystal he was leaving . they were decorating the kitchen and stopped for a pot of tea . He said he felt suffocated by her behaviour , like hanging sheets up at the windows to keep the neighbours out . He wanted to be free from her bunny boiler behaviour  . Crystal said she would commit suicide if he left but he needed to go and he moved in with Janet . Who was more interesting to talk to he felt . 

and Crystal and the children moved to the suburbs where she missed the beatnik scene in West Hampstead .Anna gained the impression that its men who do the cheating and she went on to cheat on her boyfriends ' to right the balance '  

back in the present moment Anna kept her fantasies alive she watched a clip of a horror film , and the fantasy brain stormed to a cluster of white people and then a cluster of black people , she had gone to them with a girl friend and watched them doing it , being careful not to get killled in the blinding light . 23 minutes to a bucking pounding 

 n Dev prevailed  

The Trauma Bond notes 140226

 

clockwork is on the war path
Al fayed is innocent , please can you not abduct Dev for mating duties
this blog is copyright of LIZARIKK . throw , clockwork
tasha , petra , chops , identity thief , DM , MJ , chuckster, bobble are not welcome
My first book is called The Love Bombers by Lacey Ember 
, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Victoria Sparking
, bully boulevard by Lacey Ember . another author name of mine is Anna Crackle , and Sparkle Ember
, hunnie and her chronies are not welcome to them , she wants to feed my books into AI
I opt out of them being so used in AI
this book is fictional

Monday, 9 February 2026

The Trauma Bond page 8 Annas mother

 

clockwork is on the war path
Al fayed is innocent , please can you not abduct Dev for mating duties
this blog is copyright of LIZARIKK . throw , clockwork
tasha , petra , chops , identity thief , DM , MJ , chuckster, bobble are not welcome
My first book is called The Love Bombers by Lacey Ember 
, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Victoria Sparking
, bully boulevard by Lacey Ember . another author name of mine is Anna Crackle , and Sparkle Ember
, hunnie and her chronies are not welcome to them , she wants to feed my books into AI
I opt out of them being so used in AI
this book is fictional
 
edited 090226 
 
Anna helped her brother Bud recover from a drugs overdose and kidney failure , encouraged his writing talents , advocated for his accommodation and now hes stalking her on the internet 
 
she feels since her Dad died she's first in line for all the blame 
 
Bud has been fat shaming her and calling her an old bag and stuff . Theyre actually the same age , hes just not grown emotionally since he was a teenager  
 
Anna carries a small backpack containing toothpaste , nail scissors, a pocket mirror , masks , spare underwear , a pen knife, notebook and pens and a key to the disabled toilets . Dad said she was always on the run as though she doesnt really trust anyone and is ready to defend herself 
 
Trevor allows Emerald to run rampant in Annas email groups . Shes his hedge fund 
for if he fails to get Anna back . Neither of them has any respect for process  . 
 
Why would Anna go back to him with all that going on . And when she has this amazing beta male in Kal whos all you could wish for , hes both strong and gentle and gets straight to the point. You can be authentic with him and not have to play games all the time . Unless youre in the mood for playing games . there is plenty of difference between him and Anna to keep things  sharp between them . They come from different worlds 
 
Anna is studying painting. she just discovered ' limited palette ' , where you use just 5 base colours and any other colours you want must be made by mixing the five . It really helps the colours to look like they are related to each other . then there are diffuse reflections where the colour of one object is reflected in the next object . Shes good at painting bottles and the oil really looks oily . And works colour into the shadows like the expressionists  
 
Annas mother was called Crystal . She advised Anna to keep her virginity for her marriage  , feeling she had got that wrong herself . She said a lady down the road called Penny used to excuse herself to the bathroom when she was tempted 
 
she said Dads parents were ' culture vultures ' . She didnt drink much and rarely smoked , preferring savoury food . Apparently there was a menage a trois which might have resulted in Annas brother  . Thinking about it is making Anna scratch her nose . Crystal said that Marylin Monroe killed herself because she wanted to be rememberd as a beautiful young woman 
 
Crystals mother Gloria said that you dont always desire your husband and a young Anna wondered what she was getting at  . And someone pulled 15 year old Annas duvet off during the night . Anna was naked apart from a pair of red pants 
 
Crystal and Annas father Lance looked like film stars . Anna was a good little girl who went off the rails as soon as she left home  . Crystal would have enjoyed Mock the Week partly because she felt she was partly Irish , that Gloria had an affair during the war with an Irish American soldier . Gloria was a tempestuous  passionate woman unlike her husband . Crystal would enjoy seeing new comedians cutting their teeth on the programme 
 
Crystal was like a stormy grey sky before it rains , full of electric tension , like a gentle deer and a hollyhock flower in the 1960s . She made 18 suicide attempts before she succeeded  
 
hasnt stopped Anna being into men. Even if they're not her type , they sure might know how to do it with very little words  
 
Shes noticed recently you cant see any man on man action in the media although there are plenty of girls kissing . Anna felt a bit daunted to compete with man on man action , imagining they have very powerful orgasms . But she did try , exploring her bisexual side , she came around to a good pounding which burned while she bucked 

The Trauma Bond notes 090226

 

clockwork is on the war path
Al fayed is innocent , please can you not abduct Dev for mating duties
this blog is copyright of LIZARIKK . throw , clockwork
tasha , petra , chops , identity thief , DM , MJ , bobble are not welcome
My first book is called The Love Bombers by Lacey Ember 
, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Victoria Sparking
, bully boulevard by Lacey Ember . another author name of mine is Anna Crackle , and Sparkle Ember
, hunnie and her chronies are not welcome to them , she wants to feed my books into AI
I opt out of them being so used in AI
this book is fictional
 
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People are like oh I wish I could paint i wish I could write music 
 
Difficult to get started on those . But everybody can write ... 

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Agatha and Trevor  have worked hard on some zerzetzung , fabricating a report which says i pose a danger to my carers and that I tipped a bed pan over a nurse in hospital. I most certainly did not and have never heard these things 

I've got to meet Agatha for coffee next week.  I don't enjoy seeing her but somebody has to 

Hopefully a game of scrabble will help

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the chuckster had me followed into a pub where i was having lunch .  Hes still bitter that i dumped him on 2011. FYI he had another girlfriend like most of the people ive dumped 
He obtained information about my movements from Trevor who is abusing his powers of surveillance  
 
they wait for you to finish eating before delivering the spam  
 
 
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Friday, 30 January 2026

The Trauma Bond page 7 whos jam tart is it ?

clockwork is on the war path
Al fayed is innocent , please can you not abduct Dev for mating duties
this blog is copyright of LIZARIKK . throw , clockwork
tasha , petra , chops , identity thief , DM , MJ , bobble are not welcome
My first book is called The Love Bombers by Lacey Ember 
, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Victoria Sparking
, bully boulevard by Lacey Ember . another author name of mine is Anna Crackle , and Sparkle Ember
, hunnie and her chronies are not welcome to them , she wants to feed my books into AI
I opt out of them being so used in AI
this book is fictional
 
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Kal is a lovely man who cares about every little detail including Anna's enjoyment of sex

There's a writing exercise where you write your life story in 5 minutes 
Anna saw her life flashing before her eyes 
 
Agatha issued a rape threat and a threat towards Annas family members . She thinks Anna had a cheek to say she doesnt want them to be partners . She thinks she never gave any indication of that . And says she has a male best friend , one of her exes  . She feels she just tries to help and doesnt know why she keeps getting treated badly by people 
 
 she feels that Trevor drove a wedge between the two of them and that she went on in turn to drive another wedge between Anna and Trevor . 
she feels her sexual orientation is none of Annas business 
 
when Anna was at nursery school she reached for a jam tart on the table and another girl said ' actually i was going to have that ' . Anna belived her and let her have the tart  
 
Annas family had rattled away from Bognor in a removal van , they looked like film stars arriving in London in the rain feeling like travellers . Dad worked as a journalist and sometimes in cafes  . Mum was a beauty with a 1960s charm like Marianne Faithful . She'd been happy in Bognor and now back in London heartbreak awaited her  ... 
 
Mum felt the neighbours were watching them so hung up sheets at the windows  . She called her children little winks and tucked them up in white and pastel striped flanellette sheets 
 
Trevor interfered with the drains at the church art class and communications from the doctor . Hoping Anna will want him  . Shes tried going back to him a few times and he always heads straight for Emerald . He gets neighbours to slam doors to wake Anna up  
 
so she flew where the wind blew her . And she growled . Total freedom was hers , ending with a battering ram after 14 minutes . Bit of an action film with the car chase  

The Trauma Bond notes 300126

 

clockwork is on the war path
Al fayed is innocent , please can you not abduct Dev for mating duties
this blog is copyright of LIZARIKK , throw , clockwork
tasha , petra , chops , identity thief , DM , MJ , bobble are not welcome
My first book is called The Love Bombers by Lacey Ember 
, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Victoria Sparking
, bully boulevard by Lacey Ember . another author name of mine is Anna Crackle , and Sparkle Ember
, hunnie and her chronies are not welcome to them , she wants to feed my books into AI
I opt out of them being so used in AI
this book is fictional
 
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Emerald has embedded herself in my online email  groups 

Apparently this afforded her 18 orgasms in a year ! 

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i helped Bud recover from a drugs overdose and kidney failure , encouraged his writing talents , advocated for his accommodation and now hes stalking me on the internet 
 
i think since Dad died im first in line for all the blame for his life  
 
Bud has been fat shaming me and calling me an old bag and stuff . Were actually the same age hes just not grown emotionally since he was a teenager  
 
i dont really want to see him, its just a family obligation  
 
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Trevor allows emerald to run rampant like a weed in my email groups . Shes his hedge fund 
Neither has any respect for therapeutic processes 
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Anna's mother is called Crystal
 

Saturday, 17 January 2026

The Trauma Bond page 6 her teenage years

clockwork is on the war path
Al fayed is innocent , please can you not abduct Dev for mating duties
this blog is copyright of LIZARIKK , throw , clockwork
tasha , petra , chops , identity thief , DM , MJ , bobble are not welcome
My first book is called The Love Bombers by Lacey Ember 
, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Victoria Sparking
, bully boulevard by Lacey Ember . another author name of mine is Anna Crackle , and Sparkle Ember
, hunnie and her chronies are not welcome to them , she wants to feed my books into AI
I opt out of them being so used in AI
this book is fictional
 
edited 170126  


24 minutes, the ship sunk again. Amidst wakening sexuality . They held that off until they filmed it .N the black guy round the corner involved
Ended with a good pounding 
. There was a colourful cluster episode
In which Kal prevailed . In spite of female contributions
Which were tempting . A real monstering

hes persisting shes so excited , smouldering .There was a prolonged bucking . she did it for you 

Agatha threatened a face attack 

can Kal touch Anna through the web ? though no molecules meet , the energies and frequencies do . the vibes can go the distance and cause molecular alterations on the earth plane . if he wants to move her he flirts with someone else and she is touched 

this ancient energy comes from the stars remembering medieval times , and further back , Roman times , pre anno domini 

back on earth , housing insecurity feels like a hole in the stomach . Anna dies of a heart attack using her vibrator 

Dad - youd have been good for my daughter Charly . she was too serious. 

Millicent - no she wasnt serious enough Gary , she slept around . 

Dad - she didnt sleep around all that much , shes not a slag . Millicent - but a tad neglected by our standards . Charly - id not have been good for her , i was a right lad in those days , id have broken her heart . Dad - she might have broken yours . Charly - not really , she was a stunner but a bit of a geek in those days , shed not have kept up with me . She was a player but not as much as i was  

 as a teenager Anna had pretty shoes with medium high heels ,  a suede front , and a sling back . She wore them to orchestra practice . Where she fancied Jeremy . She had a cotton skirt that buttoned up the front so you could leave a few buttons loose . he fancied her too and she didnt know how to respond . she didnt have the confidence so she got off with his friend Guy . they went out the back for a grope . he asked her to suck him off and she didnt want to . So he called her a prick tease and they went back indoors . Jeremy called her a slag . Anna didnt really know what they meant or how she could have done things differently . She was brought up a hedonist  

 there was nothing about ' saving yourself ' or knowing your worth or anything like that , women holding the moral high ground . Anna has explored that in later life but then posts about sex on the internet so maybe is still a slag !  

she got off with a few boys in her teens , a degree of exciement mixed with embarrassment and awkwardness . She was embarrassed about her periods even though they were regular  

He had brown skin and they talked it through . Would go back to his
Hoping his parents weren't there .And actually the dad walked in
But they were so proud of their achievement
Having felt their sexual feelings together
 .There's a risk its rambunctious 


she kept believing . And a chance encounter changed everything
Even though a goddess had offered herself and shed asked Dads permission . It ended with a good stomping