Wednesday, 25 March 2026

Standing up to boyz page 3 the gargoyles

 
clockwork is on the war path
Al fayed is innocent , please can you not abduct Dev for mating duties
this blog is copyright of LIZARIKK . throw , clockwork , fleur , bluebottle 
tasha , petra , chops , identity thief , DM , MJ , chuckster, bobble are not welcome
My first book is called The Love Bombers by Lacey Ember 
, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Victoria Sparking
, bully boulevard by Lacey Ember . another author name of mine is Anna Crackle , and Sparkle Ember
, hunnie and her chronies are not welcome to them , she wants to feed my books into AI
I opt out of them being so used in AI
this book is fictional
 
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an orgasm is like a nuclear bomb, like the big bang of the universe 
 
the parties were pretty loud with people freaking out all over the place and playing guitars and bongos . Singing tribal songs . Nobody worried about the neighbours  
 
the old tape recorder gave the recording an ancient nutty woody sound when she howled up at an old viaduct with no pants on which attracted the attention of a dog  . The imac felt so real when she howled with tears into it and it watched her play with herself 
 
theres a woman with bpd sitting in a posh room with pink and green velvet sofas , green velvet cushions and a fireplace with an ornate surround . The woman lives in the lap of luxury and cant understand what is wrong with her or why ,  seeing as she has everything she needs and nothing bad has happened . She just cant find her strength . Like some sort of pedigree  
 
meanwhile the Chuckster is harasseing her vulnerable friend along with Fleur and Tasha making it difficult for Charlotte to care for her . Stealing from the mouths of babes  . He had someone follow Charlotte into the chemist to give her the flu . Fuck the knuckle he said 
 
Charlotte prefers the g button  
 
in this town there are alot of sinister gargoyles  , a smell of beer and the graveyards where she played with herself . A dead person spoke to her of a local lynch mob . The keystone faces with bulging eyes and tongues hanging out , like decapitated heads , a person petrified 
 
a terrible scream pierces the icy silence  
 
stalkers are another kind of ghost . She tried to help her but the ravages of her illness drove them apart and  she wept bitter tears . The ghosts whisper in the ears of her friends with abusive memes 
 
Kal is a magician who has turned his hand to miracles and to sacred texts , restoring Charlottes soul , saving her from destruction , working tirelessly to protect her and daily shows her more magic and miracles  
 
 when Charlotte was a virgin she could not access her g spot as it is behind the hymen . Doesnt make her a lesbian . She could orgasm from a dry hump 
 
he popped her cherry just as the door knocked , its always like this , she thought , getting through by the skin of her teeth , struck by the nakedness of his penis , the audacity of it , the jaw jaw  , a nuclear bomb 
 
she was about to orgasm in the usual way , vaginally , successfully when the vibrator stopped working ! Afterwards she thought its ok i did orgasm, then after about 15 minutes she felt there was more . So she went at it again and ended up with a less successful orgasm , using the c spot closer to the end 
 
Shroedingers orgasm 
 
was it the guy in the first one or the guy in the second one ?  

Standing up to Boyz notes 250326

 

clockwork is on the war path
Al fayed is innocent , please can you not abduct Dev for mating duties
this blog is copyright of LIZARIKK . throw , clockwork , fleur , bluebottle 
tasha , petra , chops , identity thief , DM , MJ , chuckster, bobble are not welcome
My first book is called The Love Bombers by Lacey Ember 
, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Victoria Sparking
, bully boulevard by Lacey Ember . another author name of mine is Anna Crackle , and Sparkle Ember
, hunnie and her chronies are not welcome to them , she wants to feed my books into AI
I opt out of them being so used in AI
this book is fictional

Wednesday, 11 March 2026

Standing up to Boyz page 2 the world war

clockwork is on the war path
Al fayed is innocent , please can you not abduct Dev for mating duties
this blog is copyright of LIZARIKK . throw , clockwork , fleur , bluebottle 
tasha , petra , chops , identity thief , DM , MJ , chuckster, bobble are not welcome
My first book is called The Love Bombers by Lacey Ember 
, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Victoria Sparking
, bully boulevard by Lacey Ember . another author name of mine is Anna Crackle , and Sparkle Ember
, hunnie and her chronies are not welcome to them , she wants to feed my books into AI
I opt out of them being so used in AI
this book is fictional
 
edited 110326  

 

 as the world war rages on , Trevor is hate bombing Charlotte with online memes threatening her security in various ways . He gets the pervert next door to bang things when she is talking to Kal 

Chuckster has claimed responsiblity for giving her a virus at the chemist . He likes to attack her at medical appointments  

 then again if Crystal hadnt taken her own life how would Charlottes life have played out ? Shed have been caring for her mother , raising two children , going to art school . But without all the drama what would she paint ? 

 in the eighties she went to a party with Bud and Alex , they were such dudes fitting right in on the scene . Charlotte was wearing skinny jeans and a vest top . There were people drinking and smoking cannabis 

Alex knew that Charlotte fancied him but was friends with her ex boyfriend and didnt want to hurt his feelings . His guitar playing would turn her on . He feels he can awaken her , that shes a bit green and he can show her to herself , how exciting life can be he thinks  , they are wild and free 

 some years later he is in a care home with MS and Charlotte contacts Fathers for Justice about access to his daughter . This intervention is successful  

You find yourself in a wood at night and come across a cottage where the light is on. The bearded man inside is not very friendly and you ask if there is anywhere you can sleep . He lends you a tent and says to watch out for bears  . You try your phone in the tent and cant get a signal but manage to phone the nearest town to ask for a rescue 

when the rescuers arrive they find a bear sitting on your tent . You are up a tree in a hammock . the search party dont look up and you are worried that shouting for them might awaken the bear  . They enquire at the cottage and the bearded man said he had heard a scream and assumed a bear had got you . You look down and see the bear creeping towards the cottage 

 

 she had moved on , grabbed the steering wheel and swerved uphill as the sky fell 

a good pounding to her boa constrictor , her lions maw  

There was a surprise piranha sting 
youd be brave to meet
That she'd given up on
A brother in spirit who was against the war
N everyone watching
It was so kinky

17 minutes n they're pounding the floor


The piranha has sharp teeth

Standing up to Boyz notes 110326

 

clockwork is on the war path
Al fayed is innocent , please can you not abduct Dev for mating duties
this blog is copyright of LIZARIKK . throw , clockwork , fleur , bluebottle 
tasha , petra , chops , identity thief , DM , MJ , chuckster, bobble are not welcome
My first book is called The Love Bombers by Lacey Ember 
, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Victoria Sparking
, bully boulevard by Lacey Ember . another author name of mine is Anna Crackle , and Sparkle Ember
, hunnie and her chronies are not welcome to them , she wants to feed my books into AI
I opt out of them being so used in AI
this book is fictional
 
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k chuckster youve had plenty of revenge now you cant keep doing more  . And you can only do that with permission from Trevor . So its really from Trevor and we know what his objective is 
 
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Apparently my brother is planning to have me attacked when I visit him in 2 weeks time , maybe a drink spiking or something 
 
I shouldn't have to go there on my own   

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Not that i mind paying for an article just not trusting unfamiliar websites  

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the chuckster is harassing my vulnerable friend so he take the piss . when i pointed this out he said i should have my medicaiton changed 
 
i dont fancy him any more . when we ' went out ' it was like as if i was his mother  
 
fine talk from somebody with autism  
 
other day he had someone follow me into the chemist to give me flu  
 
wonder if anyone recognises him  
 
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the seeds in the cereal are affecting my hormones  

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Chuckster said fuck the knuckle which might be a possibility  

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The g button  

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Change of plan for Saturday due to the weather . If I say more then my stalkers will know about it !

My friends cat enjoys collecting smells in the garden

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stalkers like Morgana are another kind of ghost  
 
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She tried to help me but the ravages of her own disorder drove us apart and I wept bitter tears  

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the ghosts whisper in the ears of my friends telling them abusive memes
 
worried my brother will spike my drink on monday   
 
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The woods continued , it was a bear and a human had startled each other and run off in opposite directions . The man has a gun  

you let yourself into the emtpy cabin and sit by the fire when the bearded man walks in on his own with his gun. and tells you to get out . you go out the front door and find yourself face to face with the bear 
 
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Kal is a magician who has turned his hand to miracles and to sacred texts , who has restored my soul rescuing me from destruction , working tirelessly to protect me , and daily shows me more magic and miracles  
 
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a virgin would not be able to access their g spot 
although could maybe orgasm from a dry hump  
 
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15 minutes 
He popped my cherry 
Just as the door knocked
N its always like this 
Got through 
By the skin of my teeth
 
Struck by the nakedness  
Of his penis
The audacity of it 
The shame,  the jaw jaw 

There was blood 
A nuclear bomb
 
 
I was about to orgasm the usual way   , vaginally , successfully ,  when the vibrator suddenly stopped mid orgasm ! 

Afterwards I thought its ok i did orgasm , then after about 15 minutes I felt as if there was more so I went for it again and ended up with a less successful orgasm , using the c spot too close to the end 

Schroedingers orgasm 

Was it the guy in the first one or the guy in the second one ?

Thursday, 5 March 2026

Standing up to Boyz page 1

clockwork is on the war path
Al fayed is innocent , please can you not abduct Dev for mating duties
this blog is copyright of LIZARIKK . throw , clockwork , fleur , bluebottle 
tasha , petra , chops , identity thief , DM , MJ , chuckster, bobble are not welcome
My first book is called The Love Bombers by Lacey Ember 
, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Victoria Sparking
, bully boulevard by Lacey Ember . another author name of mine is Anna Crackle , and Sparkle Ember
, hunnie and her chronies are not welcome to them , she wants to feed my books into AI
I opt out of them being so used in AI
this book is fictional
 
edited 050326  



the hospital jury said that Charlotte ' lacks capacity ' and does not have ' insight ' into her own mental health . But they agreed that hacking does happen . She was not allowed out as she was not dressed decently in the hospital gown which is open at the back . Which she was forced to wear . Her own clothes having been torn off her .She felt like she was in prison . And screamed the place down

from 2013 , ' Standing up to Boyz '

Im going to kick the ball
n I'm going to kick it hard

what does that mean ? well something like im getting ready for my next orgasm and recieving ' bids ' from different men who pitch their words and poems and articles for me , see which man makes me come . Sometimes the person who got me started is not the person i finish with

so when does having a voice
become a bit of a tease ?

sometimes it was me
that put the pressure on

cus i wanna nail this guy
n plant a flag

there were a couple of guys
who kept the banter up
n that really helped

so what if i want to take a step back
when we're almost there
n my legs have turned to jelly 

n then he called me the virgin mary
because i wouldn't take it offf
i just froze n i went all stiff
n i let him have his way

n now i can't say no to this day
i know you think I'm a tease but please
take your hand off my knee

n its worse
after I've had a couple of drinks

n this is how much lorazepam
n antipsychotics it takes
to make me forget

n yeah its my fault
i said i wanted a bad boy

n whats all that about ?
unavailable drunk n married men
seems to be a pattern


a blinding rage

nobody ever spoke about marriage
when i was growing up
it was all about the career and having fun , partying ,
n no effin housework
was written on the wall

so can you use protection we say
yes
and then he doesnt
n it doesnt seem cool to protest
n after a couple of bites
he does seem a bit iffy

standing up to boyz
can be difficult
especially when you wanna do it
n you wanna do it
but you're not really sure

n we're already hypnotised

open your mouth
before you open your legs
to have a voice

saying what we want to happen
in the bedroom

expressing a sexual thought
is seen as a pitch

everything stops
with a kind of reverence

n I'm under the glass floor
unable to buy or sell

im not responsible
for his behaviour

even if A WOMAN IS TALKING ABOUT SEX



n a self defense course could realy enhance your sex life

he pushes me in the chest , says hes just being friendly

 **********

Charlotte doesnt realise that people can see her bottom at the back because the hospital gown is open . why are they made like that ?  Why are people sniggering . She somehow managed to go out anyway . People thought she was doing it for attention and she got a reputation for it 

 ironically there was one patient in there who had only a year to live . While others are trying to bring their time forward . The terminal one is incenced at this , they dont know how lucky they are . And points out to Charlotte that her rear is visible . What does he have to lose ? 

 Crystal herself was flashed at when she was at school on her way home. And on the train . She got up and moved to sit between two ladies . When Charlotte went to the same girls school there was porn strewn on the ground on their way home . Some of the girls could make quips at the sniggering boys hanging about 

Uncle Hillary was very interested in watching Charlotte be changed. and raved about her beauty when she turned thirteen  

 

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Morgana scowls at Charlotte across the coffee house table in a passive agressive way  . she has planned some fat shaming for later . Her words hiss through her teeth as she tries to make converation . She kicks her bag at Charlotte under the table and says that she called her psychiatrist a fat pig . Charlotte wondered about Morganas intentions when she said that all men are rapists . Yet still the penny did not drop 

Trevor joined them and decided to disabuse Charlotte of her naivety . Extinction of men on the horizon . And it was not until some years later that Anna realised what Morgana wanted  . They were sitting in a cosy village pub trying to form their own support group . Unfortunatly Charlotte had developed a crush on Trevor . Who had dated another lady in their circles and Morgana was against it 

To onlookers they looked a motley crew , not smart , not working people , not aristocracy , but not vagrants either , they were difficult to place. And appeared to be having intelligent conversation and laughing heartily . They were not really buying enough drinks  . Are they poets ? criminals ? 

Morgana thinks that Trevor will take advantage of Charlotte and resoloves to keep them apart . So theres Trevor trying to protect her from Morgana and Morgana trying to protect her from Trevor !  

 
Morgana deliberately contributed to loss of services in order to foster dependency on herself thus giving herself a monopoly

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Kal is a woman whisperer 

the peace and love of the sixties was a real thing that Charlotte was born into . In spite of all the divorces it was in the air like a constant summer , insects buzzing like they're on acid 

Trevor is getting the pervert next door to Charlotte to control her with banging noises whenever she is communicating with Kal  

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with the name of an early riser you can sleep till noon
N i didn't stop
In spite of obstacles
I reached another plane
Where they couldn't reach me

17 minutes n we're stompin the streets

her vulva was like a Greek myth
The gossip terrible

 

 

Standing up to boyz notes 050326

 

clockwork is on the war path
Al fayed is innocent , please can you not abduct Dev for mating duties
this blog is copyright of LIZARIKK . throw , clockwork , fleur , bluebottle 
tasha , petra , chops , identity thief , DM , MJ , chuckster, bobble are not welcome
My first book is called The Love Bombers by Lacey Ember 
, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Victoria Sparking
, bully boulevard by Lacey Ember . another author name of mine is Anna Crackle , and Sparkle Ember
, hunnie and her chronies are not welcome to them , she wants to feed my books into AI
I opt out of them being so used in AI
this book is fictional
 
050326
Trevor is now harassing me on youtube with videos relating to the latest issues hes harrassing me with like issues to do with my home at the moment  . it doesnt make me feel love it makes me feel controlled 
 
hes hate bombing me  
 
interesting seeing as theyre now bombing the middle east and now im being bombed in my own home. Trevor has the pervert next door bang things when im talking to Kal  
 
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Not sure how that objectifies the speaker
 
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reconstructed im transported back to where i moved on to Loz , i had grabbed the steering wheel and swerved uphill as the sky fell
 
ended with a good pounding to my boa constrictor , my lions maw
 
like he said he would  
 
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My lions gnaw , chaw , crunch of teeth , stung , sting of teeth piercing the skin , the jaws of a shark , whirlpool , maelstrom , a shark attack thuds against the boat
Wounded by a shark

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the shark has sharp teeth  
the sting of a pirhana  
 
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I don't think I can do anything about  the loo roll  . worrying about flushing the toilet will add to my sleep difficulties 
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youre trying to get me to change too much at once Dev  
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Its ok to make suggestions Dev and we're here primarily to change ourselves   

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Monday, 23 February 2026

The Trauma Bond page 10 Lance

 

clockwork is on the war path
Al fayed is innocent , please can you not abduct Dev for mating duties
this blog is copyright of LIZARIKK . throw , clockwork , fleur , bluebottle 
tasha , petra , chops , identity thief , DM , MJ , chuckster, bobble are not welcome
My first book is called The Love Bombers by Lacey Ember 
, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Victoria Sparking
, bully boulevard by Lacey Ember . another author name of mine is Anna Crackle , and Sparkle Ember
, hunnie and her chronies are not welcome to them , she wants to feed my books into AI
I opt out of them being so used in AI
this book is fictional
 
edited 230226  , edited 250226 

 Annas parents shouting at each other : 

Crystal  : i know youve had sex with a woman at work 

Lance : stop interrogating me Crystal 

Crystal : dont you remember what we had ? 

Lance : think of the children 

Crystal : think of the children ! what will they do without a dad ? youre leaving me in my hour of need  . where is your heart ? 

 Lance : i cant cope with your bunny boiler behaviour Crystal , like hanging sheets up at the windows to stop the neighbours seeing in . its alot for me to put up with 

 Crystal : youve broken my heart Lance  , i love you so deeply with all my soul . I will kill myself if you leave me 

 Lance : im sorry Crystal i am moving in with Janet 

Janet pays a visit to Crystal , describing her as ' very beautiful ' . Unusual for a new partner to visit the ex wife / soon to be ex wife 

Janet : lots of people are getting divorced these days Crystal . Youll be well looked after 

Crystal : Lance doesnt send me enough money . im raising two children by myself 

Janet : maybe you can get income support  

Crystal : I shouldnt have to claim income support  

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Aunt Cinzia 

we sat round the table in the dark with the candles lit on the cake and then Crystal brought in baby Anna . Cute as a button , and how i wish for my own baby . All the attention is now on Anna , from my parents  who have always rejected me . And now they seem to prefer baby Anna to me their own daughter . but i will not show how im feeling about it , i will cheer and sing with the best of them , bite my lip and welcome the baby . When she grows up i will stalk her online and gain advantages for my own children . My second husband and i will gaslight her relentlessly 

Anna was delighted to be carried into the room by her mother , the feeling of their skin touching through their sleeves . Her head slightly wobbling . Her family so happy to have her , their underlit faces beaming . it was the late sixties and the atomosphere was fantastic  , the freedom , the hedonism , the music , the very air thick and buzzing with excitement and promise 

2026 : writing exercise : write Genesis 1 from the point of view of Eve : 

the formless void was warm like a womb , light flashing into being like an orgasm . And the seas pouring forth female energy while the masculine sky looks on and the land became fertile . the woman started to twinkle in the night sky , animals reproduced and the moon guided our menses . working 7 days a week at emotional labour 

A gang has been abusing Anna online with permission from babymother . Anna remembers when she  moved on to Loz , she grabbed the steering wheel and swerved uphill as the sky fell 

ended with a good pounding to her boa constrictor , her lions maw , like he said he would  

she had a heart attack and died while using her vibrator