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Thursday, 5 March 2026

Standing up to Boyz page 1

Morgana deliberately contributed to loss of services in order to foster dependency on herself giving herself a monopoly

the hospital jury said that Charlotte ' lacks capacity ' and does not have ' insight ' into her own mental health . But they agreed that hacking does happen . She was not allowed out as she was not dressed decently in the hospital gown which is open at the back . Which she was forced to wear .She felt like she was in prison . She screamed the place down

from 2013 , ' Standing up to Boyz '

Im going to kick the ball
n I'm going to kick it hard

what does that mean ? well something like im getting ready for my next orgasm and recieving ' bids ' from different men who pitch their words and poems and articles for me , see which man makes me come . Sometimes the person who got me started is not the person i finish with

so when does having a voice
become a bit of a tease ?

sometimes it was me
that put the pressure on

cus i wanna nail this guy
n plant a flag

there were a couple of guys
who kept the banter up
n that really helped

so what if i want to take a step back
when we're almost there
n my legs have turned to jelly

n then he called me the virgin mary
because i wouldn't take it offf
i just froze n i went all stiff
n i let him have his way

n now i can't say no to this day
i know you think I'm a tease but please
take your hand off my knee

n its worse
after I've had a couple of drinks

n this is how much lorazepam
n antipsychotics it takes
to make me forget

n yeah its my fault
i said i wanted a bad boy

n whats all that about ?
unavailable drunk n married men
seems to be a pattern

a blinding rage

nobody ever spoke about marriage
when i was growing up
it was all about the career and having fun , partying ,
n no effin housework
was written on the wall

so can you use protection we say
yes
and then he doesnt
n it doesnt seem cool to protest
n after a couple of bites
he does seem a bit iffy

standing up to boyz
can be difficult
especially when you wanna do it
n you wanna do it
but you're not really sure

n we're already hypnotised

open your mouth
before you open your legs
to have a voice

saying what we want to happen
in the bedroom

expressing a sexual thought
is seen as a pitch

everything stops
with a kind of reverence

n I'm under the glass floor
unable to buy or sell

im not responsible
for his behaviour

even if A WOMAN IS TALKING ABOUT SEX

n a self defense course could realy enhance your sex life

he pushes me in the chest , says hes just being friendly

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Charlotte doesnt realise that people can see her bottom at the back because the hospital gown is open . why are they made like that ? Why are people sniggering . She somehow managed to go out anyway . People thought she was doing it for attention and she got a reputation for it

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Monday, 23 February 2026

The Trauma Bond page 10 Lance

clockwork is on the war path
Al fayed is innocent , please can you not abduct Dev for mating duties
this blog is copyright of LIZARIKK . throw , clockwork
tasha , petra , chops , identity thief , DM , MJ , chuckster, bobble are not welcome
My first book is called The Love Bombers by Lacey Ember

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Victoria Sparking

, bully boulevard by Lacey Ember . another author name of mine is Anna Crackle , and Sparkle Ember
, hunnie and her chronies are not welcome to them , she wants to feed my books into AI
I opt out of them being so used in AI

this book is fictional

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Annas parents shouting at each other :

Crystal : i know youve had sex with a woman at work

Lance : stop interrogating me Crystal

Crystal : dont you remember what we had ?

Lance : think of the children

Crystal : think of the children ! what will they do without a dad ? youre leaving me in my hour of need . where is your heart ?

Lance : i cant cope with your bunny boiler behaviour Crystal , like hanging sheets up at the windows to stop the neighbours seeing in . its alot for me to put up with

Crystal : youve broken my heart Lance , i love you so deeply with all my soul . I will kill myself if you leave me

Lance : im sorry Crystal i am moving in with Janet

Janet pays a visit to Crystal , describing her as ' very beautiful ' . Unusual for a new partner to visit the ex wife / soon to be ex wife

Janet : lots of people are getting divorced these days Crystal . Youll be well looked after

Crystal : Lance doesnt send me enough money . im raising two children by myself

Janet : maybe you can get income support

Crystal : I shouldnt have to claim income support

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Aunt Cinzia

we sat round the table in the dark with the candles lit on the cake and then Crystal brought in baby Anna . Cute as a button , and how i wish for my own baby . All the attention is now on Anna , from my parents who have always rejected me . And now they seem to prefer baby Anna to me their own daughter . but i will not show how im feeling about it , i will cheer and sing with the best of them , bite my lip and welcome the baby . When she grows up i will stalk her online and gain advantages for my own children . My second husband and i will gaslight her relentlessly

Anna was delighted to be carried into the room by her mother , the feeling of their skin touching through their sleeves . Her head slightly wobbling . Her family so happy to have her , their underlit faces beaming . it was the late sixties and the atomosphere was fantastic , the freedom , the hedonism , the music , the very air thick and buzzing with excitement and promise

2026 : writing exercise : write Genesis 1 from the point of view of Eve :

the formless void was warm like a womb , light flashing into being like an orgasm . And the seas pouring forth female energy while the masculine sky looks on and the land became fertile . the woman started to twinkle in the night sky , animals reproduced and the moon guided our menses . working 7 days a week at emotional labour

A gang has been abusing Anna online with permission from babymother . Anna remembers when she moved on to Loz , she grabbed the steering wheel and swerved uphill as the sky fell

ended with a good pounding to her boa constrictor , her lions maw , like he said he would

she had a heart attack and died while using her vibrator

Standing up to Boyz notes 230226 new book

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Victoria Sparking

this book is fictional

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some ' caring ' people deliberately contribute to the loss of services

in order to foster dependency on themselves thus giving themselves a monopoly

sort of person tends to gosssip as well

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It was brave of cousin Victoria to visit Bud and hopefully cousin Tim will too

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from 2013 , ' Standing up to Boyz '

Im going to kick the ball
n I'm going to kick it hard

what does that mean ? well something like im getting ready for my next orgasm and recieving ' bids ' from different men who pitch their words and poems and articles for me , see which man makes me come . Sometimes the person who got me started is not the person i finish with

so when does having a voice
become a bit of a tease ?

sometimes it was me
that put the pressure on

cus i wanna nail this guy
n plant a flag

there were a couple of guys
who kept the banter up
n that really helped

so what if i want to take a step back
when we're almost there
n my legs have turned to jelly

n then he called me the virgin mary
because i wouldn't take it offf
i just froze n i went all stiff
n i let him have his way

n now i can't say no to this day
i know you think I'm a tease but please
take your hand off my knee

n its worse
after I've had a couple of drinks

n this is how much lorazepam
n antipsychotics it takes
to make me forget

n yeah its my fault
i said i wanted a bad boy

n whats all that about ?
unavailable drunk n married men
seems to be a pattern

a blinding rage

nobody ever spoke about marriage
when i was growing up
it was all about the career and having fun , partying ,
n no effin housework
was written on the wall

so can you use protection we say
yes
and then he doesnt
n it doesnt seem cool to protest
n after a couple of bites
he does seem a bit iffy

standing up to boyz
can be difficult
especially when you wanna do it
n you wanna do it
but you're not really sure

n we're already hypnotised

open your mouth
before you open your legs
to have a voice

saying what we want to happen
in the bedroom

expressing a sexual thought
is seen as a pitch

everything stops
with a kind of reverence

n I'm under the glass floor
unable to buy or sell

im not responsible
for his behaviour

even if A WOMAN IS TALKING ABOUT SEX

n a self defense course could realy enhance your sex life

he pushes me in the chest , says hes just being friendly

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New protagonist is called Charlotte

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Uncle Hillary

**************

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Kal is a woman whisperer

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The peace and love of the 60s was a real thing i was born into in spite of all the divorces it was in the air like a constant summer

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Bees buzzing like they're on acid

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Trevor is getting the pervert next door to bang things whenever I communicate with Kal

Saturday, 14 February 2026

The Trauma Bond page 9 Crystal

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Victoria Sparking

this book is fictional

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people are like ' i wish i could paint , i wish i could write music ' Difficult to learn those . But everybody can write ...

Agatha and Trevor have worked hard on some zerzetzung for Anna , fabricating a report that states that Anna is a danger to her carers . Chuckster had her followed into a pub where she was having lunch . they wait for you to finish eating before delivering the spam. He got the information about her movements from Trevor who has surveillance powers

in 2014 Anna went out without her camera because it was raining . Shes never regretted being camera-less so much ! There outside was a young woman sitting in the rain with a rook sheltering under her umberella ! She told Anna that it had fallen off a roof and come over to her injured . it sat there for 5 hours after which the young woman took it to a rooks nest under a bridge . Anna reconstructed the scene with collage and sketches and went on to paint the scene which was exhibited at a prestigious gallery

Annas father Lance played guitar while Anna was being born at home in Richmond London . her parents had a thriving beaknik scene going on with musicians writers and artists around the kitchen table. One of them painted with an old sock . Crystal cooked them wonderful meals

There was an ancient black marble clock which you wound up at the back . it had an old fashioned ticking . it went from house to house with them and was one of Crystals favourite objects

Crystal would have liked to go to Dublin to explore her secret Irish heritage . Like those boys on the bus who said ' after you ' to each other before taking a seat . She'd like to get the boat over

Crystal was committed to a mental hospital in spite of feeling that her parents had messed her up . And the medication numbed her feelings somewhat . You could hear patients screaming in the corridors and Crystal wondered if their families had had them committed

shed had to go along with an open relationship in her marriage to Lance because he seemed to want that and she didnt want him to leave her . She loved him with all her heart and soul . The threesome made her feel bad and wonder about the parentage of her son . And Lance left her anyway . She told Anna that she should have waited for marriage before having sex

Crystal Anna and Bud moved to the suburbs where her parents bought a house for them to live in . they had a wonderful cat called Wolfhound who was so human like and used to fight dogs and foxes . He had ripped ears and would leave ' offerings ' of birds and mice on the doorstep to show his gratitude . Anna and Bud were sometimes allowed to fall asleep with him . . Crystal got the cat to help the children over the divorce and the move

she said Lance was a tall dark handsome stranger , a bit rugged and stubbly but also very loving and affectionate . A heart breaker he looked like a rock star in his jeans and beatnik jumpers , playing guitar and honky tonk piano . As a journalist he developed a piercing stare that would make you confess whatever was on your mind , a classic intellectual with a mop of brown hair . he smoked a pipe and cigarettes and would be up late tapping away on his typewriter

he built Anna a swing in the garden for her 5th birthday

then one day he told Crystal he was leaving . they were decorating the kitchen and stopped for a pot of tea . He said he felt suffocated by her behaviour , like hanging sheets up at the windows to keep the neighbours out . He wanted to be free from her bunny boiler behaviour . Crystal said she would commit suicide if he left but he needed to go and he moved in with Janet . Who was more interesting to talk to he felt

and Crystal and the children moved to the suburbs where she missed the beatnik scene in West Hampstead .Anna gained the impression that its men who do the cheating and she went on to cheat on her boyfriends ' to right the balance '

back in the present moment Anna kept her fantasies alive she watched a clip of a horror film , and the fantasy brain stormed to a cluster of white people and then a cluster of black people , she had gone to them with a girl friend and watched them doing it , being careful not to get killled in the blinding light . 23 minutes to a bucking pounding

n Dev prevailed

The Trauma Bond notes 140226

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Victoria Sparking

this book is fictional

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150226 Aunt Cinzia

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Met Agatha for coffee which went well until she kicked her bag towards me , trying to make it touch my bag to cast a spell and make me touch her

This didn't work so she fat shamed me

She thinks women should be feeble

other people will have to take a turn with her

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Agatha had me sprayed near my home with a virus perfume having got permission from baby mother who's friend is after Kal

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Baby mother has given fleur permission to abuse me . He doesn't turn me on any more

Monday, 9 February 2026

The Trauma Bond page 8 Annas mother

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Victoria Sparking

this book is fictional

edited 090226 , edited 250226

Anna helped her brother Bud recover from a drugs overdose and kidney failure , encouraged his writing talents , advocated for his accommodation and now hes stalking her on the internet

she feels since her Dad died she's first in line for all the blame

Bud has been fat shaming her and calling her an old bag and stuff . Theyre actually the same age , hes just not grown emotionally since he was a teenager

Anna carries a small backpack containing toothpaste , nail scissors, a pocket mirror , masks , spare underwear , a pen knife, notebook and pens and a key to the disabled toilets . Dad said she was always on the run as though she doesnt really trust anyone and is ready to defend herself

Trevor allows Emerald to run rampant in Annas email groups . Shes his hedge fund for if he fails to get Anna back . Neither of them has any respect for process

Why would Anna go back to him with all that going on . And when she has this amazing beta male in Kal whos all you could wish for , hes both strong and gentle and gets straight to the point. You can be authentic with him and not have to play games all the time . Unless youre in the mood for playing games . there is plenty of difference between him and Anna to keep things sharp between them . They come from different worlds

Anna is studying painting. she just discovered ' limited palette ' , where you use just 5 base colours and any other colours you want must be made by mixing the five . It really helps the colours to look like they are related to each other . then there are diffuse reflections where the colour of one object is reflected in the next object . Shes good at painting bottles and the oil really looks oily . And works colour into the shadows like the expressionists

Annas mother was called Crystal . She advised Anna to keep her virginity for her marriage , feeling she had got that wrong herself . She said a lady down the road called Penny used to excuse herself to the bathroom when she was tempted

she said Dads parents were ' culture vultures ' . She didnt drink much and rarely smoked , preferring savoury food . Apparently there was a menage a trois which might have resulted in Annas brother . Thinking about it is making Anna scratch her nose . Crystal said that Marylin Monroe killed herself because she wanted to be remembered as a beautiful young woman

Crystals mother Gloria said that you dont always desire your husband and a young Anna wondered what she was getting at . And someone pulled 15 year old Annas duvet off during the night . Anna was naked apart from a pair of red pants

Crystal and Annas father Lance looked like film stars . Anna was a good little girl who went off the rails as soon as she left home . Crystal would have enjoyed Mock the Week partly because she felt she was partly Irish , that Gloria had an affair during the war with an Irish American soldier . Gloria was a tempestuous passionate woman unlike her husband . Crystal would enjoy seeing new comedians cutting their teeth on the programme

Crystal was like a stormy grey sky before it rains , full of electric tension , like a gentle deer and a hollyhock flower in the sixties . She made 18 suicide attempts before she succeeded

hasnt stopped Anna being into men. Even if they're not her type , they sure might know how to do it with very little words

Shes noticed recently you cant see any man on man action in the media although there are plenty of girls kissing . Anna felt a bit daunted to compete with man on man action , imagining they have very powerful orgasms . But she did try , exploring her bisexual side , she came around to a good pounding which burned while she bucked