210919

do not resuscitate 

160919 / 170919 

usually the feelings are there deep down 

i remember feeling this joy 
that had no place in this world 

i wanted to fly away 
into the sunset 

170919 

i feel sometimes 
like i don't have a choice 
like I'm forced to be here 

160919 

a legal battle 
with someone you loved 
with whom you shared 
the utmost innocence 

140919 

poor Scareys pain 
took me a few days to notice ... 

140919

no contact sobriety 

The Big Bang Theory 
went downhill 
after Sheldon and Amy had coitus 

140919 

whats happened to his nose ? 

110919 

withholding affection ? 

' the doolally ' 
are people who cant afford 
a top quality therapist ! 

090919 

sometimes the words come too late

060919 



fight flight freeze       

having to grovel for love 
to prostitute my emotions   
to accept verbal abuse 

split , spinning 

its not how i ought to feel 

mistakes ? 

060919 

my mind seems to drift away  

psychodrama, conflict management  
my wacky lens and psychotic thoughts 
over-reacting and hallucinating       

triggered     

lots of fairy dust 
because inside her is a real fairy  

i wasnt very good at shop lifting 
i would start laughing   

one time during an episode   
i travelled all the way to 10 Downing Street 
so i could pee outside   

after all they were watching me 
on surveillance cameras   

i do a great job 
of acting like a normal person 

040919

unconditional support