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Wednesday, 31 December 2025

The Trauma Bond page 4 the purpose of art

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My first book is called The Love Bombers by Lacey Ember

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Victoria Sparking

, bully boulevard by Lacey Ember . another author name of mine is Anna Crackle , and Sparkle Ember
, hunnie and her chronies are not welcome to them , she wants to feed my books into AI
I opt out of them being so used in AI

this book is fictional

edited 311225

Trevor has been getting Annas neighbours to bang things when she is preparing for sex . He can see her doing this on satellite footage . He feels he can conduct a personal relationship using military tactics . And is under the control of Emerald

he has guardianship of Anna which is not really appropriate considering he is an ex lover . with a partner who has also duty of care over Anna . What exactly is he representing ?

meanwhile the ghost of Annas mother is a ghoul following her around with dripping dirty bandages . Because of what she did shes not in a good place . on paper , Anna embraces her and removes the bandages encourages her to bathe and to put on clean clothes . Annas mother goes on to help other ghouls

and the jug on the table says " i am a beautiful porcelaine vase , cold and smooth as young skin . Ive been sitting here for 7 decades watching the family come and go . My curves are exquisite and im now used as an ornament , a memory , i hold memories of happier times before the tragedy . when i was an emblem of success in an academic household . im so beautiful i look like a song , a beautiful woman in her prime , no longer skinny and not yet fat

Anna has some childish things in her home

shes learning writing as well as art . What does fear smell like ? a sharp tang , acidic like concentrated citrus , also metallic . time looks like a vast space a black hole, an expanse of night sky , events twinkling . Love feels like running in the dark , a young person running towards the mystery , pounding the streets

there is nothing between Anna and the moon tonight . Art is here to describe experiences without judgment . the characters are taking responsiblity for themselves and there is not too much emphasis on gender

on track , Like a pig she grunted . Appreciated the foreplay thanks
He swaggered in and bumped her .N it wasn't Dev
14 minutes and they were pounding the streets

The Trauma Bond notes 311225

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Victoria Sparking

this book is fictional

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writing exercise about different beds and then cutting up the pieces to make a collage

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honey is hoping to steal my classical piano compositions . ive done all i can think of to prove when they were written , which was 2017 and 2018 . i didnt fully know how to write the scores but the notes are correct according to what i played myself

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Certain person is all about the plastic surgery

Monday, 22 December 2025

The Trauma Bond page 3 gender issues

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Victoria Sparking

this book is fictional

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Why is there an egg upside down at the bottom of a tree ? it looks like a Magritte or one of his derivatives . it represents new birth from old and a difficult birth

Anna is quite submissive but not all the time . Women have trippy hormones . Men are more athletic and active. They burn more calories , they buzz . Men can be trippy too . People need to recharge their batteries to get that

Sometimes you have to consider your partners sex drive , see if you can get into it . And boy does she get into it . She doesnt want a female partner , finding them a bit hysterical , she appreciates the coolness of a male . Not cold though , he cries , he cries more than she does . Its very impressive

he sees and hears her always . How does he do that ? always sticking up for her , writing articles for her , he goes to alot of trouble . he forgives her . he exceeds expectations

some feel that a gay relationship is the only way to support women who do alot of emotional work , the unpaid carers , underpaid nurses, social workers , teachers

some of whom are men . some men are also finding their gay relationships more supportive . Gays are excelling in therapy practices and claim their relationships are more egalitarian

so a man can be super supportive but only if hes with another man ? a man is certanly capable of cherishing and caring for a woman . But can it be egalitarian ? only if she does body building ? well no not necessarily , anna has been in an egalitarian relationship

understanding the other gender is one of the most rewarding things . If a man is expected to take charge he might behave like an alpha . it takes a strong woman to relieve him of that burden

one of Annas cousins called her a prostitute after she invited him to visit Bud . disgusting they cant get it together to phone a guy in a nursing home

There was a colourful cluster . In which Kal prevailed

In spite of female contributions .Which were tempting

22 minutes to a good pounding

hes persisting , shes so excited , smouldering

The Trauma Bond notes 221225

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Victoria Sparking

this book is fictional

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Trevor gets my neighbours to bang things when I'm preparing for sex . He feels this is the only way he can get to perform himself

He thinks you can use military tactics in your relationships

I don't want him to have guardianship of me . its very inappropriate considering he is an ex lover . not only that but his new partner is a social worker who has a duty of care towards me that she exploits

and Trevor represents what exactly ?

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Trevor says i will lose the art course if I remove his guardianship

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Agatha harassed a lady who organised a Christmas day lunch so that she now feels she cant do that next year

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281225 writing exercise

281225 writing exercises

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Apparently theres a problem where the neighbours can hear me having sex .

Maybe we should do it less often

Then again they're not supposed to have a dog . Or to shout and swear

and ... this issue was presented to me by a professional rival

who may be exaggerating

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There's nothing between me and the moon

301225 painting in progress

Saturday, 13 December 2025

The Trauma Bond page 2 The Sex Addicts Meeting

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Victoria Sparking

this book is fictional

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Alternative you bet

He said hed teach these alternative women a lesson . N he's fit .

Uses his arms alot with weights . N the music spoke

Of three reasons to hope . Ended with a good hammering in 20 minutes

Subversive , illicit

Trevor is contacting Annas neighbours to paint her as a ' scarlet woman '

He also watches her masturbate using micro drones and says these things when its not about him

one of her friends gave her a little gilt edged mirror . To guard against the guilting and shaming that she is being subjected to for expressing herself sexually . Apparenlty we are still living in Victorian times

Anna visited a sex addicts meetiing . it was in quite a scary place . She did not go there to shame herself or to say that sex is bad but to turn herself inside out and explore the other side of things . In freedom away from shaming eyes . The location reminded her of her trips to The Juggs when she was ' unwell ' where she masturbated in a wood . OMG !

she felt pretty small and scared walking up that dark path

someone tried to ' give her the 13th step ' which is when you try to chat someone up in a 12 step meeting . Step 14 is going there to sell something . And shes invented a step 15 where youve gone there to promote another cause

the wind blew her off her feet . Shed gone to ask Buds drug dealer to leave him alone . And he threatened her . So she said shed put him on the warning site ' notthisguy .com ' upon which he threatened her with a deep fake . Next thing she knows they are in the kitchen smoking a spliff with some officers

the three big men at the sex addicts meeting did not touch her . Only when she got home she was abused online by the women

she sees a fluffy cloud floating away with pink edges . The sunshine is decorating the clouds. The float slowly upwards like sheep

looking the other way is a charred hillside like wiry hair

if youve breathed the same air as someone they have in a sense touched you

these days Anna finds it difficult to get a regular tampon in if you must know

There was a prolonged bucking . I did it for you . The last stretch was a bucking

For quite a long time . N now a dizzy spell

We were tuned in . There was dick foreplay .Caught red handed

The Trauma Bond notes 131225

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Victoria Sparking

, bully boulevard by Lacey Ember . another author name of mine is Anna Crackle , and Sparkle Ember
, hunnie and her chronies are not welcome to them , she wants to feed my books into AI I

opt out of them being so used in AI

this book is fictional

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I'm quite submissive but I don't do everything Kal says , that would be boring

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Why are men so into sex ? Because women are trippy and they want some of it . It comes from their hormones

well not always , men can be trippy too sometimes

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Kal sees and hears me always . How does he do that ?

hes the best thing thats ever happened to me , always sticking up for me

Kal goes to alot of trouble writing articles for me x

Sorry if I appeared to complain about things I really enjoyed

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Men are more active and athletic . Strong not feeble . Burning more calories . They buzz

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Understanding the other gender can be hard and i find it so rewarding

If a man is expected to take charge , he might well pose as an alpha . It takes a strong woman to relieve him of that

Kal is exceeding expectations

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wondering if my relationship is a figment of my mental illness

They say nobody understands you like your own gender

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One of Anna's cousins called her a prostitute after she invited him to visit Bud

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Anna is diagnosed with cancer and refuses treatment

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I'm like a second class citizen in the family . My feelings don't count .

Disgusting they cant get it together to phone a guy in a nursing home

this is why things are going wrong for them

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Thursday, 4 December 2025

The Trauma Bond page 1 Annas boyfriend

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Victoria Sparking

this book is fictional

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And in fact he can love like a woman . Feeling her tenderly , he came in through the window of her downstairs bedroom . As a teenager .
The neighbours were slamming doors . While she watched him with a bloke . Being punchy lifting weights . Running ahead she was . While he caught up with her and pinned her down

Ending with him shagging her gently until she orgasmed like a volcano

Anna doesnt want to ever have sex again . And then Agatha scores an own goal , calling Anna a block of ice , making her feel like sex with a man again . Agatha doesnt understand reverse psychology

Love has no rhyme or reason . She thanks Kal for the break . Some men can do womens jobs . He has nurtured her for a year and a half after she was abused by Fleur . He doesnt like her paintings and yet they have flourished within their relationship . He thinks she should write which maybe they will come to later on

Small world the internet ! you can bump into people you know from offline

Monet brush strokes look more tranquil than Degas . Degas worked from sketches made in the dance studios . Where he was known to handle the dancers . Whereas Monet painted en plein air . Degas brush strokes look more furtive . Monet has a quiet confidence . Some paintings have a tension about them which makes you wonder what else is going on there

with services cut to the bone , Anna is delivering mental health care to her carer as well as to other patients . She gets overloaded and needs to do more for herself

Some Like it Hot is a very influential film that has inspired many a man to invite his lover to inspire him . She is pure spirit . She really enjoys things . Incandescent

Anna lives in a place where there are alot of art and literature societies . And something dark and brooding going on beneath the surface , something sinister and historic

looking at a photo of her mother you can see the abuse and how it made her withdrawn

better than a strap on he was , feeling her with sensitivity and feeling , putting her in touch with her own sexuality . 23 minutes ending in a good pounding

a man she had wanted for a long time , unconsciously without really being aware . Kal arranged it for her

Trauma Bond notes 041225

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Victoria Sparking

this book is fictional

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im reading the creative writing coursebook by Julia Bell

if youve breathed the same air as someone

they have in a way touched you

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a tall man does not necessarily have a big penis

and Anna has difficulty getting a regular tampon in

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step 13 is when someone goes to a 12 step meeting to chat someone up . step 14 is going there to sell something

and i made up step 15 is going there to promote a different cause

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that trip to the sex addicts meeting reminded me of pre hospital days when id go up to the Juggs on my own at night and sit in graveyards masturbating

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one of my friends gave me a little gilt edged mirror

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trevor is contacting my neighbours to paint me as a ' scarlet woman '

he also watches me masturbate using micro drones and says these things when its not about him

Wednesday, 19 November 2025

Carriers of the Doom page 16 inclusivity

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Victoria Sparking

this book is fictional

edited 191125 , edited 241125

Size isnt always related to height . He confronted Lilly at a festival .

Said hes going to punish her . But no need , he had what she needed .
With throngs of trolls clamouring for it to stop . And putting up memes they wrestled and arrived at a monster earthquake

N the whole earth shakes

Lilly does not consent for Agatha to watch footage of her , regardless of ' whoops ' or ' sorry ' . She thinks Lillly is her pregnant wife !

mothers suicide left Anna vulnerable to manipulation especially with her lack of street skills . Could Agatha guilt trip her into bed ? She says things like its her turn for a cuddle . She thinks she ' deserves ' Lilly

Vanilla she says . Vanilla whats vanilla these days ? what is new ?

An abusive taxi driver calls her a naughty girl. The vibe was threatening rather than friendly

there have been arson threats from Agatha and Emerald . And Mike . Trevor cut her off from a support meeting . He said Lilly needs to go to AA ! fat chance of him looking at his own drinking . He shut down parts of the internet and threatened a dawn raid

write about sex ? well being in love is the best thing . Which has nothing to do with abusing other women . Is that what you think about when youre masturbating ? And then you say nothing about your orgasm . Was it about a man or a woman ? how did it feel ? what made it work ?

no chance of anyone winning your match if you say nothing about it ! As they say its about communication , words, gestures , vibes . Lillys best experiences with men who talk about what they want . And what they dont want . if you want to drive a woman wild in bed tell her what you dont want . Ask her what she wants , she'll be gobsmacked

thats where Lilly had the vaginal orgasms, not with the abusive men

and of course there needs to be plenty of non sex going on as well or you'd get bored . Your latent fire needs to build and sometimes interruptions are a blessing

Madness in the dark .They say they make the best lovers
They really feel a woman from the inside of her heating up and it's illicit
It's over the boundary .And theres no future
Despite the monster hammering

Couldnt see anything , alot of kissing went on

Theres alot of flavours beside vanilla , like pistachio

Lilly dies in a car crash

the end

next book notes 191125 The Trauma Bond

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Victoria Sparking

this book is fictional

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Anna doesn't want to ever have sex again

Agatha wedged herself in there with" Anna is like a block of ice "

hoping they can melt into bed together !

and its men that keep pushing for sex is it Agatha ?

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love has no rhyme or reason

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Anna is now interested in sex , thanks Kal for the break

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Some women can do men's jobs and some men can do womens jobs

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Kal has nurtured Anna for a year and a half after she was abused by Fleur

He doesn't like her paintings and yet they have flourished while she's been with him . And she can see why he likes her writing

Hopefully she will move over to writing in the future

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writing exercise :

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Small world the internet . I bumped into someone i know from offline !

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Saturday, 8 November 2025

Carriers of the Doom page 15 firework bangers

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Victoria Sparking

this book is fictional

edited 081125 , edited 241125

Trevor is making it difficult to do an art course he admitted Lilly to

there are extra phone updates to disturb her . Agatha apparently has been given footage of Lilly which she didnt consent to

Trevor said hes creating a false narrative about Anna to get her in trouble with the police

Agatha had a banger set off outside Lillys home

her external hard drive is behaving differently

The postman said ' nothing really matters '

Lilly phoned the samaritans to talk about her course work . Trevor is threatening to call an ambulance

she doesnt need one , shes got no way of harming herself

her fantasy started off with a gangster film that couldn't be ignored

and went back to Notting Hill and the guy round the corner
There were quite a few people there Including film producers .
She was fighting for her orgasm while bombs dropped

she was chased as a spy

Ended with a good monster pounding

Carriers of the Doom notes 081125

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Victoria Sparking

this book is fictional

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i do not consent for agatha to watch footage of me , regardless of any ' woops ' or ' sorries '

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Agatha thinks im her pregnant wife !

someone has intercepted a delivery that i was waiting in for

in order to inconvenience me

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an abusive taxi driver has left me unable to sleep . he farted in the car and i still smell of him , feeling it an assault

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bounce made an arson threat against me hoping to get herself an orgasm . Assisted by emerald

Mike and Agatha have threatened a brick through the window

and now i cant sleep

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Trevor cut me off from a womens 12 step meeting . he thinks i should be in AA . fat chance of him looking at his own drinking

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Again unable to sleep

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Trevor is threatening some sort of dawn raid

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trevor shut down parts of the internet

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Saturday, 1 November 2025

Carriers of the Doom page 14 safe words

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Victoria Sparking

this book is fictional

edited 011125 edited 241125

Trevor and Emerald have been doing malarky on the internet , breaking wifi connections , making online transactions difficult etc . Theres a difference between radical and radicalised . Two wild owls calling to each other ' im here , im here ' . Woody and nutty like a little bagpipe , they havent changed for centuries

meanwhile online people get their friends to post for them , so that the tracks of their abuse cant be traced . And youre thorougly winded, overpowered , humiliated , wrecked and culuture shocked

mental health care is its own saga of incompetent nurses , wrong medications and bad friendships

and online you can get cancelled if you are not an elite technician , navigating the obfuscation of ' two factor authentication ' , why not call it something like recognition information

Kal is going to pound in me while talking about my other loves

in order to enjoy sex you need to feel safe on some level . there are men who are safe to be with and you might want adventure . And hence why Lilly has ended up overweight which gives her a degree of safety that she would not feel if she were petite .She started gaining weight during a ten year violent relationship

you need to feel its safe to say what you want , even if its a discussion about SM

people who are into SM actually do have boundaries . its on message boards where they were with someone who went too far , over-rides a safe word , someone they had not got to know

youre either with a man who is safe to be around . Or you feel safe in your ability to defend yourself if things go wrong. Kal has affairs but he rings the changes so that no one woman dominates

There was the brother of a friend . And somebody from the telly with a strap on . Ended with a man giving a good bucking
Which she felt at the g spot
A powerful monster man that blew her up
On a political scale
Should cause better discernment at the border

16 minutes , from the dream , the richter scale