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Saturday, 13 December 2025

The Trauma Bond page 2 The Sex Addicts Meeting

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My first book is called The Love Bombers by Lacey Ember

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Victoria Sparking

, bully boulevard by Lacey Ember . another author name of mine is Anna Crackle , and Sparkle Ember
, hunnie and her chronies are not welcome to them , she wants to feed my books into AI
I opt out of them being so used in AI

this book is fictional

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Alternative you bet

He said hed teach these alternative women a lesson . N he's fit .

Uses his arms alot with weights . N the music spoke

Of three reasons to hope . Ended with a good hammering in 20 minutes

Subversive , illicit

Trevor is contacting Annas neighbours to paint her as a ' scarlet woman '

He also watches her masturbate using micro drones and says these things when its not about him

one of her friends gave her a little gilt edged mirror . To guard against the guilting and shaming that she is being subjected to for expressing herself sexually . Apparenlty we are still living in Victorian times

Anna visited a sex addicts meetiing . it was in quite a scary place . She did not go there to shame herself or to say that sex is bad but to turn herself inside out and explore the other side of things . In freedom away from shaming eyes . The location reminded her of her trips to The Juggs when she was ' unwell ' where she masturbated in a wood . OMG !

she felt pretty small and scared walking up that dark path

someone tried to ' give her the 13th step ' which is when you try to chat someone up in a 12 step meeting . Step 14 is going there to sell something . And shes invented a step 15 where youve gone there to promote another cause

the wind blew her off her feet . Shed gone to ask Buds drug dealer to leave him alone . And he threatened her . So she said shed put him on the warning site ' notthisguy .com ' upon which he threatened her with a deep fake . Next thing she knows they are in the kitchen smoking a spliff with some officers

the three big men at the sex addicts meeting did not touch her . Only when she got home she was abused online by the women

she sees a fluffy cloud floating away with pink edges . The sunshine is decorating the clouds. The float slowly upwards like sheep

looking the other way is a charred hillside like wiry hair

if youve breathed the same air as someone they have in a sense touched you

these days Anna finds it difficult to get a regular tampon in if you must know

There was a prolonged bucking . I did it for you . The last stretch was a bucking

For quite a long time . N now a dizzy spell

We were tuned in . There was dick foreplay .Caught red handed

The Trauma Bond notes 131225

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Victoria Sparking

this book is fictional

Thursday, 4 December 2025

The Trauma Bond page 1 Annas boyfriend

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Victoria Sparking

this book is fictional

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And in fact he can love like a woman . Feeling her tenderly , he came in through the window of her downstairs bedroom . As a teenager .
The neighbours were slamming doors . While she watched him with a bloke . Being punchy lifting weights . Running ahead she was . While he caught up with her and pinned her down

Ending with him shagging her gently until she orgasmed like a volcano

Anna doesnt want to ever have sex again . And then Agatha scores an own goal , calling Anna a block of ice , making her feel like sex with a man again . Agatha doesnt understand reverse psychology

Love has no rhyme or reason . She thanks Kal for the break . Some men can do womens jobs . He has nurtured her for a year and a half after she was abused by Fleur . He doesnt like her paintings and yet they have flourished within their relationship . He thinks she should write which maybe they will come to later on

Small world the internet ! you can bump into people you know from offline

Monet brush strokes look more tranquil than Degas . Degas worked from sketches made in the dance studios . Where he was known to handle the dancers . Whereas Monet painted en plein air . Degas brush strokes look more furtive . Monet has a quiet confidence . Some paintings have a tension about them which makes you wonder what else is going on there

with services cut to the bone , Anna is delivering mental health care to her carer as well as to other patients . She gets overloaded and needs to do more for herself

Some Like it Hot is a very influential film that has inspired many a man to invite his lover to inspire him . She is pure spirit . She really enjoys things . Incandescent

Anna lives in a place where there are alot of art and literature societies . And something dark and brooding going on beneath the surface , something sinister and historic

looking at a photo of her mother you can see the abuse and how it made her withdrawn

better than a strap on he was , feeling her with sensitivity and feeling , putting her in touch with her own sexuality . 23 minutes ending in a good pounding

a man she had wanted for a long time , unconsciously without really being aware . Kal arranged it for her

Trauma Bond notes 041225

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Victoria Sparking

this book is fictional

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im reading the creative writing coursebook by Julia Bell

if youve breathed the same air as someone

they have in a way touched you

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a tall man does not necessarily have a big penis

and Anna has difficulty getting a regular tampon in

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step 13 is when someone goes to a 12 step meeting to chat someone up . step 14 is going there to sell something

and i made up step 15 is going there to promote a different cause

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that trip to the sex addicts meeting reminded me of pre hospital days when id go up to the Juggs on my own at night and sit in graveyards masturbating

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one of my friends gave me a little gilt edged mirror

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trevor is contacting my neighbours to paint me as a ' scarlet woman '

he also watches me masturbate using micro drones and says these things when its not about him

Wednesday, 19 November 2025

Carriers of the Doom page 16 inclusivity

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Victoria Sparking

this book is fictional

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Size isnt always related to height . He confronted Lilly at a festival .

Said hes going to punish her . But no need , he had what she needed .
With throngs of trolls clamouring for it to stop . And putting up memes they wrestled and arrived at a monster earthquake

N the whole earth shakes

Lilly does not consent for Agatha to watch footage of her , regardless of ' whoops ' or ' sorry ' . She thinks Lillly is her pregnant wife !

mothers suicide left Anna vulnerable to manipulation especially with her lack of street skills . Could Agatha guilt trip her into bed ? She says things like its her turn for a cuddle . She thinks she ' deserves ' Lilly

Vanilla she says . Vanilla whats vanilla these days ? what is new ?

An abusive taxi driver calls her a naughty girl. The vibe was threatening rather than friendly

there have been arson threats from Agatha and Emerald . And Mike . Trevor cut her off from a support meeting . He said Lilly needs to go to AA ! fat chance of him looking at his own drinking . He shut down parts of the internet and threatened a dawn raid

write about sex ? well being in love is the best thing . Which has nothing to do with abusing other women . Is that what you think about when youre masturbating ? And then you say nothing about your orgasm . Was it about a man or a woman ? how did it feel ? what made it work ?

no chance of anyone winning your match if you say nothing about it ! As they say its about communication , words, gestures , vibes . Lillys best experiences with men who talk about what they want . And what they dont want . if you want to drive a woman wild in bed tell her what you dont want . Ask her what she wants , she'll be gobsmacked

thats where Lilly had the vaginal orgasms, not with the abusive men

and of course there needs to be plenty of non sex going on as well or you'd get bored . Your latent fire needs to build and sometimes interruptions are a blessing

Madness in the dark .They say they make the best lovers
They really feel a woman from the inside of her heating up and it's illicit
It's over the boundary .And theres no future
Despite the monster hammering

Couldnt see anything , alot of kissing went on

Theres alot of flavours beside vanilla , like pistachio

Lilly dies in a car crash

the end

next book notes 191125 The Trauma Bond

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Victoria Sparking

this book is fictional

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Anna doesn't want to ever have sex again

Agatha wedged herself in there with" Anna is like a block of ice "

hoping they can melt into bed together !

and its men that keep pushing for sex is it Agatha ?

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love has no rhyme or reason

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Anna is now interested in sex , thanks Kal for the break

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Some women can do men's jobs and some men can do womens jobs

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Kal has nurtured Anna for a year and a half after she was abused by Fleur

He doesn't like her paintings and yet they have flourished while she's been with him . And she can see why he likes her writing

Hopefully she will move over to writing in the future

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writing exercise :

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Small world the internet . I bumped into someone i know from offline !

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Saturday, 8 November 2025

Carriers of the Doom page 15 firework bangers

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Victoria Sparking

this book is fictional

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Trevor is making it difficult to do an art course he admitted Lilly to

there are extra phone updates to disturb her . Agatha apparently has been given footage of Lilly which she didnt consent to

Trevor said hes creating a false narrative about Anna to get her in trouble with the police

Agatha had a banger set off outside Lillys home

her external hard drive is behaving differently

The postman said ' nothing really matters '

Lilly phoned the samaritans to talk about her course work . Trevor is threatening to call an ambulance

she doesnt need one , shes got no way of harming herself

her fantasy started off with a gangster film that couldn't be ignored

and went back to Notting Hill and the guy round the corner
There were quite a few people there Including film producers .
She was fighting for her orgasm while bombs dropped

she was chased as a spy

Ended with a good monster pounding

Carriers of the Doom notes 081125

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Victoria Sparking

this book is fictional

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i do not consent for agatha to watch footage of me , regardless of any ' woops ' or ' sorries '

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Agatha thinks im her pregnant wife !

someone has intercepted a delivery that i was waiting in for

in order to inconvenience me

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an abusive taxi driver has left me unable to sleep . he farted in the car and i still smell of him , feeling it an assault

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bounce made an arson threat against me hoping to get herself an orgasm . Assisted by emerald

Mike and Agatha have threatened a brick through the window

and now i cant sleep

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Trevor cut me off from a womens 12 step meeting . he thinks i should be in AA . fat chance of him looking at his own drinking

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Again unable to sleep

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Trevor is threatening some sort of dawn raid

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trevor shut down parts of the internet

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Saturday, 1 November 2025

Carriers of the Doom page 14 safe words

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Victoria Sparking

this book is fictional

edited 011125 edited 241125

Trevor and Emerald have been doing malarky on the internet , breaking wifi connections , making online transactions difficult etc . Theres a difference between radical and radicalised . Two wild owls calling to each other ' im here , im here ' . Woody and nutty like a little bagpipe , they havent changed for centuries

meanwhile online people get their friends to post for them , so that the tracks of their abuse cant be traced . And youre thorougly winded, overpowered , humiliated , wrecked and culuture shocked

mental health care is its own saga of incompetent nurses , wrong medications and bad friendships

and online you can get cancelled if you are not an elite technician , navigating the obfuscation of ' two factor authentication ' , why not call it something like recognition information

Kal is going to pound in me while talking about my other loves

in order to enjoy sex you need to feel safe on some level . there are men who are safe to be with and you might want adventure . And hence why Lilly has ended up overweight which gives her a degree of safety that she would not feel if she were petite .She started gaining weight during a ten year violent relationship

you need to feel its safe to say what you want , even if its a discussion about SM

people who are into SM actually do have boundaries . its on message boards where they were with someone who went too far , over-rides a safe word , someone they had not got to know

youre either with a man who is safe to be around . Or you feel safe in your ability to defend yourself if things go wrong. Kal has affairs but he rings the changes so that no one woman dominates

There was the brother of a friend . And somebody from the telly with a strap on . Ended with a man giving a good bucking
Which she felt at the g spot
A powerful monster man that blew her up
On a political scale
Should cause better discernment at the border

16 minutes , from the dream , the richter scale

Carriers of the Doom notes 011125

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Victoria Sparking

this book is fictional

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Trevor is making it difficult to do an art course he admitted me to

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Trevor is making my phone do extra updates to harrass me . Agatha apparently has been given footage of me which i didnt consent to her having

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Trevor said hes creating a false narrative about me to get me in trouble with the police

Agatha had a banger set off outside my home

My external hard drive is behaving differently

The postman said ' nothing really matters '

I phoned the samaritans to talk about my course work . Trevor is threatening to call an ambulance

I dont need one , im not going to harm myself

Tuesday, 21 October 2025

Carriers of the Doom page 13 international cyber warfare

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Victoria Sparking

this book is fictional

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Emerald had youtube shut down one evening , then they shut down some shopping chains . Avo sent a woman into a rehab meeting with a sexually abusive message delivered as a deliberate error in the readings

actually Lilly has difficutly using a tampon these days

Agatha sent a woman into rehab to flirt with Lilly . Lilly didnt fancy her . Shes interested in bisexual women who like men , but is not 100 % gay herself . Such are the preferences she was born with , by which she chooses to identify . The woman had done some digging ...

clockwork sent spam actresses to harrass Lilly at the pool showers

but Kal is a moon man . Who joined her sleeping under the stars listening to the whispering wings of birds at dawn

Tarry man fancy seeing you here m'lud , the book goes

There was this guy at notting Hill invited Lilly for a nice slow push
what if she'd taken it up ? she'd have got herself up the duff

Would you like me to buck you really hard he said , his friends filmed it

28 minutes , ended with a colourful monster bucking which she felt with her whole body

Carriers of the Doom notes 211025

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Victoria Sparking

this book is fictional

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Today emerald broke the WiFi of the chemist where Anna gets her prescriptions

and Trevor has guardianship of Anna

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Fleur gets nic to post for him

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today i had an experience of merging with Kal sexually but not with any goal in mind

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spot of fat shaming from Trevor and Agatha at bed time. Very endearing .

they are also threatening to do something to my youtube channel

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in order to enjoy sex you need to feel safe on some level . i know there are men who are safe to be with but i didnt want that , i wanted adventure . And hence why i have ended up overweight which gives me a degree of safety that i would not feel if i were petite . I started gaining weight during a ten year violent relationship

you need to feel its safe to say what you want , even if its a discussion about SM

people who are into SM actually do have boundaries . Ive read on message boards where they were with someone who went too far , over rode a safe word , someone they had not got to know

youre either with a man who is safe to be around . Or you feel safe in your ability to defend yourself if things go wrong

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Clockwork is threatening me with ect deeming it Christian

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Trevor is getting the neighbours to make vomiting noises

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cancellling anyone who isnt an elite technician , obfuscating

with ' two factor authentication ' , why not call it a recognition text

Wednesday, 15 October 2025

Carriers of the Doom page 12 the thud of a dinosaur

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Victoria Sparking

this book is fictional

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Kal is woke, his arms embrace the world and everything in the universe which he holds in love , he cares for the vulnerable who nestle under his immense power , the power that comes from great humilty . he is a bird holding a flower in his beak

Emerald left some heart medication and a hair net in Lillys bin and threatened to steal from her locker at the pool . She uses local residents groups to harrass , doxxes Lilly on the internet , hacks into her internet meetings and threatens her with a lobotomy . She interferes with online orders . Emerald is a social worker with a duty of care over disabled Lilly, and is Trevors girlfriend

historically ladies would wear two pairs of silk knickers and a petticoat to hold in their burning desires the Jane Austen theory of orgasms is that if you live an honorable life attending to friends and duties , the tension will build. And youll be blessed with a spontaneous vaginal orgasm with the right person

not sure how that works out in 2025 when you are not sure which of your friends have platonic intentions , with all the online guile going on and the anti straight memes . its easy to become lascivious

what and not get into a gangsters car and watch him drive with his eyes closed ? not hitch hike across the country in a mini skirt ? like Shroedingers slag . sometimes a woman is very turned on . Lillys mothers generation were advised to excuse themselves and go to the bathroom to calm down

then you can always go and fuck yourself . And post about it online. Again lascivious . there was plenty of porn even pre internet, people would leave it on the pavement ouside our girls school . Friends would get hold of them , boyfriends,

and what makes sex good for women if latency doesnt work ? Trust for one thing . Men are not all neanderthals ! Prioritising your own pleasure not just serving the man . Possibly the biggest obstacle . Reading books and magazine articles about sex , see if you can get into it

Lillys best experiences with men who communicate well . so well in fact they were teaching her about it , the poets , the sensitive types , the geeks , they can be really good in bed . How does he make you feel ? you are capable of great heights of excitement

in the carnival of horrors she shagged a defender , welcoming trans people into the changing rooms , somebody much bigger than her , he was wearing womens clothes, totally monsterised her , the thud of a dinosaur

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, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Victoria Sparking

this book is fictional

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Emerald shut down youtube

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i have difficulty getting a tampon in

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Avocado sent a woman into a rehab meeting with a sexually abusive message delivered as a deliberate error

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agatha sent a woman into a 12 step meeting to flirt with me . I didn't fancy her. She's done some digging hoping to force me into bed

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baby mother and clockwork sent spam actresses to harrass me at the pool showers

Kal is a moon man

Wednesday, 8 October 2025

Carriers of the Doom page 11 sexual orientations

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Victoria Sparking

this book is fictional

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my next book will be called ' Slag ' by Sparkle Ember

Lilly studied women artists quite extensively because of how they are left out of history . some of them are not as accomplished as the men but they put more feeling into it , eg Artemsia Gentilleschi . they see into the soul of the subject , the paintings are more personable. She believes that Patricia Preece's paintings were destroyed by her husband . She was in a relationship with Dorothy Hepworth and they couldnt survive as women artists so Patricia married on the condition that the husband be allowed to ' join in ' . Apparently this did not go well

in the 17th century to be working class and a woman it was unheard of to make it as a painter or to have time to paint. Artemesias father was himself a painter who supported her ambition . and he took to court a man whod assualted her and taken her honour . She was able to go to Spain to do some work for the royal court

Sometimes its difficult to paint your sketch . a friend of hers said maybe youre not feeling the same way you were when you did the sketch

art therapy goes much further into emotion than expressionism . And yet it must be abstracted . The expressionists broke all the rules and are there any left to break ?

Lilly painted her own wasteland of devastation inspired by artists of the first world war . Featuring an ampu tea pot and some objects reminiscent of her late mother . Thanks alot mother for leaving me , who will love me now ? what will people think ?

meanwhile so what do we need men for these days when we could have a female partner ? well some women are just straight for no reason its something we are born with . theres a big bang to be had and men must not be made extinct , Lilly would not like that , she enjoys the humor of men and when someone comes to fix something its usually a man

and women can be hysterical which is annoying sometimes

achieving orgasm through penetration can be challenging granted and she finds it worth it , when she gets there , the energy , the bonding with a man the feeling of triumph

from 2013 :

this is like a panther that is both wild and regal
the biggest loudest thundery heart that ever pounded the earth ....

that screams in rage at the false pretensions , the sellouts the trashy propaganda that eats the soul like chlorine
bleach

that frightens the thunder and dwarfs the tempest in his wake ...
without whom we should all be robots

and she doesnt understand she doesnt know she can't remember

she starts thrusting , she looks like shes having a silver bullet dug out of her . The magpie is laughing and the walls have started to melt