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the emotional downer 
that makes me keel over 
and am i even helping ? 
is he even my brother any more ? 

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i want to treat my brother to my company 
not a bag of sugar ! 

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whataboutery, yesbutery 
i wash my hands until they bleed 
to get rid of the germs 

these feelings 
thundering in my chest 

i feel like my family are torturing me 
they know where all my weak spots are 

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i don't know how to clean a house 
or go to work 
i eat the same meal every day 

im not an office worker 
an artist, musician, 
a mother, daughter, 
pillar of the community 
friend, lover, wife 

not a stay at home mom 
or single parent 

n i don't know how to fix anything 

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caffeine induced psychiosis 

im not working 
because i don't know how to sell myself 

if i sell it i lose it 

n you can find a boyfriend who loves you 
but nobody loves you 
the way your mamma does 

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' send him my love ' 

i want to give him 
the gift of myself 
not a load of sweets 

unadorned with gifts 

im not working 
because i don't know how to sell myself 

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so it has also something to do with 
oil and weapons