chapter 1 After the Apocalypse
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um no going into someone bedroom n ripping off the covers is not a derivative ...
if you want something thats going to stay with you for life
not evaporate like last nights crack
a derivative
is to pay homage
to worship and to commune with not to rape and mug
Art being like a wild animal that you want to tame.
Some of these people have never seen a bag of flour before .... you know everything delivered in plastic microwave packaging ...
n like you get the flour in a bowl with some water , massage it n make a shape right ....
n i had this conversation with Jim Morrison ....
n Splitz has attacked me
n i was going to say earlier
her orgasms were very impressive
i mean its not that she throw herself off the
garage its the orgasm itself propelled her across the garden ...
n verily do i injunct the people yous do not eat enough
to sustain a thought
let alone take it out to
the field for a kick about
n the unpalatable truth
is that forcing your body to be
a particular size is like
a form of animal cruelty ...
people are not only desperate for food they are desperate for sex , emotions and ideas n these vast lorries of people begging and fighting
for handouts ....
why am i being attacked
so much because of the anorexia
in our culture and what it does to peoples sexual powers
n yeah America keeps things
running smoothly with clockwork precision n all the life polished out of it
with professional sheen
n if you feel anything you get a sharp
clip round the ear ....
cashew ... will you stop hacking in and altering stuff thankyou ... you are not welcome to watch films of me either ... please use your own material ...
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God eats shoots n leaves
is what he does
puts you through all kinds of pranks
God is like
a really tetchy/temporamental film director
like Hitchcock ... he doenst care
who gets hurt as long as he gets an aesthetic reaction out of you ....
Chapter 2 , Everyday Magic
n I've isolated myself
i may have been sociable
h have not spoken to anyone on a deep level
i have made myself
very very vulnerable ....
n is she move away from the computer is alot more material is gonna
get lost
n it means alot to me when somethien is stolen and theres a cover version for me
buy a friend ...
you know
and i produce documents and artworks
that are the culmination
of your research n yous just let people steal them
n yous don't always get the Jungian significance of the sound effects and shapes
except some people do that don't really
get the emotional value
they just know how to use them .... *************
n all nuances ... like did you have an orgasm you didn't like very much
even the power was there n not
the music
doesnt necessarily have to be your Mum ....
one thing she learned from Dev
is to try to have a wank
about people you wouldn't normally wank about .... or pets even .... she had a wank about a tree
once ... her sexuality had all but
destroyed n there was
just this tree that looked like a penis ....
Dev is her internet boyfriend she has never met.
She is also vey griefed for her ex internet boyfriend Scarey
who appears in other books.
n more viral darts ...
you know ... and because
yous are all use to microwave
packets yous dont understand the
elemental components of what you are eating n like only Ravioli seems to get this ...
the fib asserting themselves
they own the premises the equipment n the guns ...
they want some respect
and appreciation ... they want something in return ...
the fib seem to have designed a witch warp so can you make a fairy warp as well
lot to time spend doing backups n still more to do
k she has to do one of those
fifteen minute backup things ... is
anyone can restrain the fib she be vey grateful thankyou .... 020613
global wine shortage say the fib .... arm try unreasonable force ...
n yeah i do have
some sexual threads in mind
n then the fib are going to dunk me
again while they feed it all to Lager and Trash ....
n yeah i only got
given the book because
Lager had helped herself to a
film of me during the night
in fact the most recent one while i was ill with
a fever given to me by the fib and being tortured with mitchells mouldy dust
n they then felt guilty about how much abuse they had dished out to me
and how it migh took on footage ....
n is you add all that up you'd get something like this
just sift through what happened you could
sift through the events
from your ordinary boring day to find out where the magic occurred ...
such a simple old cliche
that people don't notice its part of the furniture
n this could form a magic diary
alternative to the gratitude list at the end
of the day to ask myself did any miracles happen
n how does that differ from being a bore i think to quote Sheryl Crow
is a process of elimination
those moments of pure awe
the innocent moments when people drop their masks n stop critiquing themselves
n yeah tha is more what i would call more miraculous
n i need reminding of that ....
an Trix is good on that area
in order to get that I have to accept that nothing is happening
something my mum use to say
there is nothing happening out there ... n my brother would say
that nothing has ever happened
and that time doesnt exist ...
n he would say that feeling bored
is an achievement n a luxury ...
n she feel caught up in performancey stuff ...
n i see you push things right up to the point of critical danger ...
n you didn't seem to feel anything
for that bird ...
n is also what my rehab work is about is not just rehab is contact with
people when i first went there i felt like i was a chair or something you know i lost any sense of being human
n i like the word miracle more than magic a miracle is a bigger thing
that benefits more people and carries no trickery ...
n there was like 'The Changes' you know where all the technology was blown
up n people had to survive in
barns n it ws cutthroat
n this game where you had to scale a rope up to the roof or die
no tv at all woah we were allowed one hour per day or maybe two at weekends
n would beg to be allowed to stay up
for the horror thrillers ...
no tv at all ... n this is the way of the future n how can we promote it ...
n i think of magic n miracles is the magical stuff
thats easiest to do … not the magic
that is hard doing the special effects and vey dangerous .. .
magical is easy
apparently i did a magical breakfast once n i can't remember what
went in it ... apart from it had a rich sauce ...
n then one day
magic became something
quite commonplace n every-day ... n you
wouldnt bother recording it all even is you can hear drums n cymbals n witches screeching all around
n little tinkly bells in your computer
some of which from your Higher Power ...
Chapter 3 No Computer Week
n that song Heaven is a Place where nothing ever happens
we sang that in a squat with a guy called Kofi
n about 6 guitars
n it was one of those moments
of stillness
as if you had always been
sitting in that spot
n Julia Camerons no reading week would become a no cumputer week the idea being that we fill ourselves with other peoples thoughts ...
which brings me to the antar yoga
of tortoise-hood which
is where the seed of emotional nurturance is germinated ....
no tv at all ... n did you find that
the grown ups would get very distressed tearful and start shouting
if they found you in front of a screen ...
i dunno you had some
fiends over for a sleepover
n a great atmosphere ...
n you wake up with a fun hangover
n feel inspired to concoct the most awesome breakfast eva
the sky is all pink n stuff
n have a special feeling about
the cushion plumping to put love into it
n they look all fluffed up
like newborn chickens
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there is no food in here today
n she is blessed with an utterly fake and plastic kaboob
the way to a mans heart is through his stomach
yah put the boot in
what does a boot have to do with a romantic dinner cus he'd like rather be given the sack
in fact if you look at it like that he doesnt want a job
n what would she put in a romantic meal
cus like some of her most romantic
moments were over beans on toast in a workers cafe
you know n it has to have a checked vinyl table cloth n sort of weak tea ...
n could she invent
a glorified bottom dollar beans
bottom dollar beans
n gutter roll ups
Chapter 4 Antar Yoga
Chapter 5 Music from Bones
n yeah when you are in a happy mood
it makes little notes on the ojbect
n you can hear she enjoyed making the breakfast r n is nothing vey weird
in a happy mood
n that fridge can be vey talkative
n maybe she has a pet fridge ...
n now she is trying to make the keyboard talk n is not really weird
n see is yous can work out why is not weird
what go and see my own gp
n then they tell me I'm a bit mental
i only go there is my life depends on it
i don't know is you has commented on the device
or i need to decide that mysql
the tape recorder i don't think i have enough batteries ...
i took them out trying to make an electric shock
n better than plugging yourself into the mains ...
n don forget furniture percussion
can be vey sensitive to contrivances
she has design a keyboard that will pick up on your mood
is needs to be programme to play random notes when you switch it on ....
n it would pick up atmospheric vibrations
thanks Dev ... n yeah she always
had to give everything away ....
various percussions
n wha is she writes about music does it make the keyboard sing
i just deleted a recording
the keyboard was making a bit of a tune
i don't know if it would have come out
the piano was making a tune
normally the piano
is one thing that is shy of being recorded
while the fridge is quite happy
for me to bug her
you know theres swaggering .. . and theres staggering ... like legs akimbo trying to cross the
road with a bottle
a bit like a swagger swiggering
across the road
an just totally not giving a fuck
Chapter 6 How to Magically Clean the House
she have to go soon
to make some more pizza n magically clean the house
what does pizza have to do with cleaning the house
maybe Town might know
n what about other italian recipes like Osso Bucco n stuff
she was wondering
how to magically clean the house
n maybe by taking a tip from the Trixie
short of leaving the g drive plugged in
should she not worry what people do with her stuff ...
n is someone takes something
or puts a witch warp on why are they doing it
she has left a team of delegated in charge of which the Trixie is not one of them funnily enough n is up to them to conduct the derivatives i guess
this is an experiment with no guarantees
she has marked the dead hand before it goes in the wash
to see if it does anything ....
n the Trixie instructions make me
think of the magic roundabout for some reason
she has to try to make another
french pizza which could be vey hard for her
