300119 

arranged marriage 
is an abomination 

280119 / 290119 

save Rahaf Mohammed on Twitter 
#saverahaf

she wants to have a say
over who she gives her body to

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you're so wrong for me 
but you take my hand 
to show me the lights 
on the fading bridge

n it feel so right 
lets just pretend 

280119 

for God's sake 
she threw herself under a horse ... 

the audacity of it 
who does she think she is ! 

n all the child carers
can walk free , free of mom 

270119 / 280119 


k great, so all the people in psychiatric hospitals 

can take up their beds and walk !

can you touch your toes ? 
take a pen out of your pocket ? 

my neediness is not all bad 

if someone gains remote access 
to your computer 
can they tamper with a pdf ? 
they might delete a jpeg 
but i don't think they can alter it 

too busy to think 
too tired to feel 

8 quid for a light bulb 

n verbal abuse from my brother  
n im dozy, like a buzzy bee
his pain is contagious 

emotional prostitution if you will  

after paying for broadband 
i can't afford to use the phone 
hence why I'm here 

i got my head in the clouds 
n i can't concentrate 
in a permanent state of shock 

240119 

c'mon skinny bitch 

well blimmin well go n eat it then ! 

n they are so hungry 
they just wanna bit of chocolate 

i got skinny bitches 
takin a pop at me 

cus they aint had no food 

230119

230119 

just hoping 
i stay ahead of the race 

do they have access to our microphones 
while we are composing ? 
will somebody hack in 
and steal our work before its published ? 

will my backups be enough 
to prove its mine ? 

only in my case 
this was credited to my mental illness ! 

so anyway ... 
this is why i injured myself in 2013    

wednesday morning 

HACKING ALERT ! 

220119 / 

sexual feelings 
are a thing to be medicated 
n maybe i look scruffy and weird 

i get verbal abuse from
my brother, the neighbours, people around town and stuff 

i just look like a bit of an idiot i guess !

220119

not sure if they can tamper 
with a pdf 

can they access my computer, television, phone ? 
my recording device ? 
what could they do with that remote access ? 

n mummy settles down 
in the baby girl's heart 
where she will stay forever 

220119 

n there she was at 4 pm 

The Puppetteer if you will 

The Author 
is a character i observed  
who has a mental illness 
and a remarkable ability 
to write the script of your life ... 

a modern day Shakespeare if you like 
putting you through whatever horrors she desires ... 

210119 

I've gone all internetty 

a disabled person 
having sexual feelings 
this arouses alot of violence ... 

the moon is eclipsing the stars 
my doctors think I'm nuts 

though they admitted 
that hacking is a problem 

i think I'm emotionally retarded 

200119

artists do things with that 
all the failure, hurt and rejection 
the pain the embarrassment 

bit manic today thankyou 
mental health is struggling 

today's insult 
is tomorrows poetry 

190119 

im wasteful with resources 
i don't know how to do the housework 
i use alot of water and soap
i don't know how to do the recycling 
and i make alot of waste 

190119

my guilt is like a broken leg because of mother
i try to stand up for myself
and its like walking on a fracture, 

which buckles under me

die faggot he said
is that because of my age 

190119 

well they are planning to build 
250 new homes 
near where i live
which will really eat into our countryside 

n i decided not to complain 
if we all do our bit ... 

my injection is due on tuesday 

190119 

k so we've gone over there 
we've taken slaves
we've taken gold 
n we've taken statues

how do we repay the debt ? 

190119

monkey dust 

what else would i call it ? 
its a song that I'm not singing 

man do i feel ill 
its just this world 

like s'posin i said to you 
that you can't write like Shakespeare 

no but I've had an Irish one though 
ten years being called an English bastard 

whacked round the head 

170119 / 180119 

n to top it all 
i met Fritz 
in the mental health day care centre ! 

or am i a whistleblower ? 
is someone just messing with my head ? 

the moon is shining 
through thick cloud 

keep left 


im a good little girl
highly strung, intolerant 
a control freak 

goody two shoes 

k so apparently 

i have paranoid schizophrenia 

which is a bit weird 

considering how much i know about you 

n I'm about to be assassinated 

 all work on this site © Lizarrik

160119 

surrounded by drug addicts 
mental health patients 
and barking dogs 

they take adventage 
of a woman on her own 

150119 

man is that Brexit 
gonna cost some lives 

150119 

or maybe that was Fritz
n now i can't express my feelings 

she called me a cry baby 
silencing my voice 

c'mon and the rest ! 

archives phantom soufflee

140119 / 150119 

sleep walking 
ghosted , flighty .... 

most people are not who they said they were 
its a masked ball 

n now theres people tracking me on Google Earth 
beautiful art but what does it all mean ? 
its all about chii 

130119 

so Fritz owns the platform 
but what about his communication skills 

120119 

120119 

then if there is no response 
they delete the piece they want 
and make it theirs 

she said it was public domain
and she needed to find out 
if anyone was defending it 

because otherwise 
someone else would have taken it   

i think you get maybe one night's notice or something 

120119 

I'm Lady Goo Goo ! 

080119

Grenfell still burns 

080119 

i had my don't tell the bride moment 
when i fractured  my hip 

070119 / 080119 

I'm going through the menopause 
and have to wear pads all the time  

like having pmt every day   

after the anger came out 
the love was there 
like a shining jewel 

n then we take all the decorations down 
and go back to being horrible 

n now I'm people pleasing 
I'm telling you what you want to hear 
after all we have to agree 

I've lost my back bone 
n we'll do this 
until we're both sick of pretending 

030119 / 040119 

just goes to show 
how selfish i am 

its my own stupid fault 
that i havent had any children 
and now have no relatives 

I'm just a waste of space 

020119 

i went to see my therapist today 
and reminded myself 
that i can be sarcastic and condescending at times 
very much so 

i think of myself as a loving person 
but really patience and tolerance are not my middle name ! 

I'm quite highly strung actually 
and prone to tempers ! 

020119

he had just lost his licence 
from drink driving 

020119 

why did the police kick the door in 
if there was a window open ? 

i stand between father and brother 
lest they kill each other