jupitersterrain6

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there is something happening hormonally
i feel i ought to have a child
not baby broody like i used to

just there should be something child shaped 

so yes i risk to interfere
and undermine the parents 

a barren woman causing trouble

i feel left out

that i can't share the memories 

because i am child free 

my experience is not valued 

i can relate to the position they are in
watching a child living in a disturbed home

today I'm not missing my mother 

I'm feeling the loss of a child