210219 

the moon had luminous purple edges 
i stared at it so long 

i feel like a blob with no personality 
neither male nor female 

im a life support machine 
with no arms or legs 

being female is a disability 
n theres an epidemic of mental health problems 

even the security guards are at it   

200219 

favourite Beatles ? 
still my guitar gently weeps 

what no children ? 
is that a bit of a sore point ? 

200219 

the medication they gave me  
made me feel violently angry 
i walked around for days 
snorting like an animal 
got lockjaw n couldn't breathe

my tongue was stuck hanging out 
n you knew this would happen 
said the nurse 

190219 

lunatic indeed 
fantabulous 

drunk on caffeine 
in a manic psychosis 

just watching your stuff 
and you are rapping about it 

kids listening to gangster music 
about murder and that 
gangster killings 
its satanic 

getting abuse from trolls 
over supporting Rahaf 

people have been cloned 
government mind control

to be famous in America 
you have to sacrifice a member of your family 
for the organs 

alot of celebrities are actually clones 

you know we're all ill right 
the government are pumping stuff into the air 
to control our minds 

i got put in hospital for saying things like that 

you like the old school hip hop like me 
yeah stuff about being bullied 

n then i fist bumped him on the arm 
like a poser   
isn't this marvellous 

n now my recording equipment is bust 
n i can't afford it 
why i want to stay up all night writing 
to other lost souls on the internet 
n people go slightly mad on their own
n can't afford to use the phone 
they might be quite ill 
from looking after one another 
im in a sugar coma 
please don't look at my body 

too dozy to drive, my head in the clouds 

kids listening to gangster music 

about murder and that 

gangster killings 

180219 

walking backwards and forwards 
moving objects around 

i can't have a smart phone 

it would ruin my life

I'm getting scam calls
after switching phone line deals
n i feel traumatised

so they have somehow hacked into my details
and found that I'm in the middle of a switch
and therefore vulnerable 

to picking up the phone
and being led astray ...

160219

I've got out of the habit of talking to people 
they seem to be too busy for me 

and i can't afford to phone them 

160219 

id like to be able to read it

so how i manage to be in love with someone
that i have no communication 

with i don't know !

probably just fantasy

so there i was
staring at the moon