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how education 
spoils your innocent wonder 

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all my boyfriends 
had mental health issues 
and i thought i could fix them  

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alot of songs 
are about feelings of inadequacy 

our stereotyping 
is so extreme 
its become self fulfilling 

what other self effacing things can we say ? 
how about shame and disgrace
dishonour even
ugliness

neediness 

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sorry i got you mixed up with somebody else 

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the cost of freedom 

failure 
losing my dignity 

disappointment 

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n Daddy said 
its a cut throat world 
dog eat dog 

nobody cares about anybody else 
they just use you 
until you are no longer useful to them 

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inadequacy 

seriously messed up in the head 
all this gushing neediness

i don't even try things 
if I'm going to fail 
so then i fail at failing ! 

course now I'm too messed up, needy and disfunctional
to sustain such normal interactions

maybe my friendship with S will help with that
although there is all this needyness bottled up inside from 35 years
you fear it will all come gushing out !