jupitersterrain6

010719

inadequacy 

seriously messed up in the head 
all this gushing neediness

i don't even try things 
if I'm going to fail 
so then i fail at failing ! 

course now I'm too messed up, needy and disfunctional
to sustain such normal interactions

maybe my friendship with S will help with that
although there is all this needyness bottled up inside from 35 years
you fear it will all come gushing out !