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Saturday, 29 March 2025

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clockwork is on the war path
Al fayed is innocent , please can you not abduct Dev for mating duties
this blog is copyright of LIZARIKK , throw , clockwork
harpie , bisto , chops , identity thief , bobble are not welcome
My first book is called The Love Bombers by Lacey Ember

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking
see below please , hunnie is not welcome to it , she wants to feed my books into AI
I opt out of them being so used

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the harrassment from Zeus and Fleur keeps on coming with more welfare questionnaires and interviews . Questions like can you take a pen out of your pocket . what does that have to do with schizophrenia ?   

she feels too unwell even for Vid , she is ashamed . but if she offers herself to Zeus he would say hes with Cloudier . theyve been round that merry go round a few times. and if his heart were really in it with Ellie he would have made some effort to meet up as friends

  n actually Vid comes through for her again and again just when she feels she has failed him. But she doesnt have the confidence to marry him at the moment what with her being so slow at things . and him wanting her to write instead of painting . she sees why ... but cant give up her painting

  icy chops and tasha are not welcome . what does Ellie do all day ? cope with people like them . family friend Breda said she would help but doesnt follow through  
i hope you get a glitch says chops    

and Agatha bombards Ellie with tropes like robot , cube, alpha male , stump , zombie , n theyre trying to take Vid for the same treatment they gave Fleur , waterboard him and force him to mate with his ex partner , who feels that yes means future yes   

welfare messages pop up when Ellie mentions these things , in digital dystopian style. she goes for a swim where two regulars are talking about getting a ticket , theyre trying to bully her soul out of her with zersetzung  they even said so   

and cloudier is dissing her with thousands of forum identities, imagine how many phones she has !

  mental health treatment has come a long way since Ellies mother committed suicide in Friern Barnet hospital in London in 1982 ,  just before the new mental health act of 1983 but where is it going now seemingly backwards towards the ' moral treatments ' of the Victorian era

Muriel’s death probably contributed to the new mental health act being made which included consulting the patient on their treatments and making it more difficult to section people

  being present in the moment   positive psychosis ?  oh yes lots , she remember the whole kitchen came alive like all the noises of boilers , fridges , cups and things  sounded like music, even the creaking floorboards !the skateboard park sounded like reggae  and all the trees came to life and made sounds

 she understands certain things shes learned like ' owning your feelings '  and responding rather than reacting trying not to finger point  to refrain from ad hominem, to journal and seek therapy rather than taking it out on other people , to recognise when something is about your own issues not the other persons   

she described herself as progressive because after 35 years in therapy  she knows something about the latest in communication skills  and in business models actually where play , wellbeing and interactive skills are being used by the most progressive companies   

and the winds of change no pun intended  under Browns labour government  actually scrapped the very good sheltered workshops and job clubs  in favour of pressure to look after each other  with no training
and so ... we learn to gaslight the gaslighters

Tuesday, 25 March 2025

gaslight city page 36 sexual awakening

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stare into the moon and see who you really love most but also perhaps guys need some assistance sometimes
rather than having to be the hero all the time, tearing through me like a wheel of fire

dont think about the missed bin collection

sometimes she buys mens clothes for that boyfriend jumper feeling she designed in 2021
 imagine you are standing in warm spring sunshine outside  in a nice place  
and the sunshine is going first into your heart  
and then spreading throughout your body   is what love feels like

a new her every day ! is what recovery brings her when shes turned over another stone there are worms and insects and she dig further ...a bull in a china shop smashing her chandelier they were in the dining room
at her grandpas house under the chandelier Mick gets her on the table
and then the velvet sofa

her screams smash the crystals an explosion of colour and light magic is made of contrastsshes completely flattened a bit queasy and sick

its difficult to walk afterwards intense matter ... nothing ... intense matter ... nothing ... antimatter woooohhhpp wooohhhppp wooohhhppp
throb throb throb bang its that she genuinely prefers men in the sexual sense
having sex with a man is more creepy and gritty, youre supposed to kick the football not the other players ha ha !

bloodthirsty vultures ...

he gives her butterflies , maybe she will give birth to one.Studied architecture at schoo which included phenomenology , harmonic proportions
and integral calculus like the popping of bubbles of light like being bathed in warm sunshine a ring of muscle like a snake that traps you there with its venom like if you picked up a slug it would tighten around your finger
and yes occasionally women
but she prefers the adrenalin rush that you get with a man

hes wierd and creepy how she like em , hes creative and playful with it
an aura of light shine and sparkle
the mollusc squrms and thrashes to the point where nothing exists
the null hypothesis like the audible pulsing of the tardis
where there is no matter

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gaslight city page 35 Claudia

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Ellie has met Claudia online . Claudia is a social worker on Ellies care team, which she jokes is her probation officer . k so why is her probation officer watching her bedroom on satellite in order to train herself sexually ? surely she has many tips and techniques of her own

Fleur is on the same team and encourages his married lover to abuse Ellie .

Claudia is ageist and ablist and works in care . shes number twos number two.

Agatha is another patient who is hoping to move near to Ellie to get closer to a romance with her

Claudia is Zeus partner but hes not realised it yet . hes just letting her fulfill all his needs

Ellie has met Claudia in real life too at a counselling foundation course . Ellie was talking about one of her relationships and Claudia looked jealous

Monday, 24 March 2025

gaslight city page 34 sexual awakening

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there is a lot at stake in terms of talking to strange men online
and the horror stories we hear about it and Ellie wont be ' rewarding someone with sex '
sex is something she enjoys not something she sells !

a spark of warmth

when we help someone a little bit of stardust rubs off on us, sailing through the glory of the heavens, listen with your heart
you might understand the birds

cats have magical healing powers , the woody nutty sounds
as it yowls from its bones like a little bone rattling witch , her beautiful caterwauling operas with the bellows bagpipes and drones

number 2 likes forbidden filth himself
and since when do we ' make someone happy '

i wonder if im a bit ornamental at this point, frustrated rage
raging until i explode ! mindblowing intensity BAM !
slam bam thankyou man

forbidden filth having sex with an edifice , making love to an institution
thats all wrong isnt it Mick

someone sent a spam actor into the fridge aisle of the supermarket
to make Ellie catch something and then someone said ' fuck the knuckle '

a roast ghost is a cauliflower

She’s seen stars of different colours of stars ,especially pink ones  they are playing a show of past centuries she doesnt want the teenagers to hear her
choking like the face of scream I find that

its a romantic ice breaker to say something self depreciating
to open with my lack of confidence and her worthlessness it puts the other person at ease , its a way of melting the space between us a pink lady

apple spiralling magma look like a baby thats scrunched up its face
ready for a tantrums looks like she’s being strangled , choking
in the throes of the grip of death gasping her last. The earth stopped running under her bare feet, hypnotised in a rigid trance

She was locked inside a transparent coffin , eyes scrunched up tight
dizzy like herhead will burst any minute concentrating intensely , 20s Vaudeville fringe theatre , suddenly she was bolt upright in her coffin
eyeballs hanging out celebrating her release , the audience tightened the noose , a large buzzsaw severed her in two pieces

just an illusion

Her body jerks out of the coffin like a jack in the box

boing

the head hanging from a spring long as the organs creepy
making the head bang against the wood
but the organism worked itself out over the night !
like the smiler ride at Alton Towers

n everybody go oooh oooooh
n everybody go ahhhh ahhhh ahhhh , an underground lake opened up
where magical energy is hidden , ahem,

a space ship of white light
 a scream that rang like  chimes of shattered alien glass bells

sexual empaths
she remembers groups of them as teenagers
would sometimes get hold of a magazine or a video tape for a dare
and because it was funny and entertaining and crack themselves up laughing

in some ways it has been educational in her life and entertaining the old school of porn where you would go into an adult shop then in recent years there is something more sinister with instant web cam services , revenge porn etc

what can she put in a forbidden fruit pie ? spanish oranges brie grapes
yoghurt , cocoa , raspberries strawberries redcurrents

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gaslight city page 33 fat shaming

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and then theres Petra calling Ellie a ' bucket ' or a ' pit ' , which is a sexually abusive form of fat shaming , you can get from both men and women .

Petra is Vids ex. She cheated on him because he had not made the relationship public . not a great strategy

And now is back to make a claim . this always happens when Ellie meets a new man , the ex comes out of the woodwork with a renewed sense of his value !

and Vids other ex Helga says he must screw her because he srewed her before ! Bizarre huh !

n shes not a pit actually in fact mysteriously her hymen seems to have grown back after 11 years of abstinence and then some . waiting for her peach to ripen

Zeus tries to insist that Ellie can work , going against medical advice . He failed to put her on the open market and is now trying to force her into a sheltered workshop for the disabled . he wants her to come back to him

Sunday, 23 March 2025

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she thinks try not to worry about where you mind has gone during a sexual fantasy its a bit like dreams it can be very random sometimes

 the mind tends to go where it should not go  Isn't it Mick

Mick was her online lover  this has all gone on in private for you as part of you exploring your sexuality she enjoys the sharper energy of men sometimes her naivete is one of her charms

The term "blind" comes from the fact that the players are being forced to bet on their hands without having seen their cards. such as hold em   reminds her there was a type of gambling  where you don't keep looking at your score  she thinks it was part of poker stars

men are sick of being used as baby machines.  Another molten lava guitar , she just thinks youre trying to squeeze  a square peg into a round hole   the music sounds all trippy and stuff like its melting  it sounds like they are dodging each other !

people have been known to climax at the hands of their abusers , their torturers even  its still an assault. total wipeout had her on her death bed  sometimes she has a blackout  

n the moon shone bright clear as a bell   

but did react to it   she did one without the button but then she wanted another one which didnt work out so there may be something else in there   sometimes in the scariest moments you get a surge of adrenalin and a high. She doesnt think people realise how important it is  to give yourself pleasure  to explore your feelings in private  without worrying how other people feel about it  ,  you can explore your gender,  your orientation and your preferences  and nobody needs to know what you fantasied about !  all because of some silly Victorian taboo !

Dont Tell The Groom fantasy game k so shes in charge of the wedding  and she wants another magician to make them both disappear  especially if the magician is one of her exes and youd both have ex partners at the wedding and at the end of it its called off  due to unresolved issues  like you've got to be constanty uncoupling
you will own nothing and you will be happy  is something to do with crypto currency , like a rock n roller coaster  imploded like a demolition site , theres like a drum skin in her body .
bit coin, can people be bought lock stock and barrel ?  that idea caused her GBH once  

dizzy sick and legless the climax of death the impact of the trauma  like a bullet through a trampoline

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gaslight city page 31 gang stalking

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Ellie was being chased by a man with a pane of glass in his hands . when she fell to the ground the man disappeared

concussed she hankered for playing banjo and guitar with Dad

Fleur didnt feel Ellie was doing enough to protect him from Zeus although she was blogging about his trials . and then Tasha came along and called Ellie an elephant in a green tutu . Which helped Tasha to orgasm . Ellie blocked her but she bust her way through vulnerable friend Millies emails to deliver more abuse

something she refers as a ' charging cable ' with Ellie being the source of sexual energy for her apparently . Not sure why she cant make her own , maybe she doesnt do enough exercise and shes only 45 , she stays indoors all day doing the housework for her husband

so that was the end of Ellies relationship with Fleur .and she was very lucky to get picked up by Vid , whos been very tolerant of her rebound problems and her being a wild animal

while Tasha tries to dig her way into Ellies insides with a pick axe

Ellie is trying to help little Millie who has been deprived of mental health care . They have zoom calls where they discuss things like would a cat be traumatised if you spray it with water . Not if its in the middle of a nasty cat fight they conclude . and its also a way of addressing the subject of trauma through story

Zeus is harrassing Ellie using the online journal of the welfare department . What does he want with Ellie ? shes not heard anything from him and sees him alll the time online with Cloudier

word on the street is dont let the welfare push you into anything

you gotta learn how to trust the right people when youre used to trusting the wrong people

Zeus is not a bad man, hes just a particular type of man , very closed off and militaristic and to be honest we need those guys . he needs a woman who can bring him out of himself And that woman is already Cloudier

Ellie responds more to a beta male type like Vid who can talk to her as an equal and admires her strengths . Vid doesnt usually make her feel controlled, hes there for her