gaslight city page 44 the alien dystopia

clockwork is on the war path
Al fayed is innocent , please can you not abduct Dev for mating duties
this blog is copyright of LIZARIKK , throw , clockwork
tasha , bisto , chops , identity thief , bobble are not welcome
My first book is called The Love Bombers by Lacey Ember 

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking
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I opt out of them being so used 

this book is fictional 

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next thing you know there is a letter in the post , you no longer live at this address , a space ship will be along to pick you up at 4 , please be ready this is the law , make sure you have plenty of supplies for the bunker
in case of shelling from an alien space craft 

you will own nothing and you will be happy they say

there was a time Agatha says to zeus shes fed up of hearing about Ellies relationships with men so they are now seeking permission
to access footage of her bedroom so they can pass them around
shes like a journalist always trying to prise you open 

they were all about chasing the guys
she went to a girls schoo and that was their brand of feminism , she cackles like a joker, her makeup runs, shes gullible too , its kind of en vogue these days . A quick wit will never keep up anyways

she suffered life changing injuries during a protest n Charlotte is the most fun person you could possibly imagine but Ellie didnt know she wouldn't give her that film . it didn't seem cool to ask 

it didnt seem cool to ask to see a film of herself having sex

maybe thats why she still thinks people are filming her

one of the neighbours made a vomiting noise 
when a builder was visitng which Ellie wonders is a tradesman code for 
' this client is a bit coookie ' 

resulting in Ellie being asked for payment in advance

 she likes the sound of the rain on the roof and on the windows
as if you've just built yourself a log cabin ! pretending shes in a tent 

but seriously you think Ellie can counsel zeus while maintaining a romance ? !

far out

Fleur and Mike already had a handle on their emotions

course no worries now that guy Zeus is dating an actual therapist ! 

 Ellie is going in the opposite trajectory to her boyfriend sometimes
its all personality

when they had choices

gaslight city pg 43 sexual awakening

 

clockwork is on the war path
Al fayed is innocent , please can you not abduct Dev for mating duties
this blog is copyright of LIZARIKK , throw , clockwork
tasha , bisto , chops , identity thief , bobble are not welcome
My first book is called The Love Bombers by Lacey Ember 

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking
see below please , hunnie is not welcome to it , she wants to feed my books into AI
I opt out of them being so used 

this book is fictional 

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 well there were black clouds here earlier and now there is a beautiful moon with utter stillness and it looks all icy up there
so I think some of the potion is coming from that moon

friction , abrasive, do you ever feel a hair has got caught

cohesion , flow its not a competition
punch and judy show shes a separate ball
on its own trajectory she threw herself under a horse
fighting the power of the waves

sometimes she googles for old masters of large women
you have to be careful with the search terms though
the clouds make many lights and shades Mick
and nutmeg is a good alternative with the first stage
you get the twitching and stuff but the bang is further on big waves crashing over her, hydraulic power breaking the drive belt

shes out of her depth , what if the tide is going out ? stop panicking and let the powerful ones bring you in , you can't stand up to them
they dragged her up onto the beach and she couldn't move

a big man came and got her out

open your mouth before you open your legs

her hymen has grown back after a decade of abstinence, it hurts again,  staring at the dark windy trees , makes you feel things,
I dont know, she takes her time because she wants to feel 

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Sex can't be performative but there's nothing quite like an orgasm from penetration.  If you're struggling with that try exploring the g spot with a vibrator , get your partner to hold it 

Your intellect isn't going to help x

gaslight city page 42 notes and barefoot therapist

clockwork is on the war path
Al fayed is innocent , please can you not abduct Dev for mating duties
this blog is copyright of LIZARIKK , throw , clockwork
harpie , bisto , chops , identity thief , bobble are not welcome
My first book is called The Love Bombers by Lacey Ember 

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking
see below please , hunnie is not welcome to it , she wants to feed my books into AI
I opt out of them being so used 

this book is fictional 

edited 050425 , edited 190425

 

 

 Ellie gets attacked alot by victims of child sexual abuse . Ellie was abused but not to that extent , Ellie has something different as the child of a suicide , which gives her access to the afterlife . And the child abuse victims regard her as having an unfair advantage and also a weakness that they can prise open 

the effect this has on Ellie is that shes halfway between too worlds , not ill enough to be a child abuse survivor and not well enough to join the world , leaving her in some sort of limbo where shes constantly trying to bail out other peoples emotions 

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So she meets Jez years later and says that she wasn't ready to talk about orgasms when they were together . Too inexperienced.  And that she tends to orgasm when she's doing something wrong 

Well I'm married now he says 

And this is why I didn't want to meet you because I thought we might flirt !

We might flirt in a way I wasn't ready for at the time 

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In the 60s , welfare used to raid the homes of claimants looking for evidence of a partner , like shaving foam in the bathroom . Tricky these days if you're transgender 

No disabled person is privileged

gaslight city page 41 unpaid carer

 

clockwork is on the war path
Al fayed is innocent , please can you not abduct Dev for mating duties
this blog is copyright of LIZARIKK , throw , clockwork
harpie , bisto , chops , identity thief , bobble are not welcome
My first book is called The Love Bombers by Lacey Ember 

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking
see below please , hunnie is not welcome to it , she wants to feed my books into AI
I opt out of them being so used 

this book is fictional 

edited 040425 , edited 190425

 

 shes an unpaid carer myself , she says to the cleaning lady , the wife of the world , befriending those that nobody wants to see , in search of the treasures of darkness 

n sometimes shes  had to fight them but only the men . biff bang pow . n being harrassed left right and centre. currently by a lady called Mary pidgeoning the tv . these world leaders need oestrogen especially the men . one of Ellies exes is on oestrogen to great effect 

n meanwhile welfare assistance keep re traumatising her with excessive emails and phone calls. and she cant discuss her care work with them because they will kill her . her functioning is impaired . this is Zeus trying to bring her to heel to get her away from Vid

one of the job coaches was nice and didnt attack her which she appreciated, but then they lost her trust by sending her two appointments in one day 

 

they ask her trick questions , asking for evidence of her rent which they said they will check out with the landlord , and then another message to day shes not provided enough evidence that its gone up ! gaslighting pure and simple !  And how many of us are starting to long for assisted dying ? 

they stress the welfare advisers to the point where they have a breakdown and leave work 

bailing out other peoples issues , Ellie has to use her own therapy sessions to talk about them , with many other people riding on that 

shes  expressing their  feelings in order to pass through them

gaslight city page 40 sexual awakening

 

clockwork is on the war path
Al fayed is innocent , please can you not abduct Dev for mating duties
this blog is copyright of LIZARIKK , throw , clockwork
harpie , bisto , chops , identity thief , bobble are not welcome
My first book is called The Love Bombers by Lacey Ember 

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking
see below please , hunnie is not welcome to it , she wants to feed my books into AI
I opt out of them being so used 

this book is fictional 

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sometimes stillness just focusing on how rude they are to each other 
, when you like someone that much that you just explode from such a feast 




which hits you right in the stomach making you wince with pleasure 
like a massage from inside producing some sort of seizure 



 

n maybe orgasms hold the key to the origins of the universe 
around the beginning of the last century
you could be committed for cheating on your husband

 



even trying to get a coffee with Mick 


can be very taboo and shocking 

 

they  were in the hay barn when it happened 
dressing a shire horse . in the end shes  not entirely sure who it was 
she dissociated it seems in a blackout he made a burned hole in her 
entirely blackened 



 

clawing at the walls n this is what sex is like in the afterlife 
apart from he has a higher sex drive than her . stormy with glimpses of stars , delerious rock n roll reaching for the sky n oh yes there was a supernova at one point it was really cosmic how they bonded 



 

shes actually quite scared its like being kicked in the back like a zither 
she wandered off a bit but she didnt want to betray him 
so she steered herself back , it happened later on 
and now its properly finished   
 

 
honking like a chimp like a monkey pounding bass of her heart 
crack of lightening still not finished

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gaslight city page 39 surveillance

 

clockwork is on the war path
Al fayed is innocent , please can you not abduct Dev for mating duties
this blog is copyright of LIZARIKK , throw , clockwork
harpie , bisto , chops , identity thief , bobble are not welcome
My first book is called The Love Bombers by Lacey Ember 

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking
see below please , hunnie is not welcome to it , she wants to feed my books into AI
I opt out of them being so used 

this book is fictional 

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bullied ? there is one guy who would sneak up behind her 
and put his arm round her, say something insulting 
he was dirty and smelly 



 

and she hates that feeling they think they know you 
, one time she nearly ran into traffic to get away from him 
.another one threatened to throw her in the river
 because he didn't like her feeding the gulls 




 

n she doesn't value her life above her freedom actually 
 


 

even if someone is twisting her arm or has her in a headlock ! 
shes had a brush with brutality before n shes a very huggy person n her mother was like a deer too 

 




they had a rich and colourful culture that was a kind of a glorious mess 
she seems to be having a protest on her own 



 

she has something to hide where state surveillance is concerned ... 
transparency ? no mystery around then ... 
her claim to oddness was dreams about people 
that she had not met, 



 

she know she doesnt have privacy because people know things she hasnt told them , she can relate to being pestered every 5 minutes 
and plied with memes and  she will not forget how you tried to force her hand . one of the issues with the digital age is you no longer have the opportunity to think something through before you announce it 
things can be stolen even as you draft them on paper 


would she like to live in the future ? not with a world thats all about automation and proof and science that no longer needs 
to value the poet's opinion no 



 

a reminder to the ladies ... a glass or two of soya milk will raise your oestrogen levels staving off some of the menopausal bitchiness . her stalker is in some ways a very nice lady  , generous even 
 

have you ever felt you were switching chairs with the therapist ? ! 

lest they ' dump their own stuff ' back on the client 

 





The disabled live in a needs based economy
she thought the free market was a bit regulated
or is that all out the window with Brexit and covid too !

peachy head 

this wave of ignorance did reach even to the mental health systems 

with premature pressure to work 
, and she did seriously injure herself over this and because of the pizza tricks , where people watch her in her bedroom 
, populists are seeking to demolish 
all the human rights we have built up over centuries 


octopus dependent , clones , horsemeat ? or her time machine ? 
his ex thanks and hugs her for the non consensual video of her  she used 
n yeah look the pizza trick has borked their relationship
and is giving them  reductive stereotypes 
but where is all the celebrating ? 
when its not he who will pull out the final rabbit 
and there is scope for reverse psychology

gaslight city page 38 sexual awakening

 

clockwork is on the war path
Al fayed is innocent , please can you not abduct Dev for mating duties
this blog is copyright of LIZARIKK , throw , clockwork
harpie , bisto , chops , identity thief , bobble are not welcome
My first book is called The Love Bombers by Lacey Ember 

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking
see below please , hunnie is not welcome to it , she wants to feed my books into AI
I opt out of them being so used 

this book is fictional 

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dizzy giddy light-headed faint weak at the knees unsteady shaky wobbly off-balance, reeling staggering tottering. teetering woozy with legs like jelly 


with rubbery legs vertiginous dazed confused muddled befuddled bewildered disorientated stupefied groggy muzzy dopey woolly not with it



orgasm gasm gasm they are cathartic and even physical issues 
can be resolved therapeutically to build desire through 
other kinds of touching like for example the classic way 
' taking sex off the table ' i suppose we're tearing each other apart 
because we're not allowed to meet 



orgasms can be catastrophic 



she asked him to stay a bit in front wah wah wah wop wop n it was a bit of a shock having her petticoats ruffled up n it came as a surprise just 12 minutes in a real stinger n he dug about to get it all out Mick did 


while she doubled over k now you can tell me all about world politics
 while we try not to do it 
n she have to try to concentrate k lets do the thing where you take it off the table to create a buildup from just cuddling ! 



n afterwards a blissful nothingness like the big bang in reverse 
time going backwards in throbbing wumps 



 our ' mental health community ' in my area 
was further eroded 
a freak ' mindfulness ' session layed on by a minor celebrity 
which I can't name 
who had us focus on the perineum 
for the whole session 
and make sexual noises ! 


must be pretty special to watch a woman masturbate because theres a good chance she'll be enjoying herself rather than trying to please 

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