gaslight city page 47 sexual awakening

clockwork is on the war path
Al fayed is innocent , please can you not abduct Dev for mating duties
this blog is copyright of LIZARIKK , throw , clockwork
tasha , bisto , chops , identity thief , bobble are not welcome
My first book is called The Love Bombers by Lacey Ember 

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking
see below please , hunnie is not welcome to it , she wants to feed my books into AI
I opt out of them being so used 

this book is fictional 

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the earth opened up n something hit her from the core
like an alien daemon, maybe this thing will burn itself out
like even the brightest star

smashing up her glass soul with a sledge hammer n this is not weakness tearing through her conditionings ripping it all up leaving a blank slate
to learn this new soul

she and Mick just fell into each other it wasnt possible to stop

after swimming bouncy and renewed
with fairy lights of orange purple and pink

the moon sits in an icy glass lake streaked like a fish bone
a doorway to the mystical floating in space
all bitterness gone shes opened out another  area of tension
blasted to smithereens , why do people not do this ? !
and what a mess do we even like each other
from different camps if you look at it that way one of the alternative buoys
thats close to his heart
shes thrashing about arching her back
high tensile strength round and round like pulled out on a rack
like an elastic band the balloon swells and pops bang
and all light pouring out
and sparkling glitter everywhere 

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gaslight city page 46 the global economy

 

clockwork is on the war path
Al fayed is innocent , please can you not abduct Dev for mating duties
this blog is copyright of LIZARIKK , throw , clockwork
tasha , bisto , chops , identity thief , bobble are not welcome
My first book is called The Love Bombers by Lacey Ember 

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking
see below please , hunnie is not welcome to it , she wants to feed my books into AI
I opt out of them being so used 

this book is fictional 

edited 100425 edited 190425

 

people shout at her in queues because she is slow getting the cash out . She gets harrassed by unhoused people who see her as vulnerable . its an effort to act normal for friends . She upsets them talking about traumatic events and bad news . People mock her for being slow and overweight calling her an elephant

she gets picked on in voluntary jobs , they could tell there is something wrong with her , play her up and harrass her at work

can you take a pen out of your pocket says the examiner 

n the attic an old scratched vinyl  of Running Bear , dilated pupils , a fresh new world full of fun and surprises full of wonder sometimes there are very special night birds around here that sound like tropical birds not bats or owls !

a play ground of role play emotionally a bit choppy

vintage toy puppet theatre with red velvet curtains and a Ghost Castle from the 70s

her sparring partner is on the offensive today with actors outside and forum posts made by solicitors apparently she supposed to be some kind of a bed bound zombie ! last couple of days 2 clockwork clocks
and her clockwork watch have stopped working a portent of something she doesn't know what

self harm comes from a feeling of numbness as they communicate with their phones

and not sure she appreciates the straw man technique !
were she to commit to guy no 2
he would immediately get bored within a nano second
and then the cam girls chorus would put on a special

although she does have actual work business to discuss with him due to an organisation they have been in and actually there are some other exes
with whom she needs to share intelligence . the welfare of the disabled, national security that sort of thing

shes one of the illests and currently barely able to function this has all been orchestrated

her ex boyfriend has organised a financial review for her ! as a way to bring them closer ... strip jack naked with all her weakness exposed
its like being in a war 
 where you are reduced to the absolute bare bones of yourself 
just surviving from one moment to the other 

waiting for the bomb to drop

the thing with the painting is she puts everything into it trying to go forwards
and now shes pulled in 2 directions Avalon or the Egyptian otherworlds ?

pelted with stones , overwhelmed , this brown envelope seems very timely as a punishment , reminding her that shes scum she feels like shes being coerced

she doesnt think people realise what is going on with the occult at the moment
its gathered force on the internet  and forms a powerful sea  with choppy waves and tidal waves,  tsunamis and the like especially how it affects peoples relationships

gaslight city page 45 sexual awakening

 

clockwork is on the war path
Al fayed is innocent , please can you not abduct Dev for mating duties
this blog is copyright of LIZARIKK , throw , clockwork
tasha , bisto , chops , identity thief , bobble are not welcome
My first book is called The Love Bombers by Lacey Ember 

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking
see below please , hunnie is not welcome to it , she wants to feed my books into AI
I opt out of them being so used 

this book is fictional 

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her organs have been mangled , shes a jukebox her soul has been hammered out on the anvil , boom crrraaaaack ! the tubes are crushed like accupuncture
wrung out like a flannel , takes her all night to get to bed
her ego is annihilated 
and she feels a deep peace 


the second one 
was like a black hole 

a complete car crash 
impaled on a piece of glass 
thrashing about like the crack of an earthquake 
more in the coccyx , hits you at the back of your spine like a spaceship blowing up the glands
 

she gets turned on by his confidence as well as his insecurities
a great Saturday night feeling ! being opened up and blown apart
like a frogs belly rises
 

n its reverse psychology is what they dont understand n reverse reverse
like a hydraulic press . she smells great ! what with all this talk of mating she feels and smells like shes ovulating !

providing entertainment for the troops.  Her infant joy rang like shards of glass shattering her inner mind like a decanter
she sometimes finds that beetroot juice would start her period so it would be over by a certain date then she could meet a particular guy like Mick

!n when you go on a thrill seeking ride you get an orgasm in your chest
so apparently she a porn star 

 

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gaslight city page 44 the alien dystopia

clockwork is on the war path
Al fayed is innocent , please can you not abduct Dev for mating duties
this blog is copyright of LIZARIKK , throw , clockwork
tasha , bisto , chops , identity thief , bobble are not welcome
My first book is called The Love Bombers by Lacey Ember 

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking
see below please , hunnie is not welcome to it , she wants to feed my books into AI
I opt out of them being so used 

this book is fictional 

edited 090425 edited 190425

 

 

next thing you know there is a letter in the post , you no longer live at this address , a space ship will be along to pick you up at 4 , please be ready this is the law , make sure you have plenty of supplies for the bunker
in case of shelling from an alien space craft 

you will own nothing and you will be happy they say

there was a time Agatha says to zeus shes fed up of hearing about Ellies relationships with men so they are now seeking permission
to access footage of her bedroom so they can pass them around
shes like a journalist always trying to prise you open 

they were all about chasing the guys
she went to a girls schoo and that was their brand of feminism , she cackles like a joker, her makeup runs, shes gullible too , its kind of en vogue these days . A quick wit will never keep up anyways

she suffered life changing injuries during a protest n Charlotte is the most fun person you could possibly imagine but Ellie didnt know she wouldn't give her that film . it didn't seem cool to ask 

it didnt seem cool to ask to see a film of herself having sex

maybe thats why she still thinks people are filming her

one of the neighbours made a vomiting noise 
when a builder was visitng which Ellie wonders is a tradesman code for 
' this client is a bit coookie ' 

resulting in Ellie being asked for payment in advance

 she likes the sound of the rain on the roof and on the windows
as if you've just built yourself a log cabin ! pretending shes in a tent 

but seriously you think Ellie can counsel zeus while maintaining a romance ? !

far out

Fleur and Mike already had a handle on their emotions

course no worries now that guy Zeus is dating an actual therapist ! 

 Ellie is going in the opposite trajectory to her boyfriend sometimes
its all personality

when they had choices

gaslight city pg 43 sexual awakening

 

clockwork is on the war path
Al fayed is innocent , please can you not abduct Dev for mating duties
this blog is copyright of LIZARIKK , throw , clockwork
tasha , bisto , chops , identity thief , bobble are not welcome
My first book is called The Love Bombers by Lacey Ember 

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking
see below please , hunnie is not welcome to it , she wants to feed my books into AI
I opt out of them being so used 

this book is fictional 

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 well there were black clouds here earlier and now there is a beautiful moon with utter stillness and it looks all icy up there
so I think some of the potion is coming from that moon

friction , abrasive, do you ever feel a hair has got caught

cohesion , flow its not a competition
punch and judy show shes a separate ball
on its own trajectory she threw herself under a horse
fighting the power of the waves

sometimes she googles for old masters of large women
you have to be careful with the search terms though
the clouds make many lights and shades Mick
and nutmeg is a good alternative with the first stage
you get the twitching and stuff but the bang is further on big waves crashing over her, hydraulic power breaking the drive belt

shes out of her depth , what if the tide is going out ? stop panicking and let the powerful ones bring you in , you can't stand up to them
they dragged her up onto the beach and she couldn't move

a big man came and got her out

open your mouth before you open your legs

her hymen has grown back after a decade of abstinence, it hurts again,  staring at the dark windy trees , makes you feel things,
I dont know, she takes her time because she wants to feel 

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Sex can't be performative but there's nothing quite like an orgasm from penetration.  If you're struggling with that try exploring the g spot with a vibrator , get your partner to hold it 

Your intellect isn't going to help x

gaslight city page 42 notes and barefoot therapist

clockwork is on the war path
Al fayed is innocent , please can you not abduct Dev for mating duties
this blog is copyright of LIZARIKK , throw , clockwork
harpie , bisto , chops , identity thief , bobble are not welcome
My first book is called The Love Bombers by Lacey Ember 

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking
see below please , hunnie is not welcome to it , she wants to feed my books into AI
I opt out of them being so used 

this book is fictional 

edited 050425 , edited 190425

 

 

 Ellie gets attacked alot by victims of child sexual abuse . Ellie was abused but not to that extent , Ellie has something different as the child of a suicide , which gives her access to the afterlife . And the child abuse victims regard her as having an unfair advantage and also a weakness that they can prise open 

the effect this has on Ellie is that shes halfway between too worlds , not ill enough to be a child abuse survivor and not well enough to join the world , leaving her in some sort of limbo where shes constantly trying to bail out other peoples emotions 

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So she meets Jez years later and says that she wasn't ready to talk about orgasms when they were together . Too inexperienced.  And that she tends to orgasm when she's doing something wrong 

Well I'm married now he says 

And this is why I didn't want to meet you because I thought we might flirt !

We might flirt in a way I wasn't ready for at the time 

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In the 60s , welfare used to raid the homes of claimants looking for evidence of a partner , like shaving foam in the bathroom . Tricky these days if you're transgender 

No disabled person is privileged

gaslight city page 41 unpaid carer

 

clockwork is on the war path
Al fayed is innocent , please can you not abduct Dev for mating duties
this blog is copyright of LIZARIKK , throw , clockwork
harpie , bisto , chops , identity thief , bobble are not welcome
My first book is called The Love Bombers by Lacey Ember 

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking
see below please , hunnie is not welcome to it , she wants to feed my books into AI
I opt out of them being so used 

this book is fictional 

edited 040425 , edited 190425

 

 shes an unpaid carer myself , she says to the cleaning lady , the wife of the world , befriending those that nobody wants to see , in search of the treasures of darkness 

n sometimes shes  had to fight them but only the men . biff bang pow . n being harrassed left right and centre. currently by a lady called Mary pidgeoning the tv . these world leaders need oestrogen especially the men . one of Ellies exes is on oestrogen to great effect 

n meanwhile welfare assistance keep re traumatising her with excessive emails and phone calls. and she cant discuss her care work with them because they will kill her . her functioning is impaired . this is Zeus trying to bring her to heel to get her away from Vid

one of the job coaches was nice and didnt attack her which she appreciated, but then they lost her trust by sending her two appointments in one day 

 

they ask her trick questions , asking for evidence of her rent which they said they will check out with the landlord , and then another message to day shes not provided enough evidence that its gone up ! gaslighting pure and simple !  And how many of us are starting to long for assisted dying ? 

they stress the welfare advisers to the point where they have a breakdown and leave work 

bailing out other peoples issues , Ellie has to use her own therapy sessions to talk about them , with many other people riding on that 

shes  expressing their  feelings in order to pass through them