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Monday, 31 March 2025

gaslight city page 40 sexual awakening

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My first book is called The Love Bombers by Lacey Ember

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking
see below please , hunnie is not welcome to it , she wants to feed my books into AI
I opt out of them being so used

this book is fictional

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sometimes stillness just focusing on how rude they are to each other  , when you like someone that much that you just explode from such a feast

which hits you right in the stomach making you wince with pleasure  like a massage from inside producing some sort of seizure   

n maybe orgasms hold the key to the origins of the universe  around the beginning of the last century you could be committed for cheating on your husband

  even trying to get a coffee with Mick    can be very taboo and shocking

they were in the hay barn when it happened  dressing a shire horse . in the end shes not entirely sure who it was  she dissociated it seems in a blackout he made a burned hole in her  entirely blackened   

clawing at the walls n this is what sex is like in the afterlife  apart from he has a higher sex drive than her . stormy with glimpses of stars , delerious rock n roll reaching for the sky n oh yes there was a supernova at one point it was really cosmic how they bonded   

shes actually quite scared its like being kicked in the back like a zither  she wandered off a bit but she didnt want to betray him  so she steered herself back , it happened later on  and now its properly finished

 honking like a chimp like a monkey pounding bass of her heart  crack of lightening still not finished

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gaslight city page 39 surveillance

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking
see below please , hunnie is not welcome to it , she wants to feed my books into AI
I opt out of them being so used

this book is fictional

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bullied ? there is one guy who would sneak up behind her  and put his arm round her, say something insulting  he was dirty and smelly   

and she hates that feeling they think they know you  , one time she nearly ran into traffic to get away from him  .another one threatened to throw her in the river  because he didn't like her feeding the gulls    

n she doesn't value her life above her freedom actually    

even if someone is twisting her arm or has her in a headlock !  shes had a brush with brutality before n shes a very huggy person n her mother was like a deer too

   they had a rich and colourful culture that was a kind of a glorious mess  she seems to be having a protest on her own   

she has something to hide where state surveillance is concerned ...  transparency ? no mystery around then ...  her claim to oddness was dreams about people  that she had not met,   

she know she doesnt have privacy because people know things she hasnt told them , she can relate to being pestered every 5 minutes  and plied with memes and she will not forget how you tried to force her hand . one of the issues with the digital age is you no longer have the opportunity to think something through before you announce it  things can be stolen even as you draft them on paper

 would she like to live in the future ? not with a world thats all about automation and proof and science that no longer needs  to value the poet's opinion no   

a reminder to the ladies ... a glass or two of soya milk will raise your oestrogen levels staving off some of the menopausal bitchiness . her stalker is in some ways a very nice lady , generous even

have you ever felt you were switching chairs with the therapist ? !   lest they ' dump their own stuff ' back on the client

    The disabled live in a needs based economy she thought the free market was a bit regulated or is that all out the window with Brexit and covid too !

peachy head

this wave of ignorance did reach even to the mental health systems   with premature pressure to work  , and she did seriously injure herself over this and because of the pizza tricks , where people watch her in her bedroom  , populists are seeking to demolish  all the human rights we have built up over centuries

 octopus dependent , clones , horsemeat ? or her time machine ?  his ex thanks and hugs her for the non consensual video of her she used  n yeah look the pizza trick has borked their relationship and is giving them reductive stereotypes  but where is all the celebrating ?  when its not he who will pull out the final rabbit  and there is scope for reverse psychology

Saturday, 29 March 2025

gaslight city page 38 sexual awakening

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking
see below please , hunnie is not welcome to it , she wants to feed my books into AI
I opt out of them being so used

this book is fictional

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dizzy giddy light-headed faint weak at the knees unsteady shaky wobbly off-balance, reeling staggering tottering. teetering woozy with legs like jelly

 with rubbery legs vertiginous dazed confused muddled befuddled bewildered disorientated stupefied groggy muzzy dopey woolly not with it  

orgasm gasm gasm they are cathartic and even physical issues  can be resolved therapeutically to build desire through  other kinds of touching like for example the classic way  ' taking sex off the table ' i suppose we're tearing each other apart  because we're not allowed to meet   

orgasms can be catastrophic   

she asked him to stay a bit in front wah wah wah wop wop n it was a bit of a shock having her petticoats ruffled up n it came as a surprise just 12 minutes in a real stinger n he dug about to get it all out Mick did  

while she doubled over k now you can tell me all about world politics  while we try not to do it  n she have to try to concentrate k lets do the thing where you take it off the table to create a buildup from just cuddling !   

n afterwards a blissful nothingness like the big bang in reverse  time going backwards in throbbing wumps   

our ' mental health community ' in my area  was further eroded  a freak ' mindfulness ' session layed on by a minor celebrity  which I can't name  who had us focus on the perineum  for the whole session  and make sexual noises !  

must be pretty special to watch a woman masturbate because theres a good chance she'll be enjoying herself rather than trying to please

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gaslight city page 37 welfare assistance

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking
see below please , hunnie is not welcome to it , she wants to feed my books into AI
I opt out of them being so used

this book is fictional

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the harrassment from Zeus and Fleur keeps on coming with more welfare questionnaires and interviews . Questions like can you take a pen out of your pocket . what does that have to do with schizophrenia ?   

she feels too unwell even for Vid , she is ashamed . but if she offers herself to Zeus he would say hes with Cloudier . theyve been round that merry go round a few times. and if his heart were really in it with Ellie he would have made some effort to meet up as friends

  n actually Vid comes through for her again and again just when she feels she has failed him. But she doesnt have the confidence to marry him at the moment what with her being so slow at things . and him wanting her to write instead of painting . she sees why ... but cant give up her painting

  icy chops and tasha are not welcome . what does Ellie do all day ? cope with people like them . family friend Breda said she would help but doesnt follow through  
i hope you get a glitch says chops    

and Agatha bombards Ellie with tropes like robot , cube, alpha male , stump , zombie , n theyre trying to take Vid for the same treatment they gave Fleur , waterboard him and force him to mate with his ex partner , who feels that yes means future yes   

welfare messages pop up when Ellie mentions these things , in digital dystopian style. she goes for a swim where two regulars are talking about getting a ticket , theyre trying to bully her soul out of her with zersetzung  they even said so   

and cloudier is dissing her with thousands of forum identities, imagine how many phones she has !

  mental health treatment has come a long way since Ellies mother committed suicide in Friern Barnet hospital in London in 1982 ,  just before the new mental health act of 1983 but where is it going now seemingly backwards towards the ' moral treatments ' of the Victorian era

Muriel’s death probably contributed to the new mental health act being made which included consulting the patient on their treatments and making it more difficult to section people

  being present in the moment   positive psychosis ?  oh yes lots , she remember the whole kitchen came alive like all the noises of boilers , fridges , cups and things  sounded like music, even the creaking floorboards !the skateboard park sounded like reggae  and all the trees came to life and made sounds

 she understands certain things shes learned like ' owning your feelings '  and responding rather than reacting trying not to finger point  to refrain from ad hominem, to journal and seek therapy rather than taking it out on other people , to recognise when something is about your own issues not the other persons   

she described herself as progressive because after 35 years in therapy  she knows something about the latest in communication skills  and in business models actually where play , wellbeing and interactive skills are being used by the most progressive companies   

and the winds of change no pun intended  under Browns labour government  actually scrapped the very good sheltered workshops and job clubs  in favour of pressure to look after each other  with no training
and so ... we learn to gaslight the gaslighters

Tuesday, 25 March 2025

gaslight city page 36 sexual awakening

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stare into the moon and see who you really love most but also perhaps guys need some assistance sometimes
rather than having to be the hero all the time, tearing through me like a wheel of fire

dont think about the missed bin collection

sometimes she buys mens clothes for that boyfriend jumper feeling she designed in 2021
 imagine you are standing in warm spring sunshine outside  in a nice place  
and the sunshine is going first into your heart  
and then spreading throughout your body   is what love feels like

a new her every day ! is what recovery brings her when shes turned over another stone there are worms and insects and she dig further ...a bull in a china shop smashing her chandelier they were in the dining room
at her grandpas house under the chandelier Mick gets her on the table
and then the velvet sofa

her screams smash the crystals an explosion of colour and light magic is made of contrastsshes completely flattened a bit queasy and sick

its difficult to walk afterwards intense matter ... nothing ... intense matter ... nothing ... antimatter woooohhhpp wooohhhppp wooohhhppp
throb throb throb bang its that she genuinely prefers men in the sexual sense
having sex with a man is more creepy and gritty, youre supposed to kick the football not the other players ha ha !

bloodthirsty vultures ...

he gives her butterflies , maybe she will give birth to one.Studied architecture at schoo which included phenomenology , harmonic proportions
and integral calculus like the popping of bubbles of light like being bathed in warm sunshine a ring of muscle like a snake that traps you there with its venom like if you picked up a slug it would tighten around your finger
and yes occasionally women
but she prefers the adrenalin rush that you get with a man

hes wierd and creepy how she like em , hes creative and playful with it
an aura of light shine and sparkle
the mollusc squrms and thrashes to the point where nothing exists
the null hypothesis like the audible pulsing of the tardis
where there is no matter

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gaslight city page 35 Claudia

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Ellie has met Claudia online . Claudia is a social worker on Ellies care team, which she jokes is her probation officer . k so why is her probation officer watching her bedroom on satellite in order to train herself sexually ? surely she has many tips and techniques of her own

Fleur is on the same team and encourages his married lover to abuse Ellie .

Claudia is ageist and ablist and works in care . shes number twos number two.

Agatha is another patient who is hoping to move near to Ellie to get closer to a romance with her

Claudia is Zeus partner but hes not realised it yet . hes just letting her fulfill all his needs

Ellie has met Claudia in real life too at a counselling foundation course . Ellie was talking about one of her relationships and Claudia looked jealous

Monday, 24 March 2025

gaslight city page 34 sexual awakening

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there is a lot at stake in terms of talking to strange men online
and the horror stories we hear about it and Ellie wont be ' rewarding someone with sex '
sex is something she enjoys not something she sells !

a spark of warmth

when we help someone a little bit of stardust rubs off on us, sailing through the glory of the heavens, listen with your heart
you might understand the birds

cats have magical healing powers , the woody nutty sounds
as it yowls from its bones like a little bone rattling witch , her beautiful caterwauling operas with the bellows bagpipes and drones

number 2 likes forbidden filth himself
and since when do we ' make someone happy '

i wonder if im a bit ornamental at this point, frustrated rage
raging until i explode ! mindblowing intensity BAM !
slam bam thankyou man

forbidden filth having sex with an edifice , making love to an institution
thats all wrong isnt it Mick

someone sent a spam actor into the fridge aisle of the supermarket
to make Ellie catch something and then someone said ' fuck the knuckle '

a roast ghost is a cauliflower

She’s seen stars of different colours of stars ,especially pink ones  they are playing a show of past centuries she doesnt want the teenagers to hear her
choking like the face of scream I find that

its a romantic ice breaker to say something self depreciating
to open with my lack of confidence and her worthlessness it puts the other person at ease , its a way of melting the space between us a pink lady

apple spiralling magma look like a baby thats scrunched up its face
ready for a tantrums looks like she’s being strangled , choking
in the throes of the grip of death gasping her last. The earth stopped running under her bare feet, hypnotised in a rigid trance

She was locked inside a transparent coffin , eyes scrunched up tight
dizzy like herhead will burst any minute concentrating intensely , 20s Vaudeville fringe theatre , suddenly she was bolt upright in her coffin
eyeballs hanging out celebrating her release , the audience tightened the noose , a large buzzsaw severed her in two pieces

just an illusion

Her body jerks out of the coffin like a jack in the box

boing

the head hanging from a spring long as the organs creepy
making the head bang against the wood
but the organism worked itself out over the night !
like the smiler ride at Alton Towers

n everybody go oooh oooooh
n everybody go ahhhh ahhhh ahhhh , an underground lake opened up
where magical energy is hidden , ahem,

a space ship of white light
 a scream that rang like  chimes of shattered alien glass bells

sexual empaths
she remembers groups of them as teenagers
would sometimes get hold of a magazine or a video tape for a dare
and because it was funny and entertaining and crack themselves up laughing

in some ways it has been educational in her life and entertaining the old school of porn where you would go into an adult shop then in recent years there is something more sinister with instant web cam services , revenge porn etc

what can she put in a forbidden fruit pie ? spanish oranges brie grapes
yoghurt , cocoa , raspberries strawberries redcurrents

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