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clockwork is on the war path
Al fayed is innocent , please can you not abduct Dev for mating duties
this blog is copyright of LIZARIKK , throw , clockwork
tasha , bisto , chops , identity thief , bobble are not welcome
My first book is called The Love Bombers by Lacey Ember 

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Anna Crackle
, hunnie is not welcome to it , she wants to feed my books into AI
I opt out of them being so used in AI

this book is fictional

 

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 the stars are playing hide and seek
in the clouds

is Jez the wine that pours from your lute ? is he the music
that comes from a place where music is redundant?

that makes a sound only Gods and devils can hear? is he the beginning
and the end of the circle where time stands still ?

that you can feel under your skin a hundred miles away ... does
he make your soul blossom like a orchid in a hothouse ?

his stilettoes compliment the muscle under the gauze
As throngs of excited guitar beat applause

his hair looks subtle under the chiffon how about his mate
kept in suspense thick fingers study the elastic

they paint his lips with khol and fruited lipsalve , trace contours of his chest , what is so funny he can hardly stand up , as he grapples me for the door handle 

who does she think shes kidding ?

you think the weirdest things n this is a wild card
a throw of the dice,  n sometimes you have a fantasy about two of them
she called him a nasty Jesus , he said the wallpaper
was peeling off the walls

next i saw stars, they were spinning around , a sparkling egg moon  
with gravelly, zombie spice n she felt a bit paranoid about it
wondering if he was using videos of her
as a pizza to add to the trippyness

they called it the pasty tax after her victory jack . People feel entitled to watch her do it , this girl who grew up in the 60s surrounded by promiscuity , who takes ownership of her own body

Notre Dame est en colere, to do magic you have to risk your life
which ended in disaster , and sometimes she hammered one out

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clockwork is on the war path
Al fayed is innocent , please can you not abduct Dev for mating duties
this blog is copyright of LIZARIKK , throw , clockwork
tasha , bisto , chops , identity thief , bobble are not welcome
My first book is called The Love Bombers by Lacey Ember 

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Anna Crackle
, hunnie is not welcome to it , she wants to feed my books into AI
I opt out of them being so used in AI

this book is fictional

 

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Is Kal the sun that rouses  you and the moon that whispers goodnight 

Is he the skin that drums in your heart 

Is he a glass of sparkling stars 

 

does he bend your mind and form your heart  

you struggle to get away and love holds you back 

where you cannot fall 

And your hand goes right through him 

 

whos head is like a prism 

refracting peoples light

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i have a habit of making friends with people who are depressed , isolated, excluded from society , cant get a therapist , been let down by the services . Ive been excluded myself and i cant bear to let go of these people . I need to work out how to put myself back together afterwards , think of someone to phone to debrief with , or go to a meeting to get some positive energy  

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To counter the neighbours excessive air freshener i put some fox poo in the garden 

Seems it was not fox poo but my favourite cats enemy cat ! Caused a big yowling match , i wondered what the consequences would be of moving the poo 

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By the time I got there we were taking our freedom for granted,  going to university,  dating who we liked , one night stands , a grant , as if it had always been so 

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England - self depreciating dry humour , grouchiness , rudeness , unceremonious,  like were constantly hazing each other 

My mum thought her mum had an affair with a fighter pilot in the war , which would explain our celtic side

 

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n yeah the ritual abusers refer to my romantic poems as ' knitting ' , as if ive knitted a jumper for my son . And while its not that , it can be used that way if a man needs mothering and starts to see me that way .And then i feel a fool for having written it and named the subject 

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i met a trans man today who wouldnt take no for an answer

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clockwork is on the war path
Al fayed is innocent , please can you not abduct Dev for mating duties
this blog is copyright of LIZARIKK , throw , clockwork
tasha , bisto , chops , identity thief , bobble are not welcome
My first book is called The Love Bombers by Lacey Ember 

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Anna Crackle
, hunnie is not welcome to it , she wants to feed my books into AI
I opt out of them being so used in AI

this book is fictional

 

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Greenland is on fire , rivers and forests , flow through her
birds chirping in her head , the twinkling of a mountain stream

to have an actual experience . She cried when they let her out of the mental hospital

getting off the internet coming together in a meditative trance

feeling the pavement , physcial contact , with the policemen
a throwback to the '60s , they want something real
that they can touch and taste

n theyre  tired theyre  tired of being slaves to machines , driving themselves on like literal robots
so she gets off the internet and goes to see a friend. The friend is pretty fucked up . Like most people , even if they dont think they are , even if theyre ' normal ' , Liza can see how messed up they are
sometimes its refreshing to talk to someone who knows it
even if that friend is having a crush on you
theres something wrong with everybody Da said
n she has to deliver love to the unloved ,
tricky if they expect it to be sexual , or to change your sexuality
and part of the zerzetzung is to mock her about this and call her a lesbian

we'll back you into a corner until you cave into it they say
the peeps from cult ritual abuse , that seems to have a hold on the world
n she knows that love and kindness can overcome that
but its sooo sooo hard to do

especialy when they lock you in with them and youve to bang on the door for help you wonder what on earth you are doing there , is he going to pull a knife on her ? So honest with his feelings its mind blowing

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clockwork is on the war path
Al fayed is innocent , please can you not abduct Dev for mating duties
this blog is copyright of LIZARIKK , throw , clockwork
tasha , bisto , chops , identity thief , bobble are not welcome
My first book is called The Love Bombers by Lacey Ember 

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Anna Crackle
, hunnie is not welcome to it , she wants to feed my books into AI
I opt out of them being so used in AI

this book is fictional

 

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sorry if i hurt your feelings she said , just shoving you about a bit , here we call it SM as the case may be ill be thinking bout the person I'm not with  , polyamory the only way to save a heart 

trippy , ensuring that excessive force is not used 

what would you do with a drunken sailor ? n Kal is a bit like a bonobo
n it would be wrong of her to blame him
lycanthropy , hugging her  even as she vanishes

 
Greenland is on fire n we're breathing out all this heat
these ugly thoughts look so insane n all this stuff like sticky goo , wriggle out of it 

married to the muse , it matters as much as a little puff of cookies
on the helm's voyage , long as the organ's creepy Jez
Mozart will never sound like that again . he was very very real , in ways she couldn't entirely fathom 

n a part of her is still there , this is like chimpanzees foraging in the wild
so whats more important  sexually , the place where you jumped off  or the place where you landed ?

doing the dirty work makes her seem of bad character
like she has split personalities going on 

but you gotta get down n dirty in order to dig up the truth

reptilians ? would Kal say that ?

N she was steering steering and suddenly she thought fuck it and stopped steering . And the man in question said it was pure filth ! he was a rock guitarist who had seen her on the satelliteasphere where girls are being filmed. 

 

Some of the girls have realised that and started to enjoy the game . Gets pretty tough when youre orgasms are being assessed 

 

n the guys are finding it hard too where nobody can commit in the stratosphere , not knowing what kind of shark will surface next

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clockwork is on the war path
Al fayed is innocent , please can you not abduct Dev for mating duties
this blog is copyright of LIZARIKK , throw , clockwork
tasha , bisto , chops , identity thief , bobble are not welcome
My first book is called The Love Bombers by Lacey Ember 

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Anna Crackle
, hunnie is not welcome to it , she wants to feed my books into AI
I opt out of them being so used in AI

this book is fictional

 

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i cried when they let me out of the mental hospital

 

concussion cliffs page 23 more zerzetzung

 

clockwork is on the war path
Al fayed is innocent , please can you not abduct Dev for mating duties
this blog is copyright of LIZARIKK , throw , clockwork
tasha , bisto , chops , identity thief , bobble are not welcome
My first book is called The Love Bombers by Lacey Ember 

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Anna Crackle
, hunnie is not welcome to it , she wants to feed my books into AI
I opt out of them being so used in AI

this book is fictional

 

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 so what is zerzetzung ? Well in Lizas case putting actors in her way to deliver subliminals . When she tries to confide this in people they tell her shes paranoid . Shes been medicated for it 

but some of those flash mobs were for real . why ? because she is a promising intelligence agent and people feel the need to steer her 

another way is to attack her self care . People are shocked when she talks about it . As though she is some sort of pampered aristocrat who spends all her time at health spas . Actually she is far from girlie , she uses a sea salt shower gel for her skin , exercises and occasionally massages her face . With great results apparently 

she deserves it after taking on some of the most impossible people in the country . Those who have been abandoned by the services , who nobody wants to talk to . Because of her awakening. The awakening was like a flash of lightning , a veil lifting to reveal another world . Where of course nobody is excluded 

she gives herself oestrogen from plant sources. Oestrogen is like being on drugs ! you can have too much of it making you too docile and pliant 

and she is not descended from the aristocracy ! going back two generations they were working class people who moved to London and ' made good ' as intellectuals as they called it in those days . Forging a better life for their children . they had a strong work ethic . Apart from one girl who apparently was impregnated by a lord but that doesnt really count , and they dont know how far back that was 

mother was born during the blitz . The nurses stayed with them when they could have been in the air raid shelters . Mum said one time the dwp in the seventies theyd visited a woman and found after shave in her bathroom and dismissed her claim saying she had a man supporting her !

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clockwork is on the war path
Al fayed is innocent , please can you not abduct Dev for mating duties
this blog is copyright of LIZARIKK , throw , clockwork
tasha , bisto , chops , identity thief , bobble are not welcome
My first book is called The Love Bombers by Lacey Ember 

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Anna Crackle
, hunnie is not welcome to it , she wants to feed my books into AI
I opt out of them being so used in AI

this book is fictional

 

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she saw them as some sort of conquest

if she does it out of obligation
shes just going through the motions
sometimes she has  made a guy feel obligated
to go through with it

once it gets past a certain point, say, once some clothes come off
then shes lost the ability to know what she wants. To have a voice . At what point does that happen ? 

it took a few goes because of the pain and him not wanting to hurt her
he was the sort of guy who could stop at any time
they would close their eyes in reverence at their love

its a scary place to be when you leave behind all that you know

and the earth opens up beneath you , you don't want to be here anyway
and then you flew !

giving herself space to feel the feelings they don't know what to do
if its not a competition , a football match at the weekend !
not like the movies , the difference between sexy and sexual

what if it was not a performance , not a competition , more of a slow burn
she sees a road ahead , it feels like rough terrain going up stream in a strong current , a gritty road

she certainly lost her dignity on the booster ride

stinging the sting,  her fickle heart is loyal to the truth,  her buttons have been pushed until theyre sore. Tormented

when a man wears a dress it draws attention to what he has

porn can be pretty hilarious sometimes

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