clockwork is on the war path
Al fayed is innocent , please can you not abduct Dev for mating duties
this blog is copyright of LIZARIKK , throw , clockwork
tasha , bisto , chops , identity thief , bobble are not welcome
My first book is called The Love Bombers by Lacey Ember
, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Anna Crackle
, hunnie is not welcome to it , she wants to feed my books into AI
I opt out of them being so used in AI
this book is fictional
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Liza
would go into her grandparents room in the morning and theyd be playing
french radio news with their teas made , about 6.30 am . ' can i come to your bed ! ' Growing up in
that atmosphere she tended to take the mick , sometimes recording their
conversations eg one of them about God , she'd play it back to them
which caused much hilarity
'
if God existed and had any sense he'd make himself abundantly clear to
me ! ' spouted Grandfather on the tape recording in a booming voice
that has intimidated many an intellectual peer . And is to Liza quite
hilarious . He enjoys her teasing of him
when
she was about five she was on her own in a room and wondered if she
were not there if the sounds she could hear would exist . When she told
her relatives they were very impressed , apparently Galileo had said
this
as
a child she read Dickens, Turgenyev , Dostoyevsky , the Mill on the
Floss , Lark Rise to Candleford , Middle march , Daniel Deronda . In her teens got into
Kafka Sartre and Tolstoy . She was a slow reader but really stopping to
take it all in
her
family were journalists and intellectuals, professors , who believed
in ' the philosophy of the absurd ' which shes not really studied but understands to be a
rejection of religion. Grandfather said its a fundamental intellectual
error to believe in a power other than yourself
And
Liza would agree in rejecting alot of what religion offers. But with
Mike she had a powerful experience which had nothing to do with churches
, more like a rock n roll trippy explosion of lightning . There was
Mozart playing on his gramaphone player . After she
came off all the substances , and started to learn Zen meditation ,
seeking ' thoughtless awareness ' that apparently is the understanding
of ' realised souls ' according to the late Shri Mataji . Liza felt she
had recieved ' proof ' of the existence of another world . A world that
exists parallel to this one , that is occasionally revealed when the
veil is lifted
her
intellectual relatives had to endure the subequent mental illness and
bad behaviour , self destruction and her rejection of them . And they
stood firm for her until she was ready to come back somewhat repentant . Ten years later
at
architecture college she wrote an essay on phenomenology which was
much admired by the tutor although he might have fancied her . Then at
the squat she started reading about zen and tried meditation and she
perished . her intellect is not always available to her as its seen as
uncaring , unfeminine , unloving . And gives people the impression that
she is strong , she is fine , doesnt need any help , and its quickly
crushed under these pressures . And she'll often defer to a man if
there is one around , if she feels shes coming across as a ball breaker .
And she does very much feel that she needs help and is not as strong and
independent as she appears to be
n
so is she not a feminist ? Lizzy would identify as a feminist actually ,
a ' cultural one ' who believes that our feminine whiles are part of
our power , our appearance , our sexuality , and yes sometimes our
submissiveness works out to our advantage and these ideas are enjoying a
comeback
while
of course retaining the right to vote and to work , although some would
complain that the right to work has become a ' duty to work ' and has
taken away too many women and caring men from being a ' person in the
home ' and that society and especially young people are consequently
suffering ...
hence all the knife crime
and
is Lizzy attracted to intellecutal prowess ? not always , any kind of
power can be attractive and sometimes vulnerability can be attractive
even in men . And sometimes vulnerability is power
