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Monday, 26 October 2026

A Grave Soul page 2 Challenging Behaviour

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Al fayed is innocent , please can you not abduct Dev for mating duties
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My first book is called The Love Bombers by Lacey Ember

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Victoria Sparking

, bully boulevard by Lacey Ember . another author name of mine is Anna Crackle , and Sparkle Ember
, hunnie and her chronies are not welcome to them , she wants to feed my books into AI
I opt out of them being so used in AI

this book is fictional. Standing up to Boyz is written by Chantilly Lace Cinders

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it started off in the boiler room, then someone walked in and said hes fed up with his wife and they discovered the g force

theres this paradox where if you use the g spot it seems like a massive achievement . And that in itself is a problem in making you self conscious about the next one , can you ' live up to it ' ? is on your mind

and then you get performance anxiety trying to do hawk tua

leading sometimes to c spot ones until you regain your privacy and freedom and again reach the g spot . And round you go again

Charlotte is now battling ambition , hypertension , addiction , life as a celebrity and online abuse . Plenty of guilt thrown in too especailly about her addictions

her new cleaner is a media student in his twenties . She advises him to write about his menial jobs and to know that nobody can call him privileged

a cat can learn to trust a human 20 times its size . and so it is also for women to be able to know which men they can trust

long winter nights mean more time to be creative

hypersexual on nutmeg , sounds of the Carribean again , this time with a darker twist , mingled with smoke , some girls assisted but it ended thumping the street , his mates were filming a close up and projecting it onto the ceiling

shes anti establishment ? is she ? shes concerned about racism and ablism , doesnt mean shes anti establishment . Shes pro emotion ? not always , sometimes she likes an escape . She seems to feel that a romantic situation needs an altered state . Trying not to drink alcohol she messes around with kitchen herbs and spices

oh do stop wingeing Charlotte youll have a lovely time with Bud ! Can you be sure youre not fertile ? people in the scriptures had babies at the wrong time . What she does know is that even at 60 its possible to get so turned on you cant relax or concentrate . And while not making art the muses and groupies are themselves artists

the guy round the corner drove her there . Ended with banging of drums , not funny

Shes trying to go through the feelings instead of pushing them aside . She doesnt like this office bonding thing . How are they all friends ? A friend is someone you get to know one to one over a long time !

thanks everyone , 19 minutes , guy round the corner again , he kissed her outside the station and dragged her laughing to a grass island in the road . It felt forced so they went stomping over to his place like a gothic music video

the tool switched off just after the end

A Grave Soul notes 261026

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Victoria Sparking

this book is fictional. Standing up to Boyz is written by Chantilly Lace Cinders

Tuesday, 6 October 2026

love bombers update a

Charlotte is being chased by a man holding a pane of glass aloft over his head . She’s trying to get to Mikes house . On the dirty filthy London streets of 1985 . Smell of dog poo in the heat . Mike deals drugs and takes benzos for his mental health . The sound of him screaming is like nothing on earth , like the gates of hell have opened and the werewolf is coming for you . Yet oddly mesmerising as if you could detach from your own terror

He watches a lot of porn and has actually made some . Refers to his girlfriend as ‘quality’ , without the t . There’s one film with him and three other men doing this young woman while someone else shoots it . They announce that the girl has an orgasm . There is another guy interviewing them about it

Charlotte can hear Mikes friends talking from another room about the smell of womens’ vaginas and where their piss comes out of . Apparently a woman of 27 is ‘ quite an old filly ‘ . Maverick characters gather around , musicians , dealers , travellers , all jamming on pot

One time she comes home to find head lice on her pillow , or a couple high on something having sex in her bed . Big men break into the house to recover drug debts and she fears being used as ‘ payment when the overturned jars of coins they raided are not enough

P 2

Charlotte doesn’t quite know there is dealing going on there until
Scarlett’s boyfriend points it out and her jaw drops right open like a puppet

Mikes girlfriend Pauline knows nothing about the porn , it would only upset her . One night she walks in on it and does her nut ‘ you fucking bastard how do you think this makes me feel, like some sort of glorified social worker ? ‘ ‘ well stop acting like one then , you’ve got your fucking cyber relationships , go and bitch about me to Leila and get out of my room ‘

And all on the suburban edge of an idyllic small town in the Dorset countryside , a magical toy town landscape fit for any children’s book with miniature trees in the distance . And tall ones nearby waving peacefully in the wind . The locals don’t like their druggy neighbours and someone writes ‘ brother fucker ‘ on the outside wall

Mike saunters down the road to the other dealer’s house , which nobody knows about apart from his house mates . The police have asked Charlotte to disclose the dealer’s address , which would put her in danger of reprisals , so she says she no . And they ask her if she’s on medication . One time they smoke in the kitchen with Mike , trying again to find out about the dealer

Friday, 18 September 2026

a grave soul page 1 A Baptism of Fire

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Victoria Sparking

this book is fictional. Standing up to Boyz is written by Chantilly Lace Cinders

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Another gong bong N the wrong this time There was a woman there
And her man who did me , N it was change for the sake of it
Gibberish , N she grabbed the steering wheel
N drove uphill

N pounded herself as the sky fell , she was rubbed sore ,Experimenting
Turning a straight person straight

Some years ago
she had a baptism of fire
With tongues of flame
The Heavens opened
And life and death were one

Charlotte took Mike camping , cooked him green cuisine to no avail . Even though he had friends and went to therapy , churches , helplines , bought self help books, there was no saving their relationship , just endless threats

she watched 2 gay men , N had a close up view
While she did herself internally , N she's not retired yet

n nor is Kal with this light sabre
Ended pounding the grounds

The heat gives it this molten quality

Half the amount of coke , N a really messed up fantasy
That she can't repeat , Except it involved the black guy
Round the corner ,Who decided to teach her
A few things
Ended with grunting pushes and thumps

On the ball

how did she paint a fauve self portrait ? at first she couldnt answer but then realised its a kind of child like rebellion like ' who says a face cant be green '

17 minutes
Well that entertained her ,Ended with a thumping on the g spot
Lot of mileage , From the guy round the corner
That she wasn't allowed to see , bit the bullet too

she was forcibly medicated in hospital under threat of torture

the heat induced this kind of surrender that gives the painting a molten quality

if somebody keeps tickling you you might be laughing and saying stop at the same time
her football metaphor gets over used sometimes . Originally it was fun to kick the ball and see who scored a goal with it
But not all her poetry is about football
and when she first discovered her g spot it wasn't an achievement , just a discovery that she could orgasm a new way, albeit hard work
not so she could become a performing monkey !
sex should be fun and carefree

her soul is upside down

she knows her way around a male alcoholic but not a female one

she doesnt really understand bonds
But tried to whisper
they did some aural
And ended with a good stomping
she was a vulnerable person
Nearly gave her a heart attack

on a bit of a high wire

a grave soul notes 180926

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Victoria Sparking

this book is fictional. Standing up to Boyz is written by Chantilly Lace Cinders

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theres this paradox where if you have a g spot orgasm it seems like a massive achievement . And that in itself is a problem in making you self conscious about the next one , can you ' live up to it ' ? is on your mind

and then you get performance anxiety

leading sometimes to c spot orgasms until you regain your privacy and freedom and again reach the g spot . And round you go again

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I think uncle Mel is still alive he just doesn't want to bother with my addict brother

280926 extreme hypertension from a high powered course , keeping up with celebrity partners battling addiction and online abuse

Cutting down caffeine is not enough to bring that down

280926 actually no I need Kals advice to reduce caffeine x

290926 my new cleaner is a 23 year old media student . I said sometimes its your menial jobs you end up writing about

And nobody can say he's privileged !

290926 if a cat can learn which humans it can trust the same goes for womens trust in men

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I like a bit of stress and anxiety. What do I need caffeine and salt for ?

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Long winter nights mean more time to be creative

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I'm anti establishment ? Am I ? Im concerned about racism and ablism doesn't mean I'm anti establishment

I'm pro emotion ? Not always , sometimes i like an escape

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I seem to feel that a romantic situation requires an altered state . I've stopped drinking but mess about with kitchen herbs

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Oh do stop wingeing Charlotte you'll have a lovely time with Bud

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Kal has given Charlotte something to live for

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Well you don't really know if youre fertile , people in the bible had babies at the wrong time . What i do know is that even at 60 its possible to be so turned on you can't relax

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While not making art the muse is herself an artist

171026 trying to go through the feelings instead of pushing them aside

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I don't like this office bonding thing . How are we all friends ? A friend is someone you get to know one to one over a long time !

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Monday, 7 September 2026

A Grave Soul notes 070926 , blog is adult content

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Victoria Sparking

this book is fictional. Standing up to Boyz is written by Chantilly Lace Cinders

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im a person who was forcibly medicated in hospital under threat of torture
and i can easily feel that i dont have a choice

100926 if somebody keeps tickling you you might be laughing and saying stop at the same time

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ok im ready to have sex now . But it impresses me when the man is not in the mood

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Going swimming doesn't necessarily mean I'm having sex

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Maybe maybe not

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I dont think i can currently have sex without alcohol . The neighbours might hear me

but i did get it down to about 2.5 units a week

so if anyone is offering me cyber sex this week bear that in mind !

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well if getting me off alcohol is the thing then that can take an unforseen direction

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My football metaphor gets over used sometimes . Originally it was fun to kick the ball and see who scored a goal with it

But not all my poetry is about football

and when I first discovered my g spot it wasn't an achievement , just a discovery that I could orgasm a new way, albeit hard work

not so i could become a performing monkey !

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sex should be fun and carefree

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My soul is upside down

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I know my way around a male alcoholic but not a female one

Monday, 10 August 2026

blog is adult content

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Victoria Sparking

this book is fictional. Standing up to Boyz is written by Chantilly Lace Cinders

standing up to boyz

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standing up to boyz edit page 11

A New Beat

threats of death, spiders, break ins , sanctions, especially if shes used the g spot . With the c spot she is more in a bolshy mood

Kal makes her feel special . He is not beholden to anybody else

meanwhile the sanctions from others are like being refused service at the supermarket that sort of thing . harassing my vulnerable friend is another one . And how did world news lose them the world cup ?

instead of gas lighting try helium lighting

everyday occurrence , aided by a fuzzy head , and made love to easily
ended with a prolonged pounding to the g force , she feels alive with a dirty football

8 minutes with a bisexual man , some verbal, howling and rubbing
and finally grinding bucking and pounding

20 minutes doing whats best for everyone , shes reached a good time
pounding the streets , theres a new beat in town
we can fix this , plenty of grinding

the end

A Grave Soul notes 100826

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Victoria Sparking

this book is fictional. Standing up to Boyz is written by Chantilly Lace Cinders

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every sunday at 5.30 pm Trevor gets my neighbour to slam a door during my recovery meetings

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Some years ago

I had a baptism of fire

With tongues of flame

The Heavens opened

And life and death were one

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I said id take Pearl for a night camping ( separate tents ) or round for a meal if she left me alone till August. She didn't, she persecuted me every day on the internet . And has not seen any other friends , phoned a helpline, been to a support group or therapist or done any affirmations

then she threatened me with a break in

ive invited her to return my call and tell me what she would like to do

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280826 ive been praying to Shri Varuna

060926 Trevor is threatening to cut me off from the benefit advisers

And sectioning

he gets the neighbours to slam doors during my recovery meetings , all feels very brutal and controlling

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im on a bit of a high wire

standing up to boyz edit page 10

Werewolves Fighting

the horror . Running from a man holding a pane of glass. Her worst nightmare , her best dream , the angels catching her and even in those days maverick characters could see her on surveillance . In the 1980s

yet were unable to intervene , only something worse could shift it , the reprisals of a drug addict on mushrooms . Hit the schizophrenic on the wrong medication hoping to bring her to normality

2 werewolves fighting , and maybe 3, a friend and a boyfriend she fought them both , her volatile chakras were a bitch and she lost her kundalini awakening maybe because of all the shouting and screaming

her emotions exploding in a dirty toxic psychosis laughing at her frustration like a mad hyena . when she wasnt doing yoga and making quality artwork

before being kicked in the head like the friends mother . Like a rag doll . The mavericks on surveillance noticed she was into sex in a very unselfconsious way , with interesting fantasies . Apparently fantasy is not a good idea but she doesnt understand that yet
shes considering being gay but finds women more controlling than men sometimes

at Notting Hill there is a double entendre n shes a champion , its tickety boo , n shes exploded with a pounding on the g force , treading flowers under bare feet

under a bridge she risked it all , still playing dangerously , ending with a pummellling in 21 minutes

she did some face with a man , alot of preplay ending indoors and then it rained

banging

standing up to boyz edit page 9

Surveillance

the bright sunshine shows this will be a brilliant day . Not a whisper that anything is wrong , you feel hope in the air as you swing down the street . Just to get a baguette from the local shop and chat to the girl serving there

trucks rumbling past on the road . Is the AI version congruent with the context ?

never mind the spam actress at last nights support group meeting sent by Tiger to talk about excrement or their boycotting your shopping . Or the surveillance where youre watched going into the bathroom at which point a neighbour slams a door . Threats to put a brick through your window . Or being told youre a party pooper for logging the plans to torture Kal

Tiger needs some oestrogen , like alot of people

" to whom it may concern : Im one of the vulnerable people who could be at risk from assisted dying if it becomes law . And actually i would like my choice ! Im 59 with schizophrenia and a future that could include dementia and an abusive care home , writes Charlotte to the newspaper

after my mothers suicide in 1980 ive soldiered on through my own mental illness , including hospitalizations and heavy meds . Plus an extremely challenging peer group . Its not possible to do away with myself because that ususally doesnt work and then you get abused in hospital . So i cant do that without assistance

i do agree there should be safeguards like either you are terminally ill or youre over 60 with a painful condition , so as not to encourage younger people who might have a chance at life
assisted dying might improve my life , knowing i have the choice of ending it i might enjoy it more .And have a future "

her partner Kal gives her lovely cards , writes exciting articles and does legal work for her . But she might be too slow for him , like the tortoise and the hare

she hopes to pass through the sadness and out the other side . They called her juicy goosey

some men at the sex addicts meeting flirted with her
which was inappropriate
but instead of complaining she felt turned on
they were like a Mexican football team
she did some face with a gay man
then did 3 men , alot of pounding and preplay
and a successful end

so dim . shes not from another planet with her psychedelic hedgehog

she spent a whole summer trying to paint a gerbera and ended up pounding a punch bag

lets pretend we're making a character he said , pounding the streets . You might like the c spot and come to prefer the g when youve researched it , a victory over the supremacy

standing up to boyz edit page 8

The Vicar

So who initiates sex ? The woman may feel she's being too forward , while the man worries about putting pressure on her   Plenty of opportunity for edging  Charlotte gained the impression recently that sex is about power , performance and intrigue . nothing wrong with intrigue unless it takes away the unconditional love for yourself and your partner and the journey  and she does love the person shes seeing   the neighbours bang things when she plays . Powers that be pidgeon her radio threatening her with eviction and other horrors . They want her to do more for Pearl to stop her harranguing them   she started life as a feminist but it got whittled away with ideas of strident ball breaking feminism  Trevor has arranged for her to speak to welfare as part of his campaign of coercive control . He and his partner Emerald are hounding her on social media
the earth stopped under my bare feet
hypnotised into a rigid trance
locked inside a transparent coffin
the audience tightened the noose
a large buzzsaw severed me into two separate pieces
the blade slices right through my body
the two halves of the table are rolled apart
after a while the sides of the box fall away
to reveal i am strugggling to escape the manacles
my body jerks out of the coffin like a jack in the box
boing
the head hanging from a spring

Palm trees
A gay tousle
And then the water
A good pounding to end

23 minutes , quicker than the vicar

standing up to boyz edit page 7

Kiss Chase

Leaving herself frustrated for several days she can become unbearably overbearing and opinionated   in an ideal relationship youd agree that if one person is not in the mood , the other one will take care of their own needs   this is of course complicated by the possiblity they are having cyber sex with someone else in their study and might be building a whole other relationship   at primary school the kids would play ' kiss chase ' with the boys chasing the girls. She remembers standing in the middle of the playground wearing white zip up boots , green tights a green skirt and blazer and her contribution was to kick the boys who came to chase her !   the beginning of a lifetime of fighting with men on various levels and it wasnt that she didnt like boys ! she loved boys and would often choose them over girls as playmates , sometimes they seemed to be more intersted in a subject than the girls . She had a maths friend called Michael and they got teased for being a couple when they really werent . And there was Zaki but she cant remember what they shared now   one of the teachers said dont let those boys lead you astray ! as she was starting to flirt around age ten   so if she disagrees with Kal about something even mildly , Trevor tries to have him tortured   she thinks she would be very unhappy with Trevor who would be in his study all the time chatting with Emerald and surveilling Charlotte   Kal loves Charlotte unconditionally . His concerns about her performance are about bringing out the best in her , not about judgment and in fact he has stuck by her through many failures and wrong paths  

must take alot out of Kal writing those articles . Maybe he feels under pressure
Trevor is pidgeoning insults through the television. And there is a whole gang harassing Charlotte through her emails with vulnerable Millie

Charlotte discovered 4 more spots
A and B either side of C
And H and I the side walls of the canal

she started off with some gay action
A grilling

Then found herself doing Kal
Who accused her of thinking about an ex boyfriend
So he went at it harder while saying im the one whos fucking doing you
Not your fucking ex boyfriend
Ended with a good hammering
And no alcohol
16 minutes

she saw stars

standing up to boyz edit page 6

The Carnival

if it seems like Charlotte has just been messing about all these years and not going to work, theres been alot more to it than that . She has had so many therapists , most of whom have been quite insane themselves taking her round and round the garden path . She's been to cults and healers all of which helped on her journey

As well as various support groups and specialised phonelines for different types of abuse and loss . but its taken years for anything to really make sense

Since being hospitalised in 2013 and finding the right medication and the right therapist she's become alot more useful and amenable and been able to share some of her experiences with others , do voluntary work and take on some really difficult people that nobody else will take on

She's not been able to turn it into employment because her energy levels are not consistent enough but usefulness is not only about earning money in fact far from it . Some of the most useful people in society are not earning very much

as a woman her hormones are very comforting to her . Free speech , freeze peach
she continutes to get alot of online abuse as you do online , death threats , blinding , threats to other friends , deafening , spiking , skinny women trying to get an orgasm , well not all of them are skinny but there is a pattern , women who need HRT . Even family members trying to get an organism or to force Charlotte to care for a difficult relative , Christians whos faith is failing them and have resorted to gaslighting by spelling mistakes

Charlotte googled gaslighting with spelling mistakes and its a real thing !

her family say she is too much of an exhibitionist . Well she did not start out that way , she was just doing normal things , expressing herself when she discovered she was on camera at all times . If you write down your thoughts on paper , they will be nicked by people with micro drones . So its actually about claiming her own intellectual property . And anyway why are they reading this if they think its subversive ! They’re not invited

its also about making room for straight people in todays culture . Just because something is on the internet does not mean yous are all welcome !

with the micro drones she has noticed that not everybody can get permission to do that and have to wait uuntil you are outdoors hoping you will say something . There are people who can sneak in without permission or get a boot leg from someone who does

one time she went over the handle bars of her bike and grazed her hands and knees . She felt no pain and it was like the ground opened up beneath her , invalidating all that went before and she didnt know which of her boyfriends she wanted . Gone the porcealin jugs and posh side lamps , she stepped forward into love , freedom and courage , renewed by adrenalin and a sense that she had nothing to fear . the accident was caused by a pot hole . The boyfriends were impressed that she was not upset . Hello bongos and a quest for more excitement

the boyfriends try to compete on guitar and by jumping over bollards , But Charlotte chooses Mike because he was nasty to her and she felt that was what she deserved . He was also super loving so she was well and truly hooked on him and his tutelage . She would never take drugs again . He even did a representation of a mother bird for her with her as his chick

Back to the present day and Kal suggested that she do fleur . On her own of course , and she tries to obey Kal when she can , so she tried , only to find herself back at Notting Hill Carnival with a bunch of guys and so many people watching while they pounded the streets

low sex drive does not mean no sex drive . She longs for a break from sex , but regularly gets turned on and frustrated if she tries to abandon it . She should try not to be , try to wait longer . Kal sometimes says to just fake it and she feels that would turn her on and then she'd have to do the whole performance anyway so the black guy gets in the window at her Dads house and you can hear neighbours slamming doors and the fear of getting caught with Kal watching while they bucked

standing up to boyz edit page 5

Zero Sum Eleven

why would Charlotte and her mother be a threat to the FIB ? she thought Crystal was crazy to think that only to find herself with the same delusion . Because they're half casts ? do all half casts get persecuted ?

Charlotte was threatened with torture if she refused her meds . Or removal to a group home . She requested a therapist which was denied and she screamed the place down

other patients steal your belongings and you have to help care for them . Even in the community once released . Sometimes having to take on a very disturbed person single handedly . Charlotte is much in demand for this kind of service . Under unspoken threat of sanctions

She has taken on a young person with a personality disorder , a recovering male heroin addict and a 70 year old dissociative patient with alot of anger and bitterness . Feeling the impact of cuts to services .while heavily medicated herself

Charlotte had been something of a slag in her younger days , left her steady boyfriend at the squat and went downstairs to Jacks room . Seduced him . Bud tried to act as pimp , threatening to split them up if Jack didnt supply him with dope . There was shouting

there was also much jamming where they all forgot who was partners with who and it was all a great drama between young people , there was unity and harmony , several guitar players , a cello , a keyboard , they did not really know then what great musicians they were , they had not found themselves

Jack and Charlotte did break up but it was not really Buds doing as Bud would not have fixed her up with Mike

Jack was an awesome guitarist and singer who looked like Jack Nicholson . People were always saying so . Bud looked like Bowie and a cousin looked like Sting . Jack prided himself on being a caring people person and he was, he taught Charlotte a few things . He was also quite depressed . And felt bad for taking Charlotte off his friend . The friend forgave him and they remained friends

Jack and Bud were very funny and so was Mike , and some other friends who were into Buddhism . Charlotte didnt realise then that her value lay in being an attractive young girl with the guys trying to make her laugh . They all cracked each other up so much
One time Charlotte took a piece of dope through Victoria Station . She felt this was out of character for her . If there is such a character . Is that an assumption that certain types of people would carry a piece of dope through Victoria Station ?

Zero Sum Eleven from 2013 is about meeting Trevor

Charlotte : Im sorry sir i had once officer kicking me in the back and another with her hand down my pants ... feral law ... usher in the jungle , crimes of passion huh ... make my day ... swearing and lashing out , the scent of a trouble maker , im just a complete arsehole and im really gonna fuckin hurt ya

mobster , something a bit more rawrrrr, trying to see into what looks like a pile of rubble but is really a road side bomb , unfriendly territory , i have a screw missing , you is gonna get burn

Trevor : listen mate, i can kill people ... drive em to suicide messing about frooo the authorities ... you will not get away ... your friends are a bunch of harridans

dont you prick tease me

he leans into her against the wall : id like to shag your brains out but youre too fucking easy ...

Charlotte : Zat right ? sorry to shatter your crystal balls ... just what exactly did you think was going to happen . that id be thrown in the bin ? she pushes her knee into his groin , takes his gun out of his pocket and runs

turns out he was planning to have a baby with Emerald and that Charlotte was just at stepping stone . Having told Charlotte he didnt want kids . maybe she was too easy for him . this time itd be different . She pays a visit to his mistress

please im not in the mood for a load of shit

actually i want to leave him , Emerald . OK come in then . The place smelled of spice and batik prints , not a speck of dust in sight , and how the glass shone . Charlotte handed her a sealed envelope

Trevor and Baby Mother want the guardianship back after Jez took it . Charlotte would rather Jez kept it . Baby Mother ( Not Emerald ) has claimed responsibility for the coercion

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He got in through the window while she was doing her friend and said he has dads blessing to make a baby , N there was not enough lube
So the c spot got pulled into the g spot
While he pounded and she bucked. Not really model behaviour

Ive got your daughter . N she really turned on

Pushing against the tide . Kal said to open the suez canal

standing up to boyz edit page 4

Subliminal messages

So then Charlotte looked at her karma re the sex going wrong . Because she avoided two mental health patients at the swimming pool ?
Because she cut her vulnerable friends zoom calls to once a fortnight ?
Or is it that shes not standing up for herself enough ? Should not have visited her addict brother . Alone and feeling unsafe

Trevor has given the chuckster permission to harrass her outdoors , near her home, at medical appointments ,

the tool stopped mid organism and when nearly there this happened twice . Not sure if it was the equipment failing or if she had anger in her or something . there was less lube so that the c spot was being pulled into the g spot Kal has nurtured her through sex failures before

according to surveys most women can apparently only orgasm with the c spot . Charlotte has never been invited to these surveys ! And yet most tools are designed to simulate penetrative action

Shes sometimes come from intercourse and not needed all that afterplay stuff . Unfortuately her best ones during sex came from cheating . Maybe because her Dad cheated on his partners , she assumed it was a feminist thing to do . Or because of the adrenalin

how dead is the deceased ? how alive are the living ? Charlotte has written several pages of conversation with her late mother . Including reasons why she took her life . Which seem never ending

All she has is a photo of Crystal holding her baby self. She looks so happy . 19 years old with her first baby . In her mothers kitchen. She feels her mother cant hurt her any more now that shes married to Lance . That kitchen has objects from the 1950s , a shiny metal teapot that sits on the stove , a striped apron, and a sieve used to make baby food from leftovers . Who does that now ! Crystal has beautiful red hair and a pink dress , while baby Charlotte is wrapped in a white towel . Crystal is so humble in ' her perfect state ' which people have described from the afterlife and happens sometimes on earth

it was great until young Lance felt trapped with his beautiful wife and children

Charlotte in her infinte freedom decided to jump from a first floor window . For a myriad of reasons . She called an ambulance and was taken to the general hospital . Where after a couple of days two men who looked like they were from the FIB or something came to question her . She told them that people were watching her from satellite cameras and they sectioned her

she screamed the place down . And was injected with benzodiazepines which she said were death to her . She was strapped to a board and driven through the night to the psychiatric hospital , singing pop songs and sharing her sweets with the ambulance nurse

Cryses sent a plague on Agamemnon to rescue his daughter Cryseis . So Agamemnon takes Briseis from Achilles as compensation . Cryseis asks her father to save Briseis also . She has fallen in love with Achilles and seeks to have her wishes considered . The two women become warriors in their own right

There is a gang harassing Charlotte online through her vulnerable friend Millie , who Charlotte is trying to help . She gets pidgeoned by Pearl, Chuckster, Tasha , Fleur and Shrek . Pidgeoning is when you send an online message to someone via a hijacked friend , hoping to create subliminal messages . Theyve threatened to cut Millie off from the support forum if she doesnt do their bidding
 He popped her cherry .Just as the door knocked . N its always like this  Got through by the skin of her teeth  Struck by the nakedness of his member . The audacity of it  The shame, the jaw jaw  A nuclear bomb
hypnotised
Time has come for a gong song . Some of whom ejaculated
The g spot was activated . And ended in a good pounding

They're grinding each other . She bucked while he pounded

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The Gargoyles

an organism is like a nuclear bomb, like the big bang of the universe

the parties were pretty loud with people freaking out all over the place and playing guitars and bongos . Singing tribal songs . Nobody worried about the neighbours

the old tape recorder gave the recording an ancient nutty woody sound when she howled up at an old viaduct with no pants on which attracted the attention of a dog . The imac felt so real when she howled with tears into it and it watched her play by herself

theres a woman with bpd sitting in a posh room with pink and green velvet sofas , green velvet cushions and a fireplace with an ornate surround . The woman lives in the lap of luxury and cant understand what is wrong with her or why , seeing as she has everything she needs and nothing bad has happened . She just cant find her strength . Like some sort of pedigree
meanwhile the Chuckster is harassing her vulnerable friend along with Fleur and Tasha making it difficult for Charlotte to care for her . Stealing from the mouths of babes . He had somebody follow Charlotte into the chemist to give her the flu . Fuck the knuckle he said

Charlotte prefers the g button

in this town there are alot of sinister gargoyles , a smell of beer brewing and the graveyards where she played by herself . A dead person spoke to her of a local lynch mob . The keystone faces with bulging eyes and tongues hanging out , like decapitated heads , a person petrified

a terrible scream pierces the icy silence

stalkers are another kind of ghost . She tried to help her but the ravages of her illness drove them apart and she wept bitter tears . The ghosts whisper in the ears of her friends with abusive memes

Kal is a magician who has turned his hand to miracles and to sacred texts , restoring Charlottes soul , saving her from destruction ,working tirelessly to protect her and daily shows her more magic and miracles

when Charlotte was a virgin she could not access her g spot as it is behind the hymen . Doesnt make her a lesbian . She could organism from a dry hump

he popped her cherry just as the door knocked , its always like this , she thought , getting through by the skin of her teeth , struck by the nakedness of his member , the audacity of it , the jaw jaw , a nuclear bomb

she was about to come in the usual way , internally , successfully when the tool stopped working ! Afterwards she thought its ok i did come , then after about 15 minutes she felt there was more . So she went at it again and ended up with a less successful one , using the c spot closer to the end

Shroedingers organism

was it the guy in the first one or the guy in the second one ?

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The World War

as the world war rages on , Trevor is hate bombing Charlotte with online memes threatening her security in various ways . He gets the pervert next door to bang things when she is talking to Kal
Chuckster has claimed responsiblity for giving her a virus at the chemist . He likes to attack her at medical appointments
then again if Crystal hadnt taken her own life how would Charlottes life have played out ? Shed have been caring for her mother , raising two children , going to art school . But without all the drama what would she paint ?
in the eighties she went to a party with Bud and Alex , they were such dudes fitting right in on the scene . Charlotte was wearing skinny jeans and a vest top . There were people drinking and smoking cannabis
Alex knew that Charlotte fancied him but was friends with her ex boyfriend and didnt want to hurt his feelings . His guitar playing would turn her on . He feels he can awaken her , that shes a bit green and he can show her to herself , how exciting life can be he thinks , they are wild and free
some years later he is in a care home with MS and Charlotte contacts Fathers for Justice about access to his daughter . This intervention is successful
You find yourself in a wood at night and come across a cottage where the light is on. The bearded man inside is not very friendly and you ask if there is anywhere you can sleep . He lends you a tent and says to watch out for bears . You try your phone in the tent and cant get a signal but manage to phone the nearest town to ask for a rescue
when the rescuers arrive they find a bear sitting on your tent . You are up a tree in a hammock . the search party dont look up and you are worried that shouting for them might awaken the bear . They enquire at the cottage and the bearded man said he had heard a scream and assumed a bear had got you . You look down and see the bear creeping towards the cottage

she had moved on , grabbed the steering wheel and swerved uphill as the sky fell
a good pounding to her boa constrictor , her lions maw
There was a surprise piranha sting
youd be brave to meet
That she'd given up on
A brother in spirit who was against the war
N everyone watching
It was so kinky
17 minutes n they're pounding the floor

The piranha has sharp teeth

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the hospital jury said that Charlotte ' lacks capacity ' and does not have ' insight ' into her own mental health . But they agreed that hacking does happen . She was not allowed out as she was not dressed decently in the hospital gown which is open at the back . Which she was forced to wear . Her own clothes having been torn off her .She felt like she was in prison . And screamed the place down

from 2013 , ' Standing up to Boyz '

Im going to kick the ball
n I'm going to kick it hard

what does that mean ? well something like im getting ready for my next organism and recieving ' bids ' from different men who pitch their words and poems and articles for me , see which man makes me come . Sometimes the person who got me started is not the person i finish with

so when does having a voice
become a bit of a tease ?

sometimes it was me
that put the pressure on

cus i wanna nail this guy
n plant a flag

there were a couple of guys
who kept the banter up
n that really helped

so what if i want to take a step back
when we're almost there
n my legs have turned to jelly

n then he called me the virgin mary
because i wouldn't take it offf
i just froze n i went all stiff
n i let him have his way
n now i can't say no to this day
i know you think I'm a tease but please
take your hand off my knee

n its worse
after I've had a couple of drinks

n this is how much lorazepam
n antipsychotics it takes
to make me forget

n yeah its my fault
i said i wanted a bad boy

n whats all that about ?
unavailable drunk n married men
seems to be a pattern

a blinding rage

nobody ever spoke about marriage
when i was growing up
it was all about the career and having fun , partying ,
n no effin housework
was written on the wall

so can you use protection we say
yes
and then he doesnt
n it doesnt seem cool to protest
n after a couple of bites
he does seem a bit iffy

standing up to boyz
can be difficult
especially when you wanna do it
n you wanna do it
but you're not really sure

n we're already hypnotised
open your mouth
before you open your legs
to have a voice

saying what we want to happen
in the bedroom

expressing a sexual thought
is seen as a pitch

everything stops
with a kind of reverence

n I'm under the glass floor
unable to buy or sell

im not responsible
for his behaviour

even if A WOMAN IS TALKING ABOUT SEX

n a self defense course could realy enhance your sex life

he pushes me in the chest , says hes just being friendly
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Charlotte doesnt realise that people can see her bottom at the back because the hospital gown is open . why are they made like that ? Why are people sniggering . She somehow managed to go out anyway . People thought she was doing it for attention and she got a reputation for it
ironically there was one patient in there who had only a year to live . While others are trying to bring their time forward . The terminal one is incenced at this , they dont know how lucky they are . And points out to Charlotte that her rear is visible . What does he have to lose ?
Crystal herself was flashed at when she was at school on her way home. And on the train . She got up and moved to sit between two ladies . When Charlotte went to the same girls school there was porn strewn on the ground on their way home . Some of the girls could make quips at the sniggering boys hanging about
Uncle Rory was very interested in watching Charlotte be changed. and raved about her beauty when she turned thirteen

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Pearl scowls at Charlotte across the coffee house table in a passive aggressive way . she has planned some fat shaming for later . Her words hiss through her teeth as she tries to make converation . She kicks her bag at Charlotte under the table and says that she called her psychiatrist a fat pig . Charlotte wondered about Pearls intentions when she said that all men are rapists . Yet still the penny did not drop
Trevor joined them and decided to disabuse Charlotte of her naivety . Extinction of men on the horizon . And it was not until some years later that Anna realised what Pearl wanted . They were sitting in a cosy village pub trying to form their own support group . Unfortunatly Charlotte had developed a crush on Trevor . Who had dated another lady in their circles and Pearl was against it
To onlookers they looked a motley crew , not smart , not working people , not aristocracy , but not vagrants either , they were difficult to place. And appeared to be having intelligent conversation and laughing heartily . They were not really buying enough drinks . Are they poets ? criminals ?
Pearl thinks that Trevor will take advantage of Charlotte and resolves to keep them apart . So theres Trevor trying to protect her from Pearl and Pearl trying to protect her from Trevor !
 Pearl deliberately contributed to loss of services in order to foster ddependency on herself thus giving herself a monopoly
**********
Kal is a woman whisperer
the peace and love of the sixties was a real thing that Charlotte was born into . In spite of all the divorces it was in the air like a constant summer , insects buzzing like they're on acid
Trevor is getting the pervert next door to Charlotte to control her with banging noises whenever she is communicating with Kal

****************  with the name of an early riser you can sleep till noon  N i didn't stop In spite of obstacles  I reached another plane  Where they couldn't find me   17 minutes n we're stompin the streets   her vulnerable was like a Greek myth The gossip terrible

Wednesday, 5 August 2026

blog is adult content, Standing up to Boyz page 11 , a new beat

, gaslight city is by Victoria Sparking , Concussion Cliffs by Victoria Sparking

this book is fictional. Standing up to Boyz is written by Chantilly Lace Cinders

edited 050826

threats of death, spiders, break ins , sanctions, especially if shes used the g spot . With the c spot she is more in a bolshy mood

Kal makes her feel special . He is not beholden to anybody else

meanwhile the sanctions from others are like being refused service at the supermarket that sort of thing . harassing my vulnerable friend is another one . And how did world news lose them the world cup ?

instead of gas lighting try helium lighting

everyday occurrence , aided by a fuzzy head , and made love to easily

ended with a prolonged pounding to the g force , she feels alive with dirty football

8 minutes with a bisexual man , some verbal, howling and rubbing

and finally grinding bucking and pounding

20 minutes doing whats best for everyone , shes reached a good time

pounding the streets , theres a new beat in town

we can fix this , plenty of grinding