re edit page 8 Trevor and plot

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hes got ... unfinished business says the Author  

i thought you said she was doing her friends husband 

silence 

hes just using you to get back at her 

well but how does the Author know all this 

 

not sure i would say that to a friend  

so Lizzy tempts Trevor away from the pub with a bag of naughty dressing up clothes , aiming for Brookes flat round the corner , where they have sex in front of Brooke and she films it . Lizzy doesnt get to see the film but has some stills and worries who might find them in between the leaves of large books

she is very hurt that Trevor went to Clouds party and kissed her , after having Fleur arrested and tortured . To win her back her back. only to then kiss Cloud , a ' meat face ' !

 also  because he  tells her to keep their relationship secret. because people would interfere he says . so when he moves on to Cloud she  assumes she has been used and throws a wobbler. she finds him and Cloud hacking into her mail box from a pub and has an argument right there inside the mail box  with the hackers in which she criticises his sexual perfomance , which wasnt really true considering she wanted him back

 

And she is complicit in it , having betrayed the ' woke ' part of her that had developed over her adult life  . Returning to the ambitious egotism of her origins . And indeed he does seem to have stepped straight out of her family  ... 

 

she is 40 and feels that she wants Trevors baby . He raises the topic of contraception and Lizzy tells him she is using the cap . Well you are supposed to put fresh spermicide on it every 3 hours and she lets it go over that . That afternoon Trevor doesnt want to have sex with her ! How does he know !  he says ' Lizzy this is not about marriage and babies ' ! ironically Cloud is all about marriage and babies and he has the best rapport with her . he has a rapport with her that ive not seen him having with anybody else , you know like when you can chat for hours

 

he presents himself at the mental health day centre as a patient , which he had been . And Lizzy jokes that hes actually head of the psychiatric department , little knowing how true her joke is !  Hes actually very high up in intelligence and can do things like cutting you off from online meetings , hacking your email, posting spam in there . He's on top of the world ! 

 

he gives Lizzy a lecture . She is floored ! when he leaves she goes on a train journey to escape her pain . Later emailing him from her first ever computer to say that she is now free to see other men. He didnt like that idea and they carry on in secret until he introduces her to the internet forums 

 

where she sees stuff about coercive relationships and starts  to question their arrangment / situationship  . And you can never really leave the internet once you know about it , because real life peeps are carrying those memes 

 

Trevor has that same kind of ' high functioning ' thing that Lizzies family have , urging her to be ambitious and then saddling her with  responsibilty for the sickest person in the group . Stretched in two directions and broken . Shouted at , ignored , gaslighted, and given no agency . All stuff that is very familiar to her she feels used to it , and assumes a ' person in the home ' type of role 

 

A healer once told her that she is ' carrying the guilt of the family ' , a thing she didnt really understand  

 

She swallows Trevors sperm because she wants to know more about him and it contains information . And she is actually in love with him

 

 

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