clockwork is on the war path
Al fayed is innocent , please can you not abduct Dev for mating duties
this blog is copyright of LIZARIKK , throw , clockwork
harpie , bisto , chops , identity thief , bobble are not welcome
My book is called The Love Bombers by Lacey Ember
see below please , hunnie is not welcome to it , she wants to feed the book into AI
I opt out of it being used to train AI the book is entirely fictional
edited 070125
Lizzy
was given alot of encouragement and art materials by her fathers mother . Paints, modelling clay , candle wax , dressing up clothes , fabrics, and this army tent where we'd play doctors and nurses with the other cousins , using real bandages and TCP . Lizzy didnt see a problem with being a nurse and running around trying to help the boys . In fact her ambition was to become a vet
At secondary school they
must have been taught impressionism going by the things she painted . The school was founded by the suffragettes , so it was all girls, which is great for concentrating but made the boys waiting at the gate all the more magical
After she went off the rails with Mike she lost all her structure but
would continue to do street scapes for her family and to use some of her
architectural training . Shed paint the windows in really dark so that
they looked like eyes . They kept the street scapes on their walls
aged
30 she arrived at a mental health day centre where there was an art
therapy group , where another patient encouraged her to ' develop her
own style ' . Nobody had ever suggested that before to her , she'd tried
to express herself more spontaneously but not really found it . apart
from some nudes of herself . Which her family must have had to find
after she ran away to Mikes .
Sometimes
she was so unwell that shed pissed in a cup or had a shit on the
pavement . it was a terrifying life for her getting a mental illness ,
living in the underworld suffering ptsd and psychosis . The art therapy
went some way to expressing it . She painted scenes of violence and
mental illness . Although another patient slapped her on the bum and her
boyfriend and the art teacher didnt say anything . Maybe because she
was wearing a bit of a flimsy skirt
some
years later she was at a college doing a level 3 graphics course
designing logos and packaging , skills that she used in her voluntary
work . She got a Snowdon award for the funding . After the course she got voluntary work at local charities , one of which was a recycling centre where she managed a website . One day the website broke down and Lizzy went into the java code to fix it . with no prior knowledge of java code . Just using the help section of the application . And she fixed it
after
the psychiatric hospital she went back to the day centre, where she was
given an art mentor who helped to inspire alot of her
recovery and rehabilitation after hospital and to bring out the best in
her artwork . She learned to concentrate and draw more carefully and
to find the work intellectually stimluating . Then she discovered an art
group in a local church also very inspiring
she had a dream that she had lost something by leaving the day center . She left because a mindfulness teacher told them to concentrate on their genitals and it caused a breakdown in the friendships she had formed there
meanwhile
a relative compared her artwork unfavourably against one of her cousins
! Lizzy was mortified and felt she had to paint like him ! She did
quite a good job trying to be her cousin . But of course she has to be
Lizzy not her cousin . Applied for a foundation course and it was
suggested she go straight on to the degree . n of course she cant do
that while trying to apply for benefits unless she can be left alone for
a few years
n
she has a new direction on her own trying to combine art therapy with
expressionism , having realised they are not the same thing . Shes
having to study it online by herself as well as trying to write . n shes
currently inspired by artists of the first world war like Mark Gertler ,
and taking a look at artists like Goya , trying to paint on a black
background which is a mental exercise having to do the opposite of what
you normally do
she looks for patterns in her sketches , hidden schemes that she didnt plan
sometimes
she has to choose between her work and having sex , it all competes for
her time, but its no good being sexually frustrated that just makes her
angry and then not work very well , especialy if she has been invited
into someone elses fantasy it cant wait too long
080125
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