love bombers second draft page 14 Trevor

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 Trevor is a very good looking man who actually attends the mental health day centre , along with some other very powerful patients actually . Including ' the Author ' as Lizzy calls her , they are friends, and a fireman who is not mentallly ill, a powerhouse of gossip and intelligence

 

shes seen Trevor around before but not really paid much attention to him, hes not a ' wild boy ' , but more looks like a gentleman . And one day he shows an interest in Lizzy and she notices his movie star looks . Like a cross between George Clooney and Al Pacino . And shes smitten

 

they go out to the pub with other friends from the day centre , the banter around ' men versus women ' challenges of class and the superiority of the mentally ill . They plan to form a kind of support group . Trevors friend Chris asks Lizzy if she wants to be used as a breeding horse . And she says there are other ways to mate like using a turkey baster 

Lizzy makes jokes about marriage and having to spend your life in the same bed and how shes too angry for that ' do you take this man to stagnate with for the rest of your life ' ? to share the pipe and slippers and to sit bored at sunday lunch . He was maverick and called the Author and Mavis a bunch of harridans . Well Lizzy should have defended them but they had been giving her a lecture and well ... she should have defended them anyway

 

the Author senses Lizzys interest in Trevor and at an all girls session informs her that he has unfinished business with his ex girlfriend Wren . Well Lizzy has heard that Wren is doing a friends husband . And feels that the Authors warning is not valid . At least the way she puts it , although maybe a warning was warranted but not that   . They didnt have unfinished business 

What ensues is that Trevor tells Lizzy she is ' too easy ' and that she is to keep their relationship a secret . Which is kind of worrying , although considering what they do at Charlottes house might be understandable 

so Lizzy tempts Trevor away from the pub with a bag of naughty dressing up clothes , aiming for Charlottes house round the corner , where they have sex in front of her and she films it . Lizzy doesnt get to see the film but has some stills and worries who might find them in between the leaves of some large books that she cant actually find

she is very hurt that Trevor goes to Clouds party and kisses her , after having Fleur arrested and tortured . To win her back her back. only to then kiss Cloud at a ' meat face ' !

 also  because he  tells her to keep their relationship secret. because people would interfere he says . so when he moves on to Cloud she  assumes she has been used and throws a wobbler. she finds him and Cloud hacking into her mail box from a pub and has an argument right there inside the mail box  with the hackers in which she criticises his sexual perfomance , which isnt really true considering she wants him back

 

And she is complicit in it , having betrayed the ' woke ' part of her that has developed over her adult life  . Returning to the ambitious egotism of her origins . And indeed he does seem to have stepped straight out of her family  ... 

 

she is 40 and feels that she wants Trevors baby . He raises the topic of contraception and Lizzy tells him she is using the cap . Well you are supposed to put fresh spermicide on it every 3 hours and she lets it go over that . That afternoon Trevor doesnt want to have sex with her ! How does he know !  he says ' Lizzy this is not about marriage and babies ' ! ironically Cloud is all about marriage and babies and he has the best rapport with her . he has a rapport with her that Lizzy has not seen him having with anybody else , you know like when you can chat for hours

 

he presents himself at the mental health day centre as a patient , which he had been . And Lizzy jokes that hes actually head of the psychiatric department , little knowing how true her joke is !  Hes actually very high up in intelligence and can do things like cutting you off from online meetings , hacking your email, posting spam in there . He's on top of the world !  He tells Lizzy that he can kill people by messing with the authorities

 

he gives Lizzy a lecture . She is floored ! when he leaves she goes on a train journey to escape her pain . Later emailing him from her first ever computer,  a little i mac cube , to say that she is now free to see other men. He didnt like that idea and they carry on in secret until he introduces her to the internet forums 

 

where she sees stuff about coercive relationships and starts  to question their  ' arrangment / situationship '  . And you can never really leave the internet once you know about it , because real life peeps are carrying those memes 

 

Trevor has that same kind of ' high functioning ' thing that Lizzies family have , urging her to be ambitious and then saddling her with  responsibilty for the sickest person in the group . Stretched in two directions and broken . Shouted at , ignored , gaslighted, and given no agency . All stuff that is very familiar to her she feels used to it , and assumes a ' person in the home ' type of role 

 

A healer once told her that she is ' carrying the guilt of the family ' , a thing she didnt really understand  

 

She swallows Trevors sperm because she wants to know more about him and it contains information . And she is actually in love with him. And he is someone she wants to be friends with even if they split up , they are both interested in classical art and music , classical culture , and western memes , highly educated pedigrees

in fact Lizzy is probably in intelligence herself if she were not so paranoid 

and they dance so gracefully together at parties . Just she should be more ' Jane Austen ' about things . Not because the Author tells her so . But because its more spiritual . She should keep more of a distance , be more aloof and not give so much away 

not give away her whole body at once, for instance

 

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