Flora continued

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i look and look and still no sign 

and it looks alot more like my mother now I've lost it 

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and she's moved into what used to be a family home 

where her aunt used to live 

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slight alteration to mouth this looks closest to my version 

dear aunt 

I'm really sorry to bring this up again ...

i am in alot of pain

wanting a photograph of that fairys face ...

its a bit like when i lost the puppet

and in order to not hold a grudge i need to make that clear ...

im also thinking of submitting it as part of an exhibition

can you just photograph the face

and email it to me please i implore you ...

and before it gets worked on

after which it might look different

i will also try to visit sometime 

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n this is some kind of an attitude thing 

like i want to 'make her do it' 

and she will of course 

sense that and dig her heels in 

my chest and heart

are full of fractured bones 


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and its like sometimes my need to get a result 

takes precedence over my relationship with a person 

like I'm more concerned with getting that photograph 

than i am with my how i approach it 

and the need to be patient 

the nurses in hospital said you have to give people a chance 

its like then you are waiting all day for a newspaper 

and you wonder when is it appropriate to badger people for what you want 

x 

and the tapestry starts to tell a story 

like the lost puppet 

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makes you wonder what happened before cameras 

wen you couldn't make a copy 

and were great works lost in fires or stolen 

i suppose i thought it wasnt my design 

i can see now that my rendering of the face is quite unique 

and that it resembles my mother and maternal grandmother 

theres are other peoples renderings