clockwork is on the war path
Al fayed is innocent , please can you not abduct Dev for mating duties
this blog is copyright of LIZARIKK , throw , clockwork
harpie , bisto , chops , identity thief , bobble are not welcome
My book is called The Love Bombers by Lacey Ember
see below please , hunnie is not welcome to it , she wants to feed the book into AI
I opt out of it being used to train AI
Lizzy stepped out of a privileged life into the underworld aged 21 when she and her brother opened a squat to live in . Chadwell street in fact in London , they got in the back window and changed the lock . She was with Jez . It was a charming house they only had for a few weeks before the neighbours got them kicked out . the church bells had a special spooky melancholy to them as they probably still do
she had a job in an architecture firm but didnt stay long as she was becoming mentallly unwell . she tried to iron her blue pastel suit with a frying pan . she took a job in a jewellery packing firm for a while which was fun there in the East End of London , there were parties that were out of this world , they really knew a good time . Just like the tv series actually
they smoked alot of cannabis at the squat , she lost all her routine and structure , was diagnosed with ME and never regained herself . it was fun though there were colourful characters at the squat , musicians , poets , reallly funny people, they had jams , parties , gatherings , singing with guitars , a magical time there , and of course they thought they would change the world , the word at the time was ' aware ' , before woke came in . there were also spiritual gurus , some of which were predatory , but Lizzy didnt really know the difference she was just enchanted with this new world she had discovered after 21 years in academia
Lizzy tried to seek help for her mental health , but a doctor and his student laughed at her and that put her off . A therapist sat with her hand between her legs in a provocative way and that also contributed to a sense that Lizzy couldnt be helped . So there she was plunged into a world of mental health patients and drug addicts standing up to the monsters all by herself with no skills . She started the relationship with Mike which was also a very colourful experience . She gained weight trying to protect herself . And embarked on a quest to help people with their disorders , with no training or experience . Taking all the blame when it went pear shaped
with her model looks she could have been an actress but she had some idea that her ambition was to be her authentic self . To follow her heart and soul and be authentic rather than treading the boards as someone else . and the London underworld was her chosen setting
she had perfect skin , very long legs and was slim and pretty with short hair
she was gormless and had no street skills plus some people found her condesending , so if they werent hitting her theyd be giving her verbal abuse and blaming her for everything that had ever happened to them . Part of her yearned to go back to the middle class life and her studies . which in later years she did. But when medications are reduced , this trap door opens up beneath her that reminds her of her life in the underworld and how exciting it was , the adrenalin and feeling intensely alive . And shed try to live in both worlds ending up burned out
she was living the dream dating the sexy bad boys of the underworld , rough and raw
it was not always the case that she could fall back on her family who were very hurt and betrayed by her new life . Lizzy was very psychotic and alienated from them . She felt she had to put on an act and was estranged from her Dad for 3 years , sometimes having to sleep outside after a fight with Mike . Even when she did finally join them she was under a glass floor having to care for her addict brother who was very abusive for a number of years . Lacking the confidence and energy to strike out on her own
her sexuality also gave her courage and made the painful times worth while. As her stepmother pointed out she couldnt leave Mike until that happened physically . Strictly speaking youre supposed to be single for a while after a break up , but the hold he had on her was so strong that it took falling in love with someone else to break it , falling in love with Simon and being around his groups of friends created a new life for her , a new sex life that altered the frequency of her thoughts and he also helped her to get out of the squat and into supported housing , where theyd entertain friends and watch porn together . they remained friends even after they broke up , in fact she tried to get back with him after they broke up , she slept with him then found he was with someone else , which created a heart break that was difficult to come back from . she became very depressed for a couple of years and tried to do therapeutic activities with the mental health community
and Lee she thinks might have tried to kill himself in her home , she found him unconscious on the floor and called an ambulance . he wanted to marry her and that was not to be , she wasnt ready for marriage at that point even at 35 years old , even though it was the best sex , she would have more likely married Simon
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