edit page 17 LIzzys ancestors and spirituality

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Lizzys mothers grandmother was a medium. when the grandmother was a little girl she had to sit through the seances , saw teacups rattle and would hide under the table  . There was also a streak of maternal abuse 

 

her Dads grandfather was a coal miner in Northumberland who died in a mining accident . His widow kept things going for her two sons and Lizzy went on to take her maiden name . Which actually Mike had suggested something simlar . It made her feel grounded 

 

Grandpa moved to London with his wife and made good as a French professor and news reader . Apparenlty his line came from poor German jews escaping the war , fiddler on the roof types 

 

Bud tried to hold a seance when he was a teenager and Lizzy walked out of it into the garden she didnt like the atmosphere  . someone turned up to the party dressed as a mummy which really scared everyone , there were people screaming in there and their mentally ill mother 

 

Lizzys mother always felt that her father was not her real father and that grandmother had an affair with a fighter pilot in the war . This kind of rings true for Lizzy as she , mum and Bud seem to have strong celtic traits that are not in their other relatives  

 

Spirituality only really began for Lizzy aged 21 , just before meeting Mike , exploring Zen and then what Mike was promoting ' Sahaja Yoga ' which is a branch of Hinduism that also embraces Jesus . Its a beautiful combination , that recognises different ' deities ' watching over the different chakras in the body , like Mahavira who was a guru who respected all life and would strive not to tread on an insect  

 

she had a few spiritual experiences in the squat exploring ' thoughtless awareness ' and a more powerful one at Mikes a full kundalini awakening . Shes had many peak experiences since then but never again the full kundalini . Shri Mataji says that can be damaged . so either that or shes not been able to achieve the level of peace and stillness needed for it to raise  . Maybe its damaged if you hear alot of screaming 

 

she was ' born again ' but with no real guidance as to how to use that , she went from one dark time to another doing whatever she felt like , confident that Jesus would get her out of whatever disaster she had next walked into  

 

so the self destruction went on until she was about 35 and found herself single after a series of disastrous relationships with self harmers  . She went to a 12 step programm for relatives of alcoholics , found some solid ground and there realised she had a responsiblity to take better care of herself . A principle tenet being to ask for Higher Powers will not your own. which seems at odds with religions ' ask and ye shall recieve ' . i guess you can ask but be accpeting if you dont get what you asked for  

 

in fact you might get something better , something beyond your wildest dreams  . She never would have imagined she had the courage to go paragliding . Takes faith to do things like that . And a brilliant instructor 

 

she came off her meds for a few years and was quite stable , although she always felt there was something wrong , she progressively became isolated and her behaviour more warped